" I'm Not My Beloved Child"

chapter 1 new school.

today is my first day in junior high school (SMP). in the morning about 5.30 wib I have been awake to prepare my needs for school.

I was combing my front glass hair near the door of my room, when my mother came from the kitchen.

" let the mother comb, " while taking the comb out of my hand.

" it turns out that my mother's son is already big" while smiling at me. I returned my mother's smile.

mamak tied his hair neatly, and mamak didn't usually do that either, but mamak always made an impression on us if something new happened to our son.

" that hunt your friend's friend is waiting for, it's too late" my mother said as she picked up my bag and put it on me. Because my friend had called out with their screams.

and I went straight away with my friend.

my school is about 2 km away, make us take time to travel it about 30 minutes if fast, but if the walk can be about 1 hour.

we use a leisurely walk so that our clothes are not dirty and our bodies do not sweat. In our village there are no public transportation equipment, then we all want schools to use walking. although there is a personal vehicle, we still walk, because we appreciate our friends who do not have a private vehicle.

on the way we were busy telling stories about our graduation and the grades we got.

" Mom" cried my brother, who was ready to go to school.The school near did not have to bother like me to go to school. and today also he first entered public high school(School)

yes" answered my mother who was busy in the kitchen cleaning her tools to go to the rice field.

"i'm leaving" ) said my brother

"yes, be careful" replied my mother from the kitchen while continuing her busy life.

my brother is not spoiled, but a little stubborn, and every thing you want must be obeyed.other with me I'm a crybaby, but we never bother to our two parents. and we also have a brother, but he again wanders aka wander.

it turns out I got a superior grade of 7a. not very good grades, but I got a rank of 4 out of hundreds of students who enrolled in the school.

I took the front bench by the window, I deliberately took it from the front because my body was small and not too high.

" know my name Erni" while thrusting her hand.

" rose" I replied as I returned his hand.

" may I sit here" while looking at the direction of the bench I sat on with a smile.

"of course you can" I replied with a smile.

SD from where " while sitting and cleaning the bag.

" Sec 106204" I replied again

but I don't ask anymore, because I don't really like asking other people.

bells ringing his mark of the subject will begin soon.

"Mom" cried my brother from his room

" Mom" shouted again louder.we were again in the kitchen that dinner, incidentally my brother just came home from a friend's house and immediately entered the room by looking for something.

my mama kept quiet and continued eating regardless of the screams of my feet.

my brother arrived at the kitchen door with an angry face...

we looked at my sister.

" what's "my mom said.

" who's been to my room" kentus said..

mamak quietly did not answer him while continuing his meal as well as me and my father.

his gaze was directed at me while his face glared at me.

" It's you who's coming into my room" in a higher-pitched voice.

"kok me "I replied with a slow look at him.

"yes, who else is it"

I'm silent, not criticizing the charges against me.

"if you like to buy it yourself." loudly again while leaving us and heading towards his room.

from his anger earlier maybe he lost something, and I admit all his personal tools, he bought his own money, and my brother also often bought nice and beautiful clothes.

the others with me

all the clothes that are used are bought by mamak. Although my sister and I can make money for extra snacks, my sister always use the money for her personal needs while I always save the money.

even though I was still Junior High, from Elementary School I was used to helping the neighbors, the wages were always saved, the same thing with my brother, but the brother was used to buy his personal needs.

"you know if you dare to go to my room again"

suddenly the voice surprised me.

" what's up" said my father in a soft voice towards my brother..

my brother didn't answer my father's question.he went straight out.

"why did Lin "his friend ask.

"i'm pissed off" with a sullen face and put it on the bed.

" with your adek" while opening the book.that sits at his desk.

yes" he replied with annoyance.

"why again" while continuing his busy life

" yes I don't like it, if my personal belongings are held by her. let alone in the same clothes she."with a voice still upset.

yes if indeed you do not use also, what's wrong you love ma Dy."

by asking wonder to herlina, yes the name of my sister Herlina.

" i don't like it anyway"

with a still upset voice.

yes, it's up to you". while removing the bubu from his bookshelf.

" let's hunt down the prnya" while pulling Herlina's hand.

my mom and dad were watching TV talking about something, like serious, and I was studying at the table in front of my sister's room door.

my brother and I are not one room, because my brother went to wander I used his room for me exactlyin, because if one room with my brother then often fight, especially brother likes to use violence. to avoid it, I slept in my brother's room.

my family is not a harmonious family, let alone our family from an underprivileged family.My parents often fight, let alone economic problems.

my father's job was only a rubber garden worker, while my mother was only a laborer also in the people's garden, although we had a rice field not how wide, but the will was enough to make a family meal.

" Mom" I approached my mother who was sitting watching on tv and my father was gone maybe there was some business.

"what" still seriously watching tv.

I gave a letter, yes like a bon in a stall . mamak saw it with a serious face.

" pay it can be in the grave of Mak, "

"teacher BP said like that" in a soft voice.because my mama dealing with money could explode,

" yes"he answered flatly.

" pay the longest when "my mom asks again.

"two weeks in time" I replied

"yes" said mamak again, and I rushed back to study.

I looked back at my mother, with a feeling of was was, because I was also confused where my mother took that much money, not to mention my brother.

while the parents are only garden workers with a salary of not much.