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The boneless man (The story touches the heart)

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Dusk this afternoon, as if coming quickly, the golden yellowish sun still hangs in the orange sky, which stretches across the horizon, as if giving a sign that soon dusk will be over, and it will be replaced by a dark night and accompanied only by a crescent moon, on the western horizon that afternoon. The small sparrows that perched on the PLN power cord, one by one began to leave the contest and flap their wings flying high into the orange sky at that time. Seeing them fly like, it felt like I could fly freely in the air without anyone bothering and burdening this troubled heart, but all of that was just a pseudo-adornment that I was thinking about, she said, there is no evidence that a man can fly with wings on his back.

The feeling of anxiety that I am experiencing right now, is not thinking about how I can fly like, the little birds of the church that fly here and there for no definite reason. I thought about what I should do about this helpless me, who was just tossed around with no clear purpose, who was at the age of twenty-three, but I was still struggling as if I was unable to carry out this task that I was carrying out myself. At this young age of mine is still strong to do routine activities at home, such as cooking, cleaning the house and others, but my mind is still afraid of it, because I felt that what I was doing was having no meaningful impact, without making any profit.

I wish that I could make my own money, without having to squeeze the sweat of others who work hard for me. I was confused by all of that, and just charged myself. I kept thinking about it all day without any results, I still faced the orange sky with uncertain expectations, my right hand clutching a cup of warm coffee that had started to cool, I occasionally scooped the cup in my hand, looking at the orange sky keorange where the sun had dimmed its light behind the black clouds.

The day had begun to look dark, and the crescent moon that seemed to be hiding, had now begun to show its shape and light in the night sky at that time, heard from a distance the chant of the adhan maghrib who roared with his merdunya in a mosque not far from my home. I, who realized that, began to realize with my daydream that was still facing the dark sky, my face just moping with the durja who did not know what to do. I walked to the side of the study table next to the door, I saw the wall clock that had been showing at six in the afternoon past ten minutes. I rushed to the bathroom to get some cold water that washed almost my entire body, finished taking my water and then returned to my room, and immediately stretched a little thick green toska, which was a little thick, and I took the sarong and wrapped it around my waist. I immediately recited takbiratull ikhram and began to pray Maghrib solemnly.

After the prayer I placed myself to pray to the Almighty, so that I could avoid the chaos of my mind that had become increasingly swollen, and could not be accommodated anymore, so that I can get an answer to what has been on my mind all this time. Finished praying I came out of the room, still wearing a glove on my waist I went down the corner of the house to the dining table, which there already seen my parents who were looking to be ready for dinner, I sat in the corner of the table, next to me sat my brother who had been sitting reading the morning newspaper that he could not read because he was busy working in a private company. My brother, small in stature with his sturdy body as if he was training every day, his eyes that I was busy looking at every page of the newspaper he turned, he said, a quadrangular glasses was perched on his nose that was about to fall from the holder of his nose.

“What cooking is today Umi...?” I asked with a little sweet smile.

“Today Umi cook Pindang fried fish.. which happens to be your abi had bought in the market earlier.” He answered, while preparing a plate on the table.

“Waaaah is delicious, Umi cuisine is second to none.” I blushed

“Can you Wan, here the plate Umi get the name.” Saying again, while taking the plate I handed to him.

Umi, the medium-bodied Abi, even though she is a friendly woman, and cares about her family, she always respects the abi to whom my abi is strict with other family members. Umi always advised me if I was in, trouble, but the problem I was facing right now, I still hid from abi and umi.

“Where Dimas kok he has not come home at this time.” Ask Abi ku who was busy reading the newspaper.

“Dimas there will be work Bi in the office, did not have time for him to go home just to eat.” Reply Umi who is busy taking a piece of rice to the plate.

“Yah.. if hungry will stay home, we have prepared a lot of food here. The basic child's work mulu.” Ketus abi, who still turned back his newspaper.

“Yah want how else Bi, his name is also a job looking for money for his future.” Umi replied again while giving me a plate of rice.

“Tuuuuh.. dengerin tuuu, example kaka you that he managed to make a part of tia, and already made abi proud, while you here can only sit around quietly without producing anything.” Ketus abi again, to me who was being pushed sluggishly to hear his words.

“Udah Bi do not do so, now Wawan again trying to get a decent job for himself.” Replied Umi, who seemed to defend me.

