Bakoh Shoulder
Chapter 153
'Go as far as you can, for when a soul mate has outlined you as my soulmate.. To the ends of the world even if you dodge me, the universe will reunite us' _RMS
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"One year, two years, ten years.. Seventeen years you have gone to leave me.. Don't miss me the same? Same with us? Our dreams have long been buried with you who have fallen asleep eternally, a dream in which you and I can age together.. Watching our grandchildren run to us, and then we hug them.."
"Although not come true, because of circumstances that make us bury in our simple dreams.. Not making me give up on the situation.. But ever.. I used to be close to giving up, wanting to catch up with you, ignoring anything that might need me, a fool with anyone who told me to be patient about losing you, but.. I finally realized.. I don't live for myself, I have to live for our children. The child you gave birth to at the stake of life, the cold sweat droplets withstood the pain of fighting to give birth to our Ayu.."
"Although, there is no look of sadness that you show when you know the angel of death has waved his hand to lead you to a different world. Two years you went through sincerely looking after Ayu, dedicating yourself as much as you can to me, never complaining with the pain you feel every day increasingly torturous. If all that happened to me, maybe I would pray that my life would be taken immediately by the Almighty, because I can't imagine how painful it is to be you. But you're not.."
"My stupidity that doesn't know how every day you pray wants to live, wants to be with Ayu and me.. My lack of being able to provide the best medical facilities because I don't have enough material,"
"really.. All of this is our destiny. You and I had to separate at that moment.. The wailing of tears of blood though will not be able to return you to my side.. I'm sorry, I'm talking like a madman."
"I just want to complain a little bit.. Can't ya? Deck.. Happy birthday, today is your birthday in the world. I just want to say if Ayu and I are now happy, we continue to live by bringing your memories into our hearts.. There's nothing I forget about you, rest baby.. I sent you a gift first.."
As the sentence ended, Teguh opened a small yasin book and then chanted the holy verse in front of his wife's navel.
Seemed very solemn and so lived, every verse he sounded like the expression of the heart of a lover who longs for the presence of his heart.
Sounded excessive? Nah! Don't say it's too much if you've never felt the pain of losing your most loved one without seeing each other again, forever. At the beginning of the farewell.. To continue life feels so difficult, tight every time you breathe air, pain is not bleeding is the right expression to explain what Teguh experienced today. The wound was there but only he knew the location, only he knew the pain..
Finally, Teguh said goodbye because he was going home. Returning to his daily routine, he became a strong-looking father figure in front of his daughter.
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It seems that Ayu is sad. Seen on the face of his father looks sad as well as eyes that are still glazed.
"I'm anther you go home Yu?" Tanya Reza offered herself up.
Ayu shook her head slowly. "I brought my own bike Za. Zaa.. I never thought I'd be my doormat.. I'm as comfortable as you are as I'm comfortable with Uni, I'm not as bad as nyampe to make you low in other people's eyes.. But if you think I made you like that, I'm sorry.. I'm really sorry.." Ayu's hand was slapped forward.
"What the hell are you talking about Yu? Don't think about anything that isn't.. Okay I'm wrong! I still hope that you will return my feelings, I still hope that you will become a girlfriend or maybe want to be my partner for the rest of my life! If I was still expecting that, does that mean I'm not sincerely doing this for you Yu? I'm sincere Yu.. I love you the same. Whether you accept this feeling or not, it does not change anything.. I love you so much." Reza is sad when she finds out Ayu's tears are coming out because of her. Not because of the people talking to him.
Ayu according. In the face of the two intense Reza netra lock Ayu in the eyes and Reza's heart.
"How do you want me?" The question again makes Ayu confused to answer what.
"Just being ordinary Za, I'm confused if you keep saying you love me.. I can't bales your taste.. I'm sorry.." Ayu said with a loud voice trembling.
"I don't need your balesan now Yu, give your heart time to determine where the qibla is going, let me try my way. Don't prevent me from continuing to love you Yu.." Reza can not lie, his heart hurts when Ayu like giving a code if there will not be himself in Ayu's heart.
"Oeeee has a play Ya Salam.. Dizzier times my man saw kelian kek gini! One love dies, the other refuses to be loved! Ribet really lived this way!" This time Seruni made the atmosphere of sadness that had been created.
"What's the problem really? Less communication! Reza wants to reveal or show if he loves you Yu, and Ayu.. He hasn't committed to anyone else Za. The solution, Reza is quite fond of Ayu in silence. Do not keep ngingetin to Ayu if you have the same taste of him! Let everything go as it should.."
"And Ayu, don't change your attitude to Reza. Don't feel awkward because you already know Reza's innards! Pinter pinternya look after each other's hearts.. You know what I mean?"
Both silent. Ayu decided to go home first because she got a call from her father. While Reza, he is still on campus with Seruni because Ayu twice refused his help to bring Ayu home.
"Not to be dumb. It's getting worse!"
"So, she doesn't think it's the same as me?" Again.. Reza's question made Seruni tepok a heresy.
"Not even you.. As if you have another reward Za." Seruni patted Reza on the back giving an injection of spirit.
"What?"
"Jagain soul mate. The head is also big!" Seruni asked to be hacked!
Reza's direct sting gave Seruni who was considered impartial to him.
