" I'm Not My Beloved Child"

chapter 8 I hate you.

" sister just got home"

brother where's it from ???

it's none of your business said my brother without allowing me at all.

he went straight to his room and closed the door hard.

" sister why?? angry at Mulu's work" murmured me inwardly, I continued the lesson again.because there are many tasks that I have to complete.

the clock has shown 21 wib, I have studied and want to sleep.

suddenly I heard the sound of crying.I brought my ears closer to the door of the room brother.it turned out to be brother who was crying.

" sister??

brother why ???

I heard brother crying??

brother is okay, right? ask me again

but my brother didn't answer me at all.

brother???? yelled again, but still not the answer, because I was afraid why Napa finally I dared to push the door.

the door was not locked, though,

brother why?? my brother is in the corner of his room.

brother kok nangis ??? as I approached her .

don't care about me !!! while pushing me .

me too

he fell down and came back to him

brother why???

don't you care about me??? pushed harder so I fell again.

leave me??? by yelling at me

I still stay in my position.

leave me??? with a voice increasingly snapping at me.

how can I stay with a brother in this condition??

I answered my sister's.

you must be happy to see me like this,!!

is it a rose??????

sister like talking to me. I don't understand what you mean.

brother who was always angry with me without cause, brother always snapped me without cause, and now brother blames me with the condition of brother at this time???

I really don't understand the way you think.

and today brother came home crying and blaming me for brother's grief??

what selfish sister??, brother feels as if the household is hurting brother!! is that it, brother??? emotions came out too.

parrp...

parrrr.

just so you know, "i hate you"

so you don't have to care about me

while pushing.

why does such a brother hate me, why brother??

aren't we sisters???

we were born one womb, but brother can bear to me talk like that???

by rubbing my cheek that feels sore.

the brother who had turned his back did not look at me one bit, he just kept quiet.

Did you answer ???

answer me brother???

silence ?????

you silent????

looking at me very angry.

you want to know why ???

do you know why roses ????

why should you, why should you, why should you,,

everything should be about you.

is there no other story in the house besides you... Is there no other story, other than you??? close her face to mine with a look that hates me.

" sister, I don't understand what you mean"

don't pretend to be stupid, you understand what I mean!!

honestly Brother, I don't understand what you mean, but if you think I'm the one in this house you're wrong.

are you the one who always comes first.???

so 'em ,

brother thought all this time that our parents always distinguish us ,

is that what you are like, brother???

why do you think like??

so that she hates me so much???

everything .....

everything is.....

everything...

you know, you're always in priority .

have you and I ever thought about my feelings.....

they always think I'm wrong and you're never wrong in their eyes.

" why can you think like a sister"

why sis???

I want to be alone and

I don't want to talk to you anymore.

so please get out of my room!!

rose out!!!!! by pushing me towards the door.

I came out, and he slammed the door.

sis????

I won't hear your voice anymore!!!

sis

I hate you!!!

so please don't bother me anymore.

I'm sick of hearing your voice!!!

but brother!!!

I hate the roses...

my tears broke, hearing my brother's painful words.

slowly I set foot into the room.

oh my God, does my brother hate me ???

how big is my fault for not wanting her sister like me???

my crying became too.

today my brother and I were at home, my parents were going to town to visit my sick uncle.

and I didn't expect something like this, and surprised me even more, when my brother told me his feelings for me were that he hated me so much on the grounds that I was always preferred by our two parents.

I never felt that our parents distinguished us, because of the difference I never saw.

if asked ,

,I should be jealous of my brother...

envied him, though,

he did not know how to feel being a submissive child.he never knew what it was like to succumb to more adults, he never knew it was like just getting used goods from his brother, he said, he also never knew what it was like to have to give up on that selfish attitude of his, and now he's saying I'm the one who always comes first???

yes, it is true that it is always in priority . in order to succumb, in particular to be submissive children, it is preferred that we must respect adults, even though they are wrong.

he is allowed to hang out with anyone, he is always allowed anywhere, every request is always fulfilled, he said,

he never wears secondhand like me,

while I.. used goods from him . it was also if he was sincere.

I always help mamak every holiday to the rice fields, he never, even then he still envies me....

he also never undermined his working wages should anyone else enjoy .

I also want to be like him, when getting a sweat wage buying him what he wants..

but I've never really frowned at all.

you have to wait if you have new money bought.

while he can enjoy the results of his wages from Aunt Rena.

but I'm'

even used for daily needs.

sister;

I hate you????

why should I have a grandpa like you???

always in the first place ...

late home never asked.I just go out never in searchin, never in search,

if I eat together my name is never called at all,

I was rarely bought by two of my parents.all the clothes I bought from my wages help Aunt Rena.

is it always her???

I hate that I hate ?????

while throwing the contents in his room.

i hate?????

why should she ???

unfair, this is all unfair, all nobody cares about me. They only care about him.

the crying is becoming more and more....