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CHAPTER 7

FEEL GUILTY

A bright day and a beautiful heart accompany my wake today. Today my girlfriend is going to the house, she said there was something she wanted to give me, I don't know what it was.

"Tok tok," the sound of knocking on my door. "Yes jerk," I shouted as I opened the door.

"Oh, Mom, who's it, what's wrong, Mom?" ask me. "Let's go downstairs, there's your girlfriend downstairs," Mom replied.

"Yes Ma'am" I said. I went downstairs, to the living room. I saw my girlfriend sitting there playing her cell phone.

I was surprised to see my girlfriend who somehow looks prettier than usual. "Ehh hay, it's come, ko not ngabarin first, if ngabarin can I pick up," said I.

"Yes gapapa ko, sorry well if not ngabarin first, I came to pagian yah? Sorry if I interrupt your break" replied my girlfriend. "Engga ko, gapapa, kasian you just so here alone," I said while stroking his head.

I held her hand. Smelling her body fragrance. And sit down we look at each other, tell each other stories. Food prepared by Mother was ignored because she was so engrossed in telling stories.

We tell her about the beautiful world. We told her about her wonderful childhood. We're telling him about his survival we're facing the lowest point in life.

I was also carried away by the atmosphere. Enjoy her lips when she tells stories. Deep in laughter. I guess time stops turning, it doesn't. Because it does not feel we tell each other from the beautiful morning to the scorching sun.

The feeling is I want to say if I want you right now, want you for as long. But, I was so afraid to say it, not afraid, just ashamed.

Hay my girlfriend, do you still love me today? Maybe that's a stupid question. Thankfully, I just said that sentence in my heart.

The flowers of my love for you are beginning to blossom. If my love for you right now could be described, perhaps its shape expands much larger than before.

In this room we're just the two of us, I'm cold but it's okay. I feel cold because I feel your charm so shady.

Falling in love made me run so fast. So that I forget the bitter past of the present. I just realized, falling in love is not a bad thing, if it's for you. Your lips, the hue of your cheeks, your eyes, your touch.

Honey, you're really something else right now. Because I think I've never been this happy before.

Honey, come on you have to feel cold, so I can warm you up. Because I feel good about being the one who makes you feel warm.

I can't believe I saw my own eyes. Look at! This feels like a dream. Please baby, stay here, stay like this.

I'm sorry that I always betrayed you in my mind. I'm sorry dear, because to forget my past is a difficult thing. I feel guilty for you, I hope you never know if I always travel on time.