A Decision

Hardwork

A month later...

Today is a day that everyone looks forward to every month. Today is the day that people get the results of their efforts.

Yes, today I got my first salary. Glad it's amazing. I can only give thanks at last. What I was waiting for, paid off.

I brought a motor home. On the way I stopped by the martabak. Buy two martabak boxes. One for the kids and one for my mom.

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Household

16.30 WIB hours

I got home, I saw Aisyah playing with her friend in the house. Sisil's guarding my sembako stall. There was Atika who was watching the two.

I got off the bike and went inside. Say hello when you enter the house. "Assynnya!"

"Glamma!" Answer simultaneously.

"Mother is coming home this afternoon!" Ask Aisyah who is playing with her friend!

I approached and whispered, "Yes, sorry baby! Mother bring this for you!"

I gave one box of martabak to Aisyah and friends.

"For the theme yes, deck! If you put it in the table!"

"Yes bun!"

I went in and kissed Atika's hand! Then give him a box of martabak.

"Thank you, dok!"

"Yes, mom! I'm going in first. Get changed!" I said and went into the room!

Finished changing clothes, I approached mama Atika. Then approached Atika who was sitting.

"Ma, alhamdulilah! Today I got my first paycheck!"

Atika smiled, her face was happy to see me who also smiled! "Mama is happy!"

"This is for mom, not much! Thank you mom for taking care of the kids! Without my mom I can't do anything!" I said while holding her hand!

Mama Atika hugged me tightly! His embrace gave me a sense of warmth and peace!

"Save the money! Mama's taking care of my mom's granddaughter!"

"But, ma! From childhood until now, I still troubled mama! I can't give you happiness yet, I can't make you proud!"

Mama Atika stroked my hair and said. "Ndok, the strong one! The patient! Your journey is still long! Fight for their happiness! Don't surrender! God must have made a way for you! Mama can only pray, bless, mourn your every step! Sure, to the Gusti of God, there must be a happy ending!"

I nodded my head, a sign of understanding every word Atika.

Mama Atika gave back the money, which I just gave!

"Save for the needs of the children! You need more!"

I hugged Mama. The woman who always gave me encouragement, the woman who sincerely took care of me since childhood and now in her old age, must take care of my children!

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Mama Atika also came home by refusing a gift from me! He only brought 1 box martabak that I just bought on the street.

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20.00 WIB hours

I just finished praying Isya. Not long heard the sound of greetings from outside the house.

"Assynnya!" Say hello to Sisil and Aisyah who just returned home to teach!

"Getishalight." Answer me while folding my face.

They both went into the room and kissed my hands!

"Soleha mama's son, just returned home njai! Clever!"

"Yes dong!" Shouted loudly.

"So learn what you two are at naji's place?"

"Ehmmm. What a hell! How did you forget?" Answer Aisha bangtung.

Aisha listened to what Sisil had said just now. Then he said. "Like a bad father to grandma huh, ma?"

"Astaghfirullah allazim! Deck, you can't!"

"Why? Daddy's bad with grandma, same grandpa with mom too. Keep the same with me brother!"

Why does this kid know!! My inner! But I tried to explain it, even if Abimanan is his father!

"You know, no matter what, you two keep praying for me! Respect to dad! Understood!"

"No!" Chirps Aisyah who disagrees with my words!

"Dad is evil with me, brother, all the same! Dad went the same Boiled! Wicked! Just evil!" He was angry and very angry!

"Sih boiled what the hell sis?"

"That's bun! Grandma always told me that you were married again. And his nickname is boiled! But at that time the same story I was aja bun! Let me not hear!"

"Oh my goodness, kirain what the fuck!" Answer me and pat my eel!

"Yes, my sister, I stay in the mother and go the same stew."

"Udah stop! Don't talk about it. You two eat!"

"Yes mother!"

Aisyah immediately took her own food at the table to eat. But Sisil was still sitting near me.

I smiled looking at Sisil who was still sitting. "What's wrong?"

"Bun, brother hasn't been paid five months. Keep paying tomorrow for a replay."

"Yes, mom will pay. You calm down!"

I tried to calm down in front of Sisil. They both do not need to know what I think and hard to find sustenance to support them both.

When Sisil was about to stand up, I remembered one thing.

"Sir, said uti! Sister selling online?"

Sisil scratched his head, then he started to tell her what was going on. "Yes bun. Sister selling face masks, hair masks, continue to sell. Fortunately, it was a lot of bun."

"Sister, you God willing can finance the school for both of you. So don't be afraid! As long as you are healthy, you will work hard for both of you. Your job is to learn and be a child of Soleha. Make your mother proud of you."

"What makes you proud?" Chirps Aisyah who listened while chewing her food.

"Yes that. You two can definitely make a mother bang..proud!"

Hehehe.... (The laughter of the three of us adorned the atmosphere that night)

"Yes, I want to pray first!" Sisil.

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Hour 23.30 WIB.

I, who was asleep, suddenly woke up. I think a lot of things in my brain. Sisil's school fees, pay Aisyah's hospital money I borrowed through Luna and Arif.

If you think about it, it feels like this head is going to break?

Instead of dizziness, thinking about my heart is not calm! I got up and walked to take ablution.

I'm doing tahajud tonight.

Allah Akbar..

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Finish tahajud prayer raise both hands.

Bismillahrushmanirrahim..

Allaahumma laka aslamtu wa bika aamantu wa 'alaika tawakkaltu wa ilaika anabtu, wa bika khaashamtu wa ilaika haakamtu faghfirlii maa qoddamtu wa maa akhkhartu wa maa asrartu wa maa a'lantu wa maa anta a'lamu bihiminnii.

I also pray...

So that I am always given patience and fortitude in living this life. So that tomorrow I will have sustenance for my two children.

Amynine

After the tahajud prayer, I could not go straight to sleep. I just teach to calm my restless heart.