AND

CHAPTER 3

WITH A VENGEFUL HEART

"Hit Dev!! Hit Dev!! Hit it!!" speak my heart full of spite. I want to feel like I'm showering a fist on his girlfriend's face. Upset I saw it.

"Deva, no emotions" said my heart that changed direction when it saw the shady face of my ex-lover. For some reason, every time I see his face always becomes calmer, even though He is no longer mine.

Even though I have a boyfriend again, but If I still have the most important position in my heart. Yes, that was my biggest mistake. Because I think if I have something that my boyfriend can't give me. I don't know what it is, which is clear when not with him anymore there seems to be a sense of missing.

My hope right now is that I just want to go back with her, even if it's a very difficult thing. However, Deva is not the name if I give up very easily. "Calm down Dev, one day He will be with you again" said my heart with confidence.

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It's getting late, me and my boyfriend are starting to say goodbye to Bila and her boyfriend. "We go first, thank you for coming here," said my girlfriend to her college friend who was always my ex-boyfriend. "I'm grateful, you've come here" replied the man.

Beside those who thanked each other, there was Me and He who looked away from each other, I who averted my eyes for fear of feeling more comfortable heart. And perhaps He took his eyes off because He felt uncomfortable. But that's just my prejudice, hopefully not.

My boyfriend and I continued our journey home. After I delivered my girlfriend, I went back home.

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After reaching my room, as usual I stared at the window to see the beautiful moon and stars. But this time with a different feeling. Wounded feelings, grieving feelings, and a wrathful heart.

"Forget it from me

When it can make you shine again

And glowed like old times

Caci just maki myself

When it can make you shine again

And glow like old times"

Remember, we used to sing the song "DAN" together at the Sheila On 7 concert, with a feeling that was equally happy, with a very cheerful tone. We really enjoyed Sheila On 7.

Read the lyrics carefully Bil. It shows the pain of the magnitude of my love for you Bil. Maybe Sheila On 7 sang that song for me Bil. Forget Me Bil, if it can make you happy like before. Caci maki I Bil, if it can make you comfortable again.

I don't want to hear those songs anymore Bill. Not because I don't like the song anymore. But because I can no longer bear the pain with his memories.

I don't want to be an Anti-Drug Ambassador, because it's too much. I don't want to be Another Shampoo Ambassador, because I'm not an advertising star. I want to be Ambassador Sheila On 7 only, so that every tone I chant can be enjoyed by you Bil. Maybe yesterday, maybe now, maybe tomorrow. I want you to enjoy my every move.