A Star
Fifty-six
I have to reason especially with Pandu, if he keeps asking about pregnancy?? while I'm really not ready to have another child, I don't know why there's fear in my heart.
Is this some kind of trauma? should I consult a doctor? aaaah. I'm confused!!!
I need to talk to Dr. Rendra, maybe he has a solution to my problem,
"Hallo, where are you?" ask Dr. Rendra over the phone.
"i'm in the hospital! what's up?" the answer.
"i want to talk to you about something, are you busy?" I said.
"once I finish practicing, I'm free! are you going to the hospital or am I picking you up?" said again.
"i was there, in the apartment there was no one, Pandu was filming!" I said.
"alright, I'll wait in the hospital then!"
"yes, in an hour I'll be there!" I said then turned off my phone.
"hopefully telling Dr. Rendra I can ease my burden!" muttered.
Before I leave, I give my permission to Pandu first,
"honey, I want to see Dr. Rendra" I sent him a WhatsApp message.
"for what? are you sick?" his reply.
"no, I'm not sick. I'm just consulting!"
"consultation? about what?"
"ehmm about the right diet, I think my diet is still a little messy!"
"ehmm alright.say that if you're done, I'll pick you up!"
"get ready baby.. Is the filming going well?"
"yes well, there are a few more scenes!"
"alright, keep my dear spirit💕"
"thank you my love💕, be careful on the road and give my regards to Rendra!"
"ready"
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Arriving at the hospital, Dr. Rendra was waiting for me at the door of his room.
"are you waiting for me?" my many.
"do I look like I'm waiting for someone else?" Dr. Rendra asked me back and smiled.
"hehe.. So is it true that you're waiting for me?" I asked again, I hugged her,
"of course!" he answered while returning my embrace.
"are your practice hours over?"
"for this afternoon it's night!" he answered and invited me into his room.
"you've been so busy lately, you've been calling me so rarely!"
"you're married! if I call you too often, your husband will beat me up!" answer while chuckling.
"hehe.he wouldn't do that bad to you!"
"who knows? your husband is jealous!"
"just like you!" I answered and then chuckled.
"yes, what do you want to drink? let me order it!"
"anything, just don't black coffee!" answer me
"i already know that you don't like coffee!"
"you know me very well!"
"no one knows you better than me, not even your husband knows you!" his lips.
"he's too busy to recognize me!"
"on the phone you said you wanted to talk, about what?" tanyakanya.
"but you must promise not to tell anyone, including Cika!"
"yes I promise, trust me!"
"The guide wants to have another child!" I said.
"then? what's problem?"
"i'm afraid..."
"fear what?"
"well, I was scared when he asked about the child, we even had frequent bickers because of that problem!"
"what's your content got in trouble?"
"no..."
"then?"
"i deliberately took the Pill without Pandu's knowledge!"
"kb pills? you postponed your pregnancy?"
"yes, I'm afraid to get pregnant again! am I traumatized?"
"i asked, what exactly are you afraid of hem?"
"honestly, I feel depressed every time Pandu asks me if I'm pregnant or not!"
"are you afraid of something like that happening again?"
I just nodded my head while wiping my tears.
"Because, then and now it's different, now Pandu has become your rightful husband! he won't leave you!"
"how should I face my own fears?"
"believe in Pandu, believe in yourself, Pandu is your husband now!"
"can I?"
"depends on yourself, Dara! do you want to escape your fear or not!"
As they chatted, without them noticing, Pandu heard their conversation from behind the door,
Pandu accidentally pressed the doorknob, until the door opened making Dara and Dr. Rendra surprised by the presence of Pandu with angry and sad faces.
"Pa.gu..!" said Dara then stood up and wanted to approach Pandu.
"stop right there!" pandu said with a flat facial expression.
"you why?" I was afraid to see the expression on Pandu's face.
"why didn't you tell me you were scared and didn't believe me?"
"i'm not saying, I just don't know how to tell you!"
"tega once you lied to me!!! you took the Pill without my knowledge?"
"sorry me!" I answered, without feeling my tears welling my cheeks.
"sorry?? what's my fault with you??until you do this to me!! why do you still doubt me? you can tell Rendra but not me! I'm your husband Dara!!!"
I approached Pandu and rested before him,
"forgive me!!! I'm sorry!! I didn't mean to lie to you!"
"Ride, calm yourself! Dara's just traumatized!" dr. Rendra said he was trying to be a mediator.
"trauma???"
"yes, naturally she was afraid, she used to have a hard time while pregnant with Mela!"
"but now it's different! we're married! what else is she afraid of?"
"it's not as easy as turning the palm of the hand to remove someone's trauma!" said Dr. Rendra.
"and you're Dara, from now on try to share with your husband!" continued.
"yes" sahutku.
"honey, I'm sorry!" I said while staring at Pandu.
The advancing guide approached me and hugged me tightly,
"never hide anything from me again! we're looking for the same solution!"
"yes. I'm sorry!"
"yes, I'm sorry I traumatized you like this!"
Dara and Pandu embrace crying, Dr. Rendra can only look at him.
"let's go home." take Pandu.
"yes..."
"Ren.thank you for your help! we go home first!" say Pandu to Rendra.
"thank you doc, I'll go home!" Dara.
"it's the same and hearts are on the road!" sahut Dr. Rendra with a happy smile.
On the way home, Pandu took me to stop by at our subscription restaurant,
"you haven't eaten yet, have you?"
I nodded in agreement.
"what are you going to eat?"
"anything!"
I ordered food and drinks for both of us.
"don't take those KB pills anymore!" said Pandu in between our sidelines waiting for orders.
"yes...!"
"When have you been consuming it?"
"from the first day we were together!"
"during that? and you kept it a secret from me?"
"sorry.. "
"forget it. But from today, throw away all those pills!"
"yes I promise!"
"you should be proud, because it can contain easily!"
I couldn't respond anymore because the order had come, just seeing it had starved me even more.
We ate in silence and went home afterwards.
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