A Decision

Abim's Sadness

Of TPU....

Bimo and I went to take Abim to Ainun's mama's camp. Bimo and I boarded the car while Abim used the bike.

When I got to the mother Ainun. Again Abim could not bear his regret. He bowed before the tomb of Ainun's mother.

"Maa. sorry! Pardon me! Hicks.hiks.." Shouts tight.

Just an apology that came out of his mouth the rest was just a sob of regret! It was too late to even apologize, mama Ainun could not hear it. All for nothing because Abim just yelled at her.

Bimo and I saw the man who was once arrogant, now begging and rested eaten by his mother. Abim's regret is too late!!! Mama Ainun has been called the Almighty.

Bimo tries to get closer to Abim. Bimo wants to persuade Abim to be able to return to his parents even though only one Rizal sir lives.

"Sir Abim... Don't weep for Ainun's mama who's calmed down there. Now only remains the tomb on which engraved his name in the tombstone."

"I have not apologized for all the mistakes I made!!" Said Abim.

"Thousand times you apologize in front of his grave, it's free!! Better pray for her so that Ms. Ainun is happy there. Because Mrs Ainun can't hear anymore. One more thing before it is too late and regret there is still a father. You need to pay attention and apologize. And don't forget to apologize to God!!"

Bimo said what I wanted to say. It was all coming out of Bimo's mouth. Now I just keep quiet.let my husband explain it, because if I speak only words that I say for him.

My annoyance has reached the crown. It felt like cursing only her once stubborn self. But luckily there was Bimo who could still soak up my anger.

"Will you forgive my mistakes and accept me back? Is that all possible?" Say it and look at me.

"If God alone can forgive, why can't we as human beings forgive each other! Abim sir just try! If Abim comes once and gets rejected, don't give up! Go forward again and try to keep going. Mr. Rizal must have knocked on the door of his heart!"

Bimo can only advise as a religious bearer! The rest is the business of Rizal and Abim!

"Sorry Mr. Abim, I have to go home soon." Bimo said because there is still business.

"Thank you!"

"Assynnya!" Said me and Bimo when I left.

Bimo and I left the night while Abim was still there. On the way home, Bimo and I didn't say much!

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At home...

11.30 WIB hours

Bimo and I are home. When I was inside the house, Bimo called me.

"Darling, I want to talk to the kids and you? Could you please call the kids!"

"Yes mas!"

I called the children who were in the room. Bimo is waiting in the guest room!

Tok..

Czechoslovak...

I went into the room and saw the two playing together.

"Mother's home yet?" Ask Aisyah.

"Yes baby! You two are called abi!"

"Yes bun."

The three of us walked in the guest room. There has been waiting for Bimo while enjoying a glass of hot tea for mbok Darmi.

The three of us sat in a chair..

"Well, what are we both doing?" Ask Sisil.

With a typical smile, Abi Bimo explained to the children.

"You want to know why Abi called here?"

"Mother, I'm sorry that Abi tried to advise the children! Abi hope you're not angry!"

"No, as long as it's true! Mother will not be angry!" Answer me briefly.

"Look! Abi knows your relationship with Abim's father is not good! Abim's father once made you both and Mother as well. But it would be nice if you two could forgive Abim's father's mistake. So too with mom. It may be difficult, but what's wrong with learning to forgive. If only God could forgive the mistakes of his people. Why can't we forgive the mistakes of our fellow human beings!"

The children and I fell silent, only hearing what Bimo said.

It is hard to forgive the mistakes of those who have hurt our hearts. Moreover, quickly, it might only take time to be able to forgive him!

Everything Bimo said was not wrong. It's all true, just the practice is hard. Because my heart and the children have been hurt by it!

"I'm sorry, I forgive him. It's just .."

I was silent not to continue my words! I have forgiven him there are only wounds that I still feel today and all that takes time!

"Sorry, I'm going to go to the room first."

I stood up and walked into the room. Bimo did not follow. Bimo continued his talk to the children.

Aisyah and Sisil just fell silent. Do they both know what to say? The two of them were unable to accept his father's presence. It was all because of his father.

Had it been, Abim could have placed the position as a father who loved and cared for his two children. Maybe things will be different. Even though Abim and I are in trouble.

"Sir .. adek.. Abi just wants to tell you that your relationship will remain at any time. The relationship between father and son. And you can't get rid of that reality at any time."

"Dad, that doesn't love us! Dad doesn't care about us! I don't want to love you!" Sahut Aisyah was upset and then left.

Sisil looked at Abi Bimo with a cynical look. But Bimo just smiled. Maybe for now his words are not acceptable. But Bimo was sure that one day his words would be heard by the children!

"Sorry Abi, I'm going to the room!" Sisil said with a flat face and saying goodbye to Abi Bimo.

"Yes son!"

Bimo who sat alone finally caught up with me in the room.

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At Abim's parents' house

After the tomb, Abim rushed to his parents' house. He wanted to follow Bimo's advice!

Abim was standing at the entrance of his house! His hand was ready to knock on the door, but when he was about to knock on the door, Abim felt doubtful!

He repeated it several times! Until the end, Abim decided to leave his parents' house without meeting with Rizal.

But when he was about to step foot, Rizal opened the door and saw someone coming!

Mr. Rizal looked at the man he had longed for. Looked at his familiar face again.

They both look at each other! But I dare not approach him.

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After a long time standing, Abim finally dared to approach the old man. Tried to kiss her hand, but was rejected by Mr. Rizal. At once Abim was surprised, because his hand was thrown by Rizal sir!

Abim kowtowed at Rizal sir. Apologizing for all his misdeeds and misery. But Rizal instead retreated and moved away from Abim.

"Sir.pardon Abim's mistake! Abim regretted not listening to you." He said slowly but was heard by Rizal sir!

"Go! My son is gone! Shouted disappointed Rizal sir!

"Sir! Sir.sorry!"

Mr. Rizal left Abim alone. Mr. Rizal was very disappointed in his son.

Abim was silent and mourned for sorrow. Mama Ainun is gone, the children are away from her. Now Mr. Rizal does not want to admit that Abim is his son!