But not Me

Request

The meeting that Bagas and Faisal had agreed on was finally done as well, the two of them now feel at one of the restaurants where they usually meet if they want to tell each other about whatever happens in their lives.

They sat facing each other, but neither of them started the conversation, the atmosphere there became extremely cold and both of them looked clumsy, or perhaps rather confused about where to start their conversation from.

Feeling uncomfortable with the leg between them, Faisal finally began to talk with his cousin.

"What are you calling me all of a sudden like this?" Faisal tried to control and control his emotions to stay calm, even though in his heart honestly he felt careless, perhaps it was because of guilt in his cousin for hiding his wife and child for months.

"Why, can't I talk to my cousin, this one?" Bagas smiled obliquely but felt cold and bland, not as usual.

Of course Faisal also felt the change in Bagas' attitude, the last time he met him while in the hospital, Bagas still behaved normally to him, like a big brother in general, they also often argue, he said, disagreements, quarrels even when teenagers used to often fight with each other, but some moments get along again, but now the aura shown by Bagas is completely different.

"Emh, yes not so, it's just-" Faisal was confused to string the words to convey to his cousin, he was very aware that he was in the wrong position at the moment, however Bagas is the legal husband and biological father of the baby in Dara's birth, although he receives stories of Bagas' ill-treatment from Dara's side, but shouldn't he not be too far into the realm of his cousin's household? Especially hiding it that long.

However, what must be regretted, all has happened, and the only way he has to do is to face and account for his decision to save Dara a few months ago.

"Are you hiding something from me?" bagas asked again, sounding flat and relaxed, but felt like a rumble in Faisal's ears.

"What do you mean?" elak Faisal's.

"I'm sure you know what I mean, have I ever done you wrong? Did I ever hurt you as a sister? I'm sorry if the answer is yes." the words that slid from Bagas' lips began to be full of emotion and emphasis, his eyes continued to pay attention to the gestures of Faisal who drank his drink repeatedly, a sign that the interlocutor is currently in a state of discomfort or may feel intimidated by the question Bagas.

"I don't understand where you're going" Faisal pleaded.

"You sure know me, all this time I've never lied to you, except about my marriage, because I'm sure you'll be against it, and I just wasn't ready to tell you, Cal,,,,, I was,,, are you hiding something from me?" ask Bagas again.

But Faisal kept his mouth shut, not a word he said.

"Well, it's probably the same with me at the time, you're just not ready to talk about it with me yet," it went back to a few seconds of silence because it seemed like Bagas also repeatedly sighed heavily and long before continuing his conversation, while Faisal was still at home to keep quiet.

Faisal nodded despite his somewhat hesitation, he could not imagine that Bagas turned out to ask himself to return Dara to him, what should he say? On the one hand she has no rights over Dara and her baby, but on the other hand, she is also not ready to part with Dara who starts to sow the seeds of love in her heart, although he knew it was wrong, especially his selfish side also suddenly sticking strong when he felt he had the baby because he was present in the growth and development of the fetus for almost 8 months, but again his position in this case is still lost and wrong so inevitably he must be ready with the request of what will be said Bagas to him.

"I don't know what's the reason you've been hiding my wife all this time, nor do I know what your relationship has been like, which I obviously don't want to second-guess and find out, because I'm afraid the answer will be very painful and make me disappointed in one of you, or even both of you, but I also won't force him to come back to me, if he doesn't want to. I realize that I have hurt and disappointed him a lot, if he is more comfortable and happier with you, please take care of my wife and children, and say my apologies to them, tell them I-I-Bagas paused his words which now sounded shaky-I'm sorry if I just realized that I love them both." Sort Bagas with difficulty, his chest felt tight, and his throat suddenly hurt with eyes that began to feel hot and teary.

It was a long expression of Bagas' feelings that made Faisal's heart increasingly agitated and felt guilty, never in his lifetime had he witnessed Bagas speak as deeply and seriously as that, until Faisal could feel how big and how deep Bagas felt for Dara.

But of course it became a dilemma in itself, really he was more expecting the figure of Bagas who was arrogant and would be furious at him or even beat him all over because of this problem, because of this problem, because it would be a strong reason for him to keep Dara on his side, but it turned out to be all beyond prediction, the attitude shown by Bagas at this time actually made him feel very guilty and sinful because it turned out to have made Bagas suffer so much for the loss of Dara.

"I'll try to tell you," Faisal said in the end.

"Thank you, are my wife and kids happy?" ask Bagas.

"To my knowledge, Dara is happy, and to your hero, I think she's also happy because I've never seen her face, she's still in your wife's belly!" faisal said trying to melt the atmosphere with a joke that still sounded crisp.

"Hits champ? She-is?"

"Yes, from the results of the USG it looks like your son."

Bagas smiled wryly.

"Cal, I'm going to be a father, but Iroisnya maybe my son will never know if I am his father," said Bagas , without feeling the tears suddenly dripped from his eyes.

Just so suddenly it made Faisal's mind more sliced, "Fix, I've made my sister's heart hurt, she never cried for someone, even Kamila once" he murmured inwardly.

Speaking of Kamila, it seemed that neither Bagas nor Faisal had realized that Kamila had been listening to their conversation since then, his instincts that say to follow where Bagas went tonight turned out to get very large information and enough to make him stunned as well as wasa-was.

"Ah shit, motherfucker, that woman is still alive, and what???! She was also pregnant with Bagas' child? This can't be allowed, I have to act immediately!" upset Kamila from the corner where she hid from Bagas and Faisal.