Aviza (Love is Lost)

episode 39 death of aviza mother part 2

After realizing that I couldn't cry anymore, I still felt that this was just a dream, I tried to close my eyes hoping that when I woke up all I was having was a nightmare.

A dream I never imagined.

The chanting of the holy verses of the Qur'an became clearer and clearer in my house, I opened my bedroom door and I saw that many people had read the holy verses of the Qur'an to my mother, my mother, I trembled towards the corpse, I saw my father crying beside him I opened the mask and it was true that my mother was gone,there was a smile on his face and tears dripping from his eyes. My father asked people to believe that my mother was still alive she was still crying, but everyone tried to convince us that she was gone, she was crying for leaving a 40-day-old baby,that makes it hard to leave this world.

The sound of my teacher's voice.

"Nok..quickly take ablution and teach it to your mother"

Immediately I do the order ustadzah annisah.

After I finished teaching, I approached my mother's body, I cried and asked maav to her because I could not be a good child for my mother. There were many hopes and dreams I wanted to go through with my mother, along with her support and affection but now she is gone.

Before my mother departed for her final resting place, my friends and homeroom class came to offer my condolences and comfort me. I can't cry anymore, my tears may have run out because I didn't stop crying last night.

After Friday prayers my mother's coffin was taken to her final resting place, I asked to take my mother with me but everyone forbade me, they were worried that I fainted again like last night.

Before 7 days of my mother's death, my house was still crowded by my brothers and also the neighbors who accompanied our family, I did not feel so sad, but when after 7 days of my mother's death, my house felt lonely.

I thought of my mother, I saw her room, I hugged her shirt and cried so much, my sister looked at me like that, she hugged me and also calmed me down even though she was crying too, we both cried together. That was the first moment of intimacy and into my flow with my brother, usually we always fight and now we strengthen each other.

Seeing that I was sad when I saw my mother's clothes, my sister gave my mother's clothes to people who needed them more, so that it would be useful and not make me sad.

When my mother left, I felt like my life was empty...I feel like I have no passion to live, no one can take care of my grief. Even Andin, the person I love, has not heard from him until now. It makes me sadder, less excited to be alive, I want to go with my mom...it was thought to catch up with my mother but I remembered at her request before dying that I should look after my sister if my father remarried, I should protect my sister from the cruelty of stepmother...