A Decision

At last....

In the letter of Al Baqarah verse 227

it says, "And if they are determined

to divorce, then surely, Allah is all-hearing, all-knowing."

Allah SWT does not prohibit divorce, but Allah SWT does not like divorce.

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Five months later

I am still looking for a job, but until now there is no job that I get. My business this time to earn income is only selling in the Sembako warung and selling anything online that is important halal. The sustenance I get is not so great! But at least there is an income every day. Most importantly smoothly.

Sometimes it has to keep turning the brain, how to keep the income growing rather than the production.

Dizziness indeed if thought continuously, this head feels like it will break. I enjoy all the trials God has given me. Crying is not the way out, let alone silence lamenting the fate that never ends! While time goes on.

Not to mention my divorce problems that took up time and cost there was no end! It also made me growl at an Abimanan. I don't want to let go, but keep hurting me. I don't know what's in his box, I can't imagine.

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In the fifth month after filing a divorce lawsuit in a religious court. I got a call back for my divorce lawsuit verdict and Abim, was again misled.

Religious Justice

Hour 09.00 WIB

I came with Luna and my sister. While in court there has been my lawyer waiting since.

Abim has also come with his lawyer. He looked at me continuously. I just leaned down and moved away from him.

My heart is beating no crap. Pray and hope that the court's verdict this time will be on my side.

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Half an hour later, the trial began.

My lawyer and Abim's lawyer argued with each other. The trial this time was amazing. To take so long.

I've been so scared that this time, the judge's verdict is troubling me. It was like waiting for a time bow that would be ready to explode.

Tok tok... (Judges knock hammers to rest for a while).

Why should you rest, should you continue. My heart is no longer strong waiting for your verdict, judge. I said in a disappointed heart.

The judge also left the courtroom. Abim and his lawyer came out too. While I was still sitting in the chair, my legs were weak because I was too nervous waiting for the judge's verdict.

Luna and Arif approached me who was still sitting.

"You don't want to go out drinking first, to be more relaxed. Not so tense!" Temptation Luna whose eyes glanced at me.

"Drink.. um! Also maybe! But?" Said I still feel the weakness of this leg.

Arif cut my conversation. Then he said. "Don't wear it for long!"

My hand was pulled by Arif and led to the cafeteria. I walked in Arif's footsteps. Luna also walked right next to me.

Artemis ..

I, Luna and Arif sat down, and Arif called one of the canteen guards.

"Sir!" call Arif while waving at an old man.

The old man came up to us who were sitting three! "What did you want and what did you want?" He said!

"I want some milk coffee, you two?" Ask Luna and me.

"If I want hot sweet tea!" Answer Luna.

"I'm a sweet iced tea! Let my mood not be hot anymore." Answer me kidding!

"No one sir! Thanks and don't wear it for long!" Arif.

The old man went to make the drink we ordered. About five minutes old man came back with our order.

Coffee, hot sweet tea and sweet iced tea are put on the table. Then saying. "Please drink mas and mbak!"

"How much is everything, sir?" Asked Arif who took out his wallet from his pants pocket.

"Twelve thousand mas!" He said!

"This sir take the change! And thank you!" Arif said and gave fifteen thousand rupiah to the old man!

"Okay, thank you!" He took the money from Arif and left.

I drank a sweet iced tea with one gulp. It felt so good with the cold that it soaked my throat.

I put that empty glass on the table.

Luna and Arif looked astonished, when it was me who had finished my drink!

Luna asked me! "You want more?"

"No. Enough is enough!" Answer me and smile at them both.

The three of us talked about everything while finishing drinks and waiting for the break.

My phone rang, and then I took it out of the bag. I saw a call from Abim. But I didn't lift it! I just let it keep vibrating in my bag!

I don't want to talk to Abim for now, for what? If you want to talk, just meet my lawyer! I'm tired if I have to keep fighting! There's just that discussed there's no end to that there's anger, noisier! Tired feel. My omel in my heart.

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Half an hour of rest, the trial began again!

The judge has heard the explanations from both sides. The judge has decided this time.

An atmosphere of silence, when the judge speaks to give a verdict. My heart is pounding. My eyes were closed, it was not strong that the judge would not side with me.

Bismillah I said in my heart

It sounded very clear when the judge said my divorce lawsuit was granted. Then hammer as much as 3x. Which means the judge's verdict is final.

Tok tock..

Thank you for thanking the Khalik. My tears are happy. It was unbelievable, I was happy. Abim and I have finally officially separated.

I got up from my seat and stood up. Abim came and came closer to me. He stood right in front of me.

"Happy! Everything you want you have!" Abim said with his sinister face. Then just leave in front of me.

I did not reply to Abim. I saw him go further and further away from me! There is pain I feel in my chest.

The man who used to fill my days. The laughter and sad stories in our household are over. I can't miss that guy anymore.

A deep longing but indeed this must come to an end despite having to part in this way.

He will remain the father of my children! I will never separate my children from him. Even though the court's custody verdict fell on me. I won't forbid him from meeting children.

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The lawyer congratulated me. And so did Luna and Arif.

"Mr Manda, everything is clear! Regarding custody already in the hands of Mbak Manda. For the others we'll talk next time." Tommy Reveal.

"Thank you sir!" I said then shake hands with him.

I went home with Luna who drove me home. While Arif went straight away because there is a need.

Thank you for being faithful and following my story. Your support has helped me a lot in my work.

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