“Halah, at most rejected again his application, your base is not willing to try, basic human not boned alias slacker.” Abi answered again by looking at me.

I also bowed languidly in the dining table chair, the thoughts of fear and sadness enveloped my current feelings, the thoughts of turmoil that were still in my mind as if to make me, forgetting everything that I wanted to fight for right now, I fell silent not a word came out of my mouth. My tears that are now starting to accumulate in my eyes began to fall I can not hold back anymore, no longer dare I look at the face of abi who was reading the newspaper.

“Abii.. don't say that why the hell, my own child instead of being loved by the spirit even more insulted.” Said Umi, who spread out her voice a little.

“Biarin Mi, who told me could not be a useful child, lazy and spoiled, what would you like to be haaa.” Snapped my brother again while stopping reading the newspaper, he said, and put his glasses on the table.

I was silent, my tears that had been held back now burst out and flowed on my cheeks, the feeling of panic and chaos my mind became more swollen, I immediately moved from the dining table chair, and I immediately moved from the dining table chair, then I ran down the corridor of the house and went straight to my room while sobbing sadly by leaving Umi and Abiku who were still at the dining table. I immediately closed the door of my room tightly, while crying behind the door, I just sat down lamenting my sorrow which means nothing, my tears spilled pouring down my cheeks, and my eyes were pouring down, for me this is a coward of me, which I am a grown man, but when there is a loud jolt from someone's mouth my emotions instantly change drastically.

I sat behind the door still with my tears dripping, I wiped my tears quickly, because of my immense deceit. Behind the door of my room was the sound of footsteps heading towards my room, I was afraid that it was abi who approached me, and I was very worried that later I could be yelled at and embarrassed in front of him.

“Tok... took... took... Waan... Wawaan... let's open the door Wan.... let's eat.... later the rice will be cold.” Call someone behind the door, who turns out to be Umi.

I just keep quiet, this time I no longer cry sobbing tears that if my tears continue to drip so wet the ceramic floor of my room. I just kept shutting myself behind the door.

“Waaaan.. ayooo open the door Waaan... Umi want to talk to you for a moment.. come on.. dong Waan open the door.” Umi again with a soft.

I was getting quiet now, my mind was getting more and more in control of me, without thinking long I turned the key to the room door, and I opened the door, room, which turns out there was Umi who had been standing in front of the room door. With a face that is still sad, I also welcome Umi with a sweet smile on my lips, even though my heart feels pain and tightness after hearing Abi's statement that immediately makes my heart and mind become more chaotic. Then I took umi to sit on the side of my bed, her wide hooded figure made my heart even sadder and made me start to shed my tears again.

“Waaaan.. sorry abi yaaa.. he should not have been speaking in front of you.” Umi, who was embracing me, was calming my mounting sadness.

“Yaa... miii.. I sudaaaah... me.forgive it.. kok...” I replied with a beheading.

“Ya is good then, now let's eat yuk...” Pinta Umi.

“I have no appetite anymore Umi.. I eat here only..” I replied with a sad feeling.

“Yeah already if you want it so, mom does not maksa..” Said Umi who immediately went out of my room.

I could only be silent while sitting on the side of the bed, my face was starting to get confused and my heart was getting messed up, I did not know how else I was doing now, actually, in the depths of my heart, I want to feel like I can leave this house, without the knowledge of Umi or Abi, but I express my intention if I go from home, what was happening made them even more angry with me.

The night was getting late, I did not feel my eyes felt heavy and I threw myself on the bed that was quite soft. My eyes were closed quickly I fell asleep, still with my mind in a state of turmoil, and a feeling of sadness. The next morning, I woke up, still with a bad feeling that hit me. I also forget what it feels like to smile, laugh or put words in my mouth, because my inner groaning and pressing makes me feel helpless.

I also tried to register as a TNI officer, my height was not too high, but I was sure that if I practiced I could get through it well. For a month I trained all day, ranging from jogging around the village, push-ups, and other physical sports, making myself change from day to day, no more crying and writhing in my face, I knew it was hard, but I was still patient with all that.

Day after day I passed by practicing, umi who saw a change in me began to smile happily, no more seeing the look of a worried face from him. Everything had been erased and replaced by a beautiful little smile.

“Wan.. Umi look at the last few months you are doing physical exercise try to tell everything to Umi.” Tanya Umi, who approached me on the porch while bringing sweet bread to my liking.

