Bakoh Shoulder

Chapters 143. Angrier

His steps were slow in no hurry. The motorbike he was riding on was already parked neatly in front of the cemetery area. Wearing a black hijab and the same colored shirt, Ayu arrived at her mother's grave.

Ayu's eyes were immediately fixed on a new headstone that began to be overgrown with moss. Skillfully his hands cleaned the leaves and grass that grew on his mother's grave.

"Assalamu'alaikum buk, sorry Ayu just came here again for tengokin ibuk.. Ayu now open onlen buk business. Hopefully it can develop ya buk, can be smooth, let you do not think about the cost of college Ayu continues.. Honestly, buk.. Pity me father. Father often diem, sometimes Ayu see the father dreamt even once also talk to himself.."

Try your hardest not to cry but the sobbing sounds too. Ayu held her mother's headstone while looking down.

"Yet.. Is Ayu selfish if you ask father to marry again? You need someone who can always be with you.. Like my mother first.. Until whenever mother is Ayu's mother. Nothing can change that but when Ayu sees the father, in the eyes of the father clearly save the void."

"Jay pray for the good of mother and father of the world, may we gather again later in His heaven God. Buk.. Come home first. Ayu wants to go to college, wassalamu'alaikum.."

A bag of flowers was sown over Nur's tomb. Only Ayu knows what it's like to miss someone but never see each other again. Behind his smile, there was a sadness that no one else could understand. Although it has been a long time apart but losing a mother for good is definitely a severe ordeal for every child. The word father is the first love for his daughter, but the mother figure is a wingless angel for his children.

"Hey.." The voice was clearly heard in Ayu's ears. Ayu is somewhat surprised by Reza's presence around the cemetery today. There's no way he's here to sell flowers for the pilgrimage to the tomb, right?

"What is hi?" Tanya Ayu stopped her steps. Watching the figure from childhood is always with him. Yes, from elementary school to college Reza is like a private security guard who escorts Ayu.

Black shirt that folded up to the elbow limit, also black peci that still adorns his head, he wants what?

"Well, to mother's place? I was just going there.." Reza.

"Udah. You're not in the morning lecture? Why are you here?"

Reza requests that Ayu wait for him while he moves into the burial area. Ayu according. He noticed where Reza was going. His forehead crinkled when he knew that the destination was his mother's grave. Without being told to walk Ayu back walk closer to the cemetery area again.

Ayu saw from behind the back, his voice shahdu when reading a letter yasin for the mother, a few minutes passed until at the end of the chant Reza ended it with al-fatihah reading.

Still quiet. Reza raised his hands in prayer, only this time Ayu saw Reza like that. Often together while on campus but when outside like now if there is no important thing that requires Ayu to meet Reza, then they will not be seen together.

"....Ma'am, I asked permission to approach Ayu, not as a friend but as a woman worth fighting for..." That was all Ayu caught from the sound of Reza in front of her mother's belly button.

Ayu retreat. Slowly he left the public cemetery. The bike he had climbed when Reza's voice loudly called out his name.

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Sit in the chair. His name hasn't been called yet because he got the last queue. Breath sounds as he circulates his gaze, in another row of waiting chairs seen in pairs husband and wife make him envious.

"Check yourself?" A mother with an enlarged stomach asked him.

Selvi nodded slowly. What else, she did check the pregnancy alone.

"Where is her husband? Working out of town? Or not yet home from work?" Still busy asking because she came with her husband. Maybe just curious but, for Selvi the question is so disturbing.

"Eh.. That's Selvi! Mr Darmaji's son, don't you know? She's pregnant out of wedlock.. Why are you asked here the same husband what not! Yes definitely not! Even strange if here there is someone who ngaku become her husband, not married already dung lalalala tek!" Someone who might know Selvi could not control his speech not to gossip in front of the concerned.

Selvi's upset! He wanted to reply to the words of the mothers who had talked about it but whatever the force, it was all true. She is pregnant out of wedlock! But, it was really very painful to hear when he was constantly being gossiped and talked about his ugliness like this.

"Indeed who the hell is hamili him? Very bad luck, you know.. If his head is still there, he should hold dong accountable. Time to day!!" Again.. All felt piercing Selvi's hearing. What is a midwife house ghibah house?

"Hcshh.. He'll hear.." Others warned.

"By the most he sells himself, no wonder.. From a small he used to live well, live spoiled, ask this it was immediately cymawis (available). His father's turn had nothing, could not obey him.. He uses an instant way to get money! The type that tipi tipi is mbaak!" The more they get there, the more they chat. Doesn't care whether people hear or not.

"Father father here who nganterin kelian wife, can't kelian ask his wife to not deal with other people's problems? What's the matter with me huh? Wh why? Why am I pregnant out of wedlock?? Am I the only one in this world who is pregnant out of wedlock?? Am I the only one who has sin here?? Be thankful if you can still stand up straight with a proud smile because God has not opened the disgrace of each! I'm depraved! I'm sun_del's woman, yes!! A thousand good things won't change that reality, please talk to me again! The full!!"

Selvi stepped away with a raging fury in the chest. It hurts so much. Always like this, why must he keep the child who from the beginning of his presence only brought nestapa for him??

A flash to abort the content appeared again. He can't stand it! Very unwilling to maliciously mouth neighbors.

"You!! Not born yet has made me so hard!! Go there, go to your lukcnut father!!" Shouted Selvi loudly while staring at her stomach.

Desperate, again he cried so badly. But just as his hand was about to hit his stomach, a hand stretched out to stop his intention. Selvi looked to the side to see who was the protector of the fetus in her womb.

"You..."