But not Me

Traumatizing

"Mas, isn't this an exaggeration?" Ask Dara with body language that shows that she is feeling uncomfortable at this time.

How not, his return to the house was greeted very cheerfully by all residents of the house, except Kamila of course, since then the woman who has great potential to be kicked Bagas from the house does not seem to be visible nose, but Bagas does not care, Bagas did not care, after all, the welcoming home of his wife and child seems to be calmer if there is no second wife who according to his confession he has been talak.

"For a while while waiting for the renovation of the pavilion, we stay in the main house first, or do you want us to buy a new house, or live in an apartment?" Ask Bagas, because he has not discussed this first with his wife.

"Ah, it's okay, we just stay here, for a while," Dara replied, as her eyes continued to look at the entire house, it felt like there was something strange about the look of the house, Dara thought out loud, saying, it turned out that he only realized that what was different from his current appearance was the disappearance of the photos of Kamila that had previously adorned almost all the walls of the room, making himself when he first entered the house felt he was in a museum or photography exhibition with dozens or even hundreds of photos on display there.

"Mas, where are your collectibles, why aren't there anymore? Isn't that the stuff he said was precious to you?" ledek Dara half whispered, as he was holding the Emperor who was sleeping in his chest.

"Somewhere, maybe it has been thrown away Anwar," replied the original Bagas, he knew the direction of Dara's speech must be predicting the problem of Kamila's photos that are now no longer found anywhere in the house.

"Ish, men are so, when they are still loved in puja-puja, but when they have a new one just removed" said Dara.

"Oh come on, Dara is not like that, I always try to be faithful, but if many times betrayed yes I also have self-esteem and have the right to end my stupidity, love may, love may, don't be stupid," lang Bagas who seems to have realized that all this time he was blinded and fooled by love and and his feelings for Kamila who did not use logic at all so that everything he did was really in the beyond sanity.

"I was kidding, Mom. Uh but by the way, when your young wife left, why wasn't she visible from earlier." looks like Dara hasn't seen her honey since she first walked into the house, but that is only limited to his target, because he actually also does not really want to know where or what the honey is doing at this time.

"Well, is it as important as his presence here?" sinis Bagas who then brought Dara and her son to a large room, which turned out to be his work space, which was his office, but now it has turned into the room of Dara and the Emperor and also includes himself of course.

"Well, the Emperor's room is very nice," praise Dara admiring the super spacious room order by being equipped with space for their babies who are dominated by sky blue.

"Three of us!" Bagas seemed to not accept and rectify Dara's words just now, so as to make Dara's body bristle for an instant when imagining having to go back to sleep one room and one bed with her husband.

Understandably, his memory of 'sleeping together' with Bagas so far as he remembers there is nothing beautiful, other than torture and coercion.

"Do you mind? I want to always be close to you guys, after all, can't I help you in taking care of baby Kay, and it seems like I'm more good at her than you, I'm more experienced when you sleep a long time in the hospital." said Bagas reasoned that he was allowed to stay in the room also with his wife and child.

Fortunately Dara nodded her head though slowly and looked hesitant or perhaps even embarrassed.

"Master, it's been 3 days since Kamila's mistress didn't come out of her room, according to the waiter who often delivers food to her room, she said Kamila's mistress is sick." anwar reported shortly after he had stuffed the suitcase into the room.

"How's the Molotov cocktail case progressing? How dare you put your face in front of me and report something unimportant!" Instead of responding to reports about Kamila's illness, Bagas questioned the perpetrator of the pavilion attack who almost made the lives of his wife and child unsaved.

"The data of the perpetrators I have submitted to the police, sir, and the police are moving to arrest them today" said Anwar, as well as Panji, Anwar's work can always be relied upon, just assume that on that fateful night Anwar was apes and could be helped by the attackers.

Seeing the usual expression of Bagas' face even seemed to not care when he heard the news of Kamila's pain from Anwar, and instead asked him something else, Dara's heart felt a bit sad also actually, actually, maybe it's one of Dara's weaknesses, which is always unbearable to others, even though the person had done evil to him.

"Mas, if not better to see first, maybe Kamila's condition is really very sick and needs your help,"

"But--"

"Ah already, you woke up our baby with your loud voice," instead of following the advice of the virgin to see the state of Kamila, Bagas even rushed to take over the crying baby in Dara's sling.

It seemed that there was nothing more important in this world to Bagas at this moment than Dara and the Emperor, thus making himself not want to care about anything other than that, except his work, so that he would not care about anything else, he can still think rationally not to ignore his work and still do his job even though it still has to be done from home, because according to him the material is also equally important because there is nothing free in this world to make his son and wife happy.

It is not enough just with love and affection to send their children to the best school, it is not enough just with love to give jewelry and branded clothes to his wife, he said, no need to be hypocritical and cannot be denied that matter also has an important role, especially in this day and age where the amount of material will increase the strata of a person.

"I'll ask Kamila to get out of here as soon as possible, maybe I'll buy her a house to live in, I want our household to be as healthy and normal as any other family, anyway I've looked at it." said Bagas when he cuddled his son.

Hearing that all Dara could only sigh deeply, she did not know what to answer, she did not know, he also did not know if he should be happy right now with the decision of Bagas who wanted to get rid of Kamila from that house and from their household life, and should he be happy over Kamila's suffering? But is it not all because of the fruit of his own act of cheating, after all Dara never once demanded such a thing to her husband, she said, ever since he decided to forgive and accept Bagas again because of his sincerity in the hospital, he has also thought carefully and will be ready with the consequences, he said, including if Bagas wants to maintain his household with Kamila, Dara only asks for honesty from Bagas, and Dara feels that Bagas has been honest and open about his relationship with Kamila to him.

"Why silence? Aren't you happy to hear that?" Tanya Bagas who suddenly hugged Dara from behind, apparently she had just put their sleeping baby back into the crib, and Dara did not realize it was because it was cool with her daydream.

"Ah,, emh,, that, that, I can't comment on anything mas, that's both of you're business, I'd better not interfere in your matters, but my advice, he said, you better finish everything well." said Dara nervously,

Bagas' sudden embrace from behind his body made him feel very awkward, the physical contact that had been going on between him and the bagas was usually done violently and violently and coercively, so it was very strange for him to find Bagas holding her so gently.

"Mas, sorry." Dara broke away from Bagas warm embrace.

"Why?"

"Can I be honest?" ask Dara scared.

But Bagas nodded with a very high curiosity for what his wife would tell him.

"Say!"

"Actually sometimes I still often feel fear and trauma when you approach me, the shadow when you treat me very harshly suddenly appears, and makes me often scared," dara lirih.

"For God's sake I've forgiven you, and I've always tried to fight that fear, but it may take a process and time, too, so I hope you don't misunderstand what I'm saying, I'm just trying to be honest" he continued.

Bagas chest pain, given how evil his treatment of Dara, which turned out to leave a trauma that was so deep in his wife, what kind of man himself who tortured the weak woman, who was so bad, now only regret remains in her and vows to start everything with a new leaf and treat Dara with affection.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for all the roughness I've had in the past, I don't know what caused me to fight like a monster with you, but keep my promise, I swear I won't hurt you again, I won't waste the second chance you gave me," lirih Bagas tried to convince his wife if she was sorry and could understand what she was feeling.