“Iyaa... mii I no longer want to despair, and no longer want to be stamped as a boneless human, now Wawan wants to pursue the dream of Wawan so far Mi.” I said with a confident smile.

“What dream is Wan...?” Ask Umi again.

“Wawan dream to become a TNI officer mi, TNI AU.” I said with a big smile again.

“Waahh... Great you Wan... Umi pray you get there.”Reply Umi with happiness.

“Iyaa Umii.. Wawan will try to make Abi and Umi happy.” Answer me again.

“But Wan... don't say the same abi you first yes, umi is afraid that your abi forbid if you register a candidate for officer.” Say it again, with a soft tone.

I just nodded, taking a piece of sweet wet bread with sugar and butter made by umi.

The next day I was alone with umi in the terminal without abi who accompanied me to leave. After saying goodbye to Umi I immediately entered the bus that would take me away. The bus began to leave the terminal along with the Umi, again my tears could not resist the sadness when leaving the umi and abi and Dimas my eldest brother, which I deliberately did not tell him.

When I arrived at my officer's registration. Starting to live my new life, by practicing and following, some of the tests that exist I finally passed the test and entered into being a member of TNI L officers, especially TNI AU, especially, which I've been craving all this time. It has been more than a year since I left home, I miss what Umi and Abi are doing right now. Because I want to tell them this happy news.

The next day on the day of the inauguration, I was officially sworn in as an officer of the TNI AU. The roar of my tears was unbearable when the inauguration procession occurred, finished the event I saw umi and your brother Dimas was watching me in the guest line. But I just saw that Abi wasn't coming with me, was abi still mad at me.

I approached the two of them, I hugged them both and I bowed down before the feet of the umi, who immediately lifted myself up to rise. I also hugged my brother Dimas. I was still curious where Abi began to ask his figure who did not come to my inauguration procession.

“Mi... Brother Dimas where Abi kok did not come to my inauguration procession?” I started to wonder.

“So you don't come with Wan, he said he can see you kok.” Umi replied with a slight sigh and cried out in tears.

Me, Umi and my brother Dimas went home to ride in a car that was rented by Dimas in his office.

Arriving at home I was surprised not kepalang, because abi who was watching me apparently not at home, where he was, what he was still working. I asked in my heart.

“Mii Abii.. Where is it not visible she said she saw my preview..?” I asked the umi who looked like it started, shed tears.

“Loooh... kok umiii nangis siiih... abii where mii to manaa.. where he was when I had succeeded, but he is not here.” Touch me with tears.

“Abiiii... abiiiii... muuuu Waaaan... Abiiimuu is dead Waan..” Umi replied with a direct cry in front of me, her old hand holding my inaugural suit. I immediately heard Umi's words, as if I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

“No... tiiidak... mungkii miii.. this must be bohooong yaaa... kaaan.... all this bohooong kan...” My reply while sobbing sob, loudly.

“Ituu benaaar Naaaak... abiii muu no longer exists..” Umi said while crying out loud, I began to cry as if I could not believe having heard news like this. Brother Dimas who was next to me started to embrace and calm myself down.

Apparently, abi was gone six months ago, he knew I was out of the house and following the registration as an officer, and so he had a heart attack when he heard I was enlisting as an officer, he said, he was still at home and left a letter to me before he died. I opened the will where it was in the letter.

“Assalama.wr.wb.

for my dear Wawan dear child, if you, receive this letter means your abi no longer exists, and yes congratulations you have become an extraordinary figure today, he said, abi is proud of you son, keep what you have achieved, be the pride of parents, do not leave prayers and take care of your ummah well. Sorry abi who has said you as a boneless human being is useless. Father said so that you are motivated and willing to rise from your contempt all this time, and now that you have proven it, abi is proud of you now abi will rest quietly.

Greetings your Abi..

Assalamualaikum.wr.wb.”

I also shed my tears, I sobbed sobbing sobbing with sadness umi and my sister dimas calm myself who could not bear the deep sadness. Even in his grave I still cried his departure without telling myself that, umi said if he said abi was no, then my concentration in enlisting officers became disturbed.

After his departure, I also took up my duties and mandate as a TNI officer who can now reach the orange sky of the afternoon that I always looked at, flying high in the sky reaching the horizon, I am no longer a wingless man

Story by: Tzuatya Egi

Finishes.

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