Aviza (Love is Lost)
episode 37 birth of aviza's sister
I didn't think it was my last meeting with Iwan.
The hour hand showed me the number 10 at night, Shiv made me aware of the daydream about Iwan
" viz..want to go home at what time? I'm afraid Mom's mad when we go home last night. "
" oh.yeah it's night,kit go home now aja shiv. "
" ok...it looks like you're not enjoying this festival either, what the hell are you thinking? Andin...?"
" no.kog shiv.not think of anything "
" Are you afraid Andin's angry that you're walking with me?"
I just kept quiet...
" yeah viz we're home. But before going home I want to buy souvenirs for your mother and Kaka. We first look for special food here for souvenirs "
I just followed Shiv in the back.
On the way home Shiv asked me to talk
I just kept quiet, didn't answer Shiv's question at all I didn't know what I was thinking.
" this shoulder can be your backrest viz whenever you need me. I'll always be with you. Sleep on my shoulder Viz if you're sleepy "
And I ended up resting my head on Shiv's shoulder while closing my eyes, without feeling my tears dripping. Maybe it's true shiv said I'm getting tired of waiting for Andin.
For a moment I felt someone kiss my forehead. Maybe shiv kissed me. I wanted to ask but I was afraid it was just my feeling because I closed my eyes.
Arriving home late at night. After dropping me off, she immediately said goodbye to my mother. Again mother did not scold us who was late to come home. I became strange with my mother's sudden attitude both to the shiv and not against it.
Since that incident I have always been silent, whatever makes me silent do not want to talk much, my friends also complain that lately I have been strange not cheerful as usual. I was always moody in class, every break I stayed in class, didn't want to leave class. I feel strange about myself. What's wrong with me I don't know. I just feel sad lately, not knowing what makes me sad.
2 Months passed I was still with my sadness. This morning my mother gave birth to my sister, maybe this is what makes me sad for a long time because I do not want to have a sister. Because my father wants to have a son, mother and father decided to have another child, and my father decided to have another child,I'm against it I'm afraid that my parents' affection for me will diminish if I have a sister. Rice has become porridge, I know my mother's pregnancy when she was 6 months pregnant inevitably I have to accept the fact that I have a sister at the age of 17 this year.
When my mother gave birth I was silent, I was angry, I locked myself in my room from school until morning. I went on a hunger strike, but my mom and dad let me go because they already knew my character.
On my 17th birthday, God gave me a gift that I really hate to have a sister. The birthday that I had planned to have invited my friends to have a party was all gone because of my sister's birth.
I hate my sister so much...
