But not Me

There's no love there

"hallo, ci Cici"

tutttt

I immediately ended the phone call and I couldn't hear the voice of the traitor

let me calm my heart first if you are strong enough to accept the new reality I am ready to listen to the explanation of the traitor

rio sir came back to call, I hung up repeatedly he called again I'm sick of finally leaving it

many twang WhatsApp messages entered dr pak rio none of me open

I think he's trying to explain but I'm really ready to listen that's pretty much the conclusion I've got that proves everything

"yan I'm hungry"

the message I sent to Iyan

not long after I called me

"what to eat"

"sate delicious as this"

"i'm ready to go there"

" thank you brother iyan"

I am glad that Iyan can understand me the most

not long until he got in front of the house he brought his car I ran into the car

after wandering around looking for sataymen during the day we finally met also understandably in my village sataymen rarely exist during the day

iyan ordered 2 servings of satay I do not want to get out of the car jd we eat in the car

"you want to come to his invitation"

ask iyan

" yes, I want to see him one last time"

"seriously, don't let me see you cry again"

"how could I cry, I promise"

"i'm not sure"

" you've got me ya yan"

" you think about it not rashly".

"i'm round, I want to come"

"it's up to you, when's the invitation"

"eeeh yes when have I not seen this, I will check lg"

after we finished eating we went home and seven agreed to accompany me

iyan immediately say goodbye to go home I entered my house saw papa teparkir car in front of the house

finally, I came home thinking

I opened the door of the house without saying hello

suddenly someone greeted me

"eeeh son of papa from where" asked papa basa stale

"let's eat"

"sama temen" jwb I singkt then up the stairs to my seven rooms

soon papa called again

" here papa used to talk"

I stopped and turned around

"what the hell are you talking about".

"you're here first"

I approached Papa and he told me to sit down

pouffes

"pa wants to tell you that"

"what if" I asked

"this is what you read" Papa gave me a brown envelope

I opened the envelope and then I read I'm not surprised by the contents I guessed

"oh" my jwb is short

"you don't papa can ci, mommy is equally separated"

"whatever you are"

"ci"

"mama mana" I answered cutting off papa's words

"your mother may have some business she said she'll be home soon"

my mom came home and hugged me

"sorry mama ci" hugged my mom while crying

I didn't return my mother's embrace and I didn't even cry at all

"jd where I live" I asked, ending my mother's embrace

" you want to go with mom or dad" asked papa

"this is who's home" I asked

no one answered "yes I've been living here, I didn't ask you to take care of me, I just wanted my money to be in my account, oh yes I want to stop the course I want kulia in switzerland, you can charge me"

"mama nga agree ci in switzerland you want to live with who"

"indeed here I live with who, just like you guys would not take care of me, I just want to ask you to finance my life that's all" I replied

"but ci later there you why-why how"

"what do you care about, for 19 years I lived what you even thought of me, do you know I was sad again I'm glad I was sick, I'm used to living alone, I'm used to living alone, aky doesn't want to know I'm going to Switzerland"

I went to the room and left 2 people that I always missed, but they didn't deserve me to miss

I know the two of them did not love each other I was present because they were betrothed I often met papa with other women as well as mama but I was silent I did not want to interfere in their affairs and sins let them endure it

when I was a child I was taken care of by my grandmother and a maid in my house and soon my grandmother died in my 5th year I was taken care of by a bik ita, mama and papa used to go home I can still feel their affection after I entered elementary school bik ita suda often leave because of my pain jg finally left at home iyan when I class 4 bik ita end stop working because you can't anymore, mom and dad find me a new maid but she can't stay overnight just cleaning the house, washing clothes and cooking, and, so if the night I was often kept at home iyan until I sd smp after high school I fired the maid because she was caught often stealing and invite other men into the house

I pretended to be tough in front of them actually I was sick when I found out they were officially divorced my dream was always to hope they could reunite now musna I really live alone

after Mr. Rio then my two old men I now have no one

I'm determined to go to Switzerland