Bakoh Shoulder

Chapter 5. Goodbye

After only two days in the hospital, Nur insisted that he wanted to go home. He misses Ayu. In the hospital, children should not go to visit. Although Teguh had told me to be patient and wait until Nur's condition improved but this time Nur was very stubborn. His desire to go home cannot be prevented.

He asked the doctor if he could take his wife home. And doctors say, if a patient wants to leave the ICU room there are two possibilities that the first patient does not need any more intensive therapy because the state has improved or the therapy has failed and the prognosis in the near future will worsen, the benefits of intensive therapy are very small.

Honestly, I don't understand. All she knew was that Nur just wanted to get out of the hospital and go back home.

"So her husband is fully responsible for the patient's forced return?" Ask the nurse to finish her task of making up the bed that was used by Nur. Because in the end Nur was allowed to go home even though the doctor had explained the risks and consequences of Nur's return to her husband. Doctor Fajar simply nodded without making a sound.

"We can't keep the patient or his family from staying here." He said, then walked out of the room after doing a doctor's visit.

Nur arrived home. She misses her daughter so much. He was currently staring unblinkingly at his little daughter who was sound asleep in their room.

"Nurs.. Thank God you have come home. Is it healed, Nur? Ayu was really fussy when you were in the hospital yesterday. Where from yesterday I don't want to eat anymore. Your in-laws are confused so, already made porridge, fried eggs, bought meatballs are also not eaten with Ayu." Said the neighbor who visited Nur at his house.

"It healed. Thank you for helping me take care of Ayu." Answer Nur slowly.

"Dek, rest yes, said the doctor, you have to rest a lot. Don't be soiled, eat first.. Abis is taking medicine." Teguh said when the neighbors who visited Nur had all returned home.

"Mas.. I'm going to sleep with Ayu, yeah.."

Firmly understand, maybe at this time Nur tired. Steady enveloping his wife and child. She could see Nur hand gently stroking Ayu's hair, smirking Ayu's cheeks and forehead several times.

"Sir.. You just sleep. I went to the kitchen first yeah, cook water for your bath the same Ayu later."

Firmly could still see that smile before he actually left the room towards the kitchen. Moments after making sure the fire was on, Steady returned to the room. Check if Ayu is awake or maybe Nur needs something.

It turned out to be true, Ayu had already woken up from sleep. But without crying or whining like most other children. Ayu was now hugging her mother with her small hands. The strong who saw him moved to approach his wife and child.

"Bubu's mom.." Ayu said.

"Yes Yu. Bobo's mom, Ayu eat yuk first. Mr. bribe, the abis took a bath."

"Mother.mom.." Ayu calls her mother when Teguh will hold Ayu with the intention that her daughter does not disturb Nur who is asleep.

Unpleasant strong feeling. Firmly sitting on the edge of the bed, he slightly shook Nur's body, "Dek.." Call her. There was no response. I've been thinking no-no.

"Sir.. Build deck.."

A little louder Teguh called Nur who was still closed.

"Dad! Oh God get up deck...!" This time it made Ayu cry. Because the little boy thought his father was scolding him or his mother. Ayu's cry made those beautiful eyes open. The loud cry was unstoppable. It felt like for a moment that his breath was stuck in his throat. Fortunately, he did not scream any louder.

"Yes mas.. Why cry, son? Here's mom.." Nur hugged Ayu who was still crying.

"Mas why?" Tanya Nur who now buried her face beside his wife's thigh. Nur then rubbed her husband's hair.

"You don't know how scared I was on deck.. I'm afraid, I'm afraid you didn't wake up again.. Deck I don't want you to leave me, O God.."

Nur shed tears. Actually, he's scared too.. She was very afraid of having to part with her husband and children. Even more than I felt. That is why Nur did not want to linger in the hospital. He didn't want to spend a time that might have been months, or days or hours that he didn't know was just lying in a hospital bed.

"Don't be like this.. Ayu can be more crying." Nur could still hide the fear he felt.

"Bag.." Unequivocally not answering. He hugged Nur, clutching her without a sound. Nur returned the hug.

Everything changes, inevitably. Everyone must be separated, not wanting to. It's all over, ready not to be ready.

The real separation is when one never remembers each other again.

'I was afraid to close my eyes and no longer open them. I was scared when I opened my eyes, and I was in a different place. I'm afraid in a different place there's no you and our son..'

'But believe.. Now the fear is gone.. I am living my destiny. Although it takes time, I'm sure you're strong without me.. I am sure you can keep the trust God has given you. Do not dissolve in sadness, look at our child who cries every time your tears fall. I gave up, not giving up on fighting with you, or giving up on this pain. Mas.. I love you. From the first time I saw you until it was time to close my eyes. I love you.'

This morning is no longer the same.. Although Teguh was as strong as her strength to tell Nur to wake up but, Nur's eyes were not open. Nur. Nur leaves the world and returns to his True Owner. Firm as a man loses his mind when faced with the fact that his friendship with his wife will be over as soon as it ends.

She kept screaming, screaming, telling Nur to open her eyes. A sight that makes anyone feel the haru. Ayu who does not understand the situation that is happening now so frightened to see her father, she cried. Ayu's grandmother immediately took Ayu to her house. Fear of the little boy being traumatized or having seizures later.

Before the dawn adhan Nur asked Teguh to get up for the congregational dawn prayer. Steadfastly obey.

"Help me with mukena ya mas.." Nur lirih.

He smiled and followed his wife's request. Teguh did not know if at that time Nur had felt a great pain in his head. Nur's sight had already blurred. He couldn't clearly see the face of Teguh. Can't see a big smile for him.

Finish the prayer, after greeting... Like other Muslim customs, Teguh looks back because it has become a habit of Nur will definitely kiss his hands. But, he was shocked when he saw Nur still in the prostration position.

Firm Hearts sighing. He knows something's wrong. But he denied that feeling. He called her his wife.. There's no answer. Her tears had fallen unstoppably. As he held onto that shoulder, Teguh became like a madman who kept shouting asking Nur to get up and open his eyes.

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You were still here yesterday

With me enjoy this taste

Wish it would never end

With you... With you

The world looked so beautiful yesterday

And with you feeling all this

Passing through this black and white life

With you... With you

Now it's here alone

Looking for you doesn't know where

May you calm down there

Forever

I'm remembering you

Pray for you every night

May you calm down there

Forever