Bakoh Shoulder

Chapter 159

In the past as a child, Ayu can be strong to undergo all the problems and burdens of her life because there is Teguh who is always on her side. Giving support and motivation to the child just wayangnya, that even though it does not have a complete parent there is still a father who is ready to be a backup and moaning. It is also a place to share stories.

Teguh did not let Ayu be lonely even though she basically felt it herself. He won't show if he's weak without Nur, all for Ayu's sake. It seemed to put aside his feelings.

One more thing, Teguh put himself like a father, mother, and also a friend for Ayu. Reproving as necessary if Ayu does wrong, because basically children are a reflection of his parents. They are like white canvas, depending on what parents want to write on the canvas.

And that's what Teguh does, he won't scold Ayu in front of a lot of people or yell at her son if he feels Ayu made a mistake. This wise father prefers to advise subtly and give understanding through actions to distinguish what is appropriate and inappropriate. And the proof is now Ayu became a person and also brave through the upbringing and affection of his father.

Ayu can be as comfortable as that if she is with her father. Feeling his father is a place for him to go home, even he has the criteria of a companion man later can be like his father. That's how much he loved his father.

In contrast to Ayu, Sakti grows up with a lack of attention from parents. Although there are grandparents, grandmothers and mothers, he seems to be confined to his own world.

Sakti is not free to express what he wants to do. He cannot freely say what he feels. Every time he weeps to shed the sorrow lodged in his heart, his mother or mother will rebuke him. Prohibit her from crying because Sakti is a boy. In the minds of the Sakti elders, men should not be whiny.

They forget that Sakti is also a child. The child who needs a hug, the boy who still wants to be spoiled, and wants to be heard when he tells a story.

Not blaming his mother for being busy working, everyone knows that Shopiah is a single parent who works to support children and both parents. But, at least ask the child if there is a change in attitude or nature that suddenly becomes shy, quiet or maybe physical child who looks thinner. Not only parents who can stress, children can also experience this condition.

As of now, Sakti chose to confine himself in the room after returning from his father's grave. There is pain in the heart that he himself has. He remembers the mother's words and her symbolism, if men are to be strong, not to be whiny. Somehow everyone forbid him to cry or just complain, for Sakti all that is difficult to do.

"Let's eat first brother, you haven't eaten yet right?" Call Shopiah.

There was no answer, Sakti was looking at a picture of his family. There was his father who smiled broadly holding himself, as well as his mother who was struggling spoiled in the arms of the father. What a sweet look. A smile created by itself watching the photo. Sakti imagines if that big smile Dad showed her.

"Sakti wants to come with me.." Wiry of the boy.

Back Shopiah called Sakti, this time Shopiah not only called her son from a distance but approached her son who was in the room.

Neutranya caught the sight of grief, Shopiah saw her son turned his back to the door, his small body was unable to cover what Sakti was doing. The boy drew a picture of his family on the inside cover of the picture book.

"Sister.." Call Shopiah sad.

Sakti turned her head towards her mother, quickly she closed the picture book to make it invisible to her mother. But Shopiah saw what Sakti had written on the cover of the book.

"So, what a daddy?" No need to ask any questions actually Shopiah knows the answer.

Sakti is silent. Shopiah sees her son from the tip of the hair, in the swab of black hair a little curl it, his face tends to look like his father when usually a boy will look similar to his mother as well otherwise but not with Sakti, at his age now his facial lines have been seen if he is so similar to the late Wibi, his father.

"Mom misses my dad, not my sister.. But now Dad is no longer with us. Whatever we miss Dad, we can't hold him. Aye right? All we can do is let father also pray father let father be calm there."

Shopiah tried to strengthen her son's heart to be more legowo (ikhlas).

"Ikhlas, pray, sincerely, pray! It continues!! When have I never prayed for my father? But I still don't want to come even in my dreams! When can I not pray for my father? See where I was?? I'm going to Dad's grave! I went there to do'ain father, pray let father say to God if I want to come with father!!"

Sakti blurted out like an explosion. His words sounded angry and loud with emphasis. He screamed raising his tone, the thing that immediately shocked Shopiah of course. And without thinking why Sakti could be like that, Shopiah instead gave her son a hard slap on the cheek.

Instantly the boy cried holding his heated cheek. Shopiah is out of control, she reflexively makes a five-finger mark on her son's cheek. Trying to persuade Sakti to be quiet, Shopiah immediately embraced Sakti's small body.

"Sorry mother.. Sorry mom, I only have you Sakti.. Don't make me ruined by losing you. I don't want to, don't think about going after your dad.. Don't you love mommy?" Sakti's cries are contagious to Shopiah.

Sakti trying to escape from his mother's arms, the boy felt his mother was very selfish. But there was a sense of comfort when she was hugged like that, it felt like she was anxious to complain about all the bullying actions her friends were doing at school to her.

One day passed, Sakti the little boy finally slept without eating in his mother's arms after exhaustion of crying. I don't know where the hunger in the stomach Sakti so easily he fell asleep without thinking about his stomach that had just sounded.

Which mother's heart is not sad to see her baby fall asleep with such a rush. Shopiah can only pray that Sakti can understand their current condition. The hardest miss is when the body can no longer meet, fingers can no longer hold each other, want to hug but only limited wishful thinking. Because there is nothing left behind even though it is just a shadow, because the yearned have returned to the side of God the Owner of all people.