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CHAPTER 4

What I say in my heart so often should not be heard. Yeah, I think like that. It's a little unfair, you think I'm okay. While I'm here to keep a lot of wounds but can't do anything.

That day, I did a class on myself. Why was my hearing at that time I leave it to you completely. So that your breaking words to me at that time were still ringing in my head. My conversation with you back then was still growing with my thoughts and feelings at the moment.

"You can't change from your bad habits, we better break up, I can't stand you." Hearing what you said at that moment, I immediately gasped. With a bent face and full of anger, He left me. I don't know why, I didn't dare look at him at the time. I just fell silent, I didn't even get to explain.

I'm too late in my comfort with you. That sweet smile of yours, makes me opiate. But I was also dissolved in the ambition of searching for my identity at that time, so it did not feel like you were out of my grasp.

And now, we're at this point. The point where we have to stand on each footing. Peering into the past with the cold of the night, the coldness of your nature to me. Holding back the eyeballs has become my habit when traveling, traveling with you more precisely.

Yeah, I'm hiding here, behind my cowardice. I chose to be quiet not to try to give my argument to you. Because I was afraid, I was afraid that if I explained it to you, you would think that I was afraid of your shrewdness, yes, even if it was true.

My selfishness chose not to change, because it was also my right to find my true self. Ah, never mind, I don't want to be more whiny for something like. It's mortifying.

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"We're in danger Dev, tickets for next week's band show are running out" Saga joked to me. "Ahh kirain there is anything, make your surprise early in the morning," I replied. "Eh but seriously the ticket already want abis, crazy cepet," asked me on Saga.

"Yes he said that anyway, even more tickets abis." Because of the fear of the band's concert tickets running out, Saga and I went to the ticket sales.

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"Is the ticket still there?" Ask Saga at the ticket seller. "It's over, it's one, '" replied the ticket seller.

"What about Dev? The ticket has one left" Saga asked me. "Jaudah gapapa buy only, easily later just look for one more, if anyone sells," I replied. Saga also bought his remaining ticket that one.

As Saga and I walked towards the exit, Saga and I saw Bila coming out of the toilet selling tickets for the concert. "Eh Dev, it's the lf your ex isn't it?" Ask Deva. "Yes, I don't know how to look like a doang."

Since Saga was a person who had no more shame, in this quiet place she shouted to Bila. "Hey, When!" call Saga. From a distance If you look at us, wave at us, then a little run towards us.