" I'm Not My Beloved Child"

chapter 10 curses my brother

he exhaled deeply and sat down beside the mother at the dinner table...

mamak who was disappointed at the attitude of his brother, made him very hurt.

he stroked the back of his mother very gently.

" Mak, do not think what was just said by brother.he is still unstable, does not understand the meaning of maturity.and we also do not be too forced as we want.

we better get closer to him. maybe he needs us more in his company.!!!

indeed, the difference he has with his adek is very far, brother is angry while sister is submissive, "say the father to the mother to convince that the brother is in need of his two parents.

yes, my stubborn brother who always thinks actions are always right.

he never forced it on our parents, if he wanted something, but he always tried to fulfill his own desires, because we always taught if we want something to try on its own, plus, our family is not from a capable family.

but with the nature of my brother who is easily angry, making always misunderstanding between brother and my parents.

as for me, his son was quiet, and always declared him, even though I was uncomfortable with the word yes.

while my brother if he does not like to directly protest bright light even though it was for his good.

I asked my mom once.

questions like these.

Mak, why should I always be asked to help mom, why not brother.

while she is older than me, stronger than me. even more proficient than me to do every mamak command!!!, I said expectantly there was an answer from my mother this.

mamak was silent for a moment, like thinking of an appropriate answer to my question a few minutes later..

can you ask Adek??? my mother threw me a question.

I just nod my head.

why do you want to do all the mamak orders all this time ???

I'm speechless with his questions if I think, I don't want to do it. Even the work I do is adult work.

especially in the holiday season..there is no time to play, all the time off to help mamak that have rice fields, sometimes I cry in the middle of the rice field while shouting 'Mak I am tired???

"have a rest if you are tired" only that sentence is spoken from him.

if you think I think being a submissive child is very unpleasant.

" what's the cool answer" mommy's question made me realize my daydream.

I took a slow breath of land and I threw it away..

" because I don't have the heart"

" i said with a faint smile.

that's all I can say to my mom.

I smiled, "do you ever

forcing you???

I shook my head.

mamak always gives you a choice and mamak never forces you said mamak very flatly.

has your brother been listening to the orders of your mother!!!

I shook my head again.

mamak has tried his sister for you, but what's okay for your brother always can't accept every action we do.

because your brother thinks that every order is a ban for him.

I also do not know, why is it always like that brother, always blame me, every in his shortcomings.even mamak also never, show the attitude of distinguishing between us. but today I was very disappointed with my sister's attitude.

" my brother's curse at Sri's house"

"why Lin????

you fight again with your brother??

sri's Word to Herlina.

didn't he??? like people are demoralized.

so with who?? sri again

with mamak??? take a deep breath.

how can it be ?? Sri with wonder.

is it because you didn't go to school??? ask Sri again.

one of them said Herlina was still limp because she cried all day.

means there's another dong???

yep!!!

what !!!

I ask my parents to quit school!!!!

crazy you are Lin Sri said with shock at Herlina's statement.

who's crazy, I'm still sane Sri???

what sane is Lin???

if you quit school, what do you want??? sri again.

I'm looking for a job!!!!

let me get away from my parents.!!!

work!!! what job???

any work can, if it can work far?!! let's not go home said Herlina with a serious face.

yes seriously... Sri...!!

you are so desperate Lin!!!

as long as you know lin, the work is not tired, !!! especially at our age, someone is hiring !!! just another SMP graduate.

where anyone would accept if only Lin Junior High School graduates, said Sri at length.

I have Sri's intention!!!

I was disappointed by my parents' attitude towards me. They didn't understand my feelings at all.

don't be like that!! there is no parent who distinguishes their children. Believe me. maybe at this time all you need is the warmth of your parents just you can not show how to behave.

so throw away the negative thoughts of your thoughts, not good, said Sri again at length.

don't you have to advise me!!! you also often fight with your own adek, said Lina reply to the advice of Sri who was thrown.

yes indeed, but we are not like you!!! sri replied.

yes, because the attitude of both our parents is different!! Lina replied again.

it's hard to tell the same stubborn person as you Lin!!!

because you are not in my position sri...!!!

I know & understand what you mean!!

just me as your best friend!!

afraid that you are missteps, just because you are so stubborn !!!

while hugging Herlina very tightly, and Herlina also returned Sri's embrace.

anyway.do not make decisions that make you lose for later.

try to be at peace with yourself first, ask yourself well whether you are sure of your decision...

do not make a decision when you are more emotional, said Sri at length.

yes bawel.. kayak ustadzah aja, was lecturing mother in the mosque.ucap Herlina with a smile.

I think you fit into an ustadzah!! said Herlina with a smile teasing Sri!

I will doain deh, let you later become ustadzah ,

but ... How to pray???

is our prayer different,???

said Herlina with a loud bang...

not funny Lina!!! sri said with a smile.

their friendship has been a long time, from since SD until now they have been sitting in high school they still remain friendly.Sometimes I envy also their friendship.not looking at the difference between them. always supportive, always,

especially when fasting, Sri who performs fasting even my brother also follow the fast.even in the morning brother also follow sahur.

ever the mother of my brother's country, if you want to appreciate , it does not mean you are also fasting. Enough you keep your attitude towards him only, but instead say to my mother, everyday is always with him, everyday is always with him,

fasting is also. it's okay once for worship said my brother, .

it's up to you said mamak to him.ntar if banned increasingly desperate.

that's their friendship, mutual respect.

where are you, sir??.

I said to my father, because from this afternoon after school until now I have wanted a magrid, I did not see my mother at all.

mamak is not feeling well, maybe tired, because of the long journey, said the father to me at the dinner table.

and I continued my busy life preparing ingredients for our dinner.

"some days we're not home, you're with your brother okay, right ??

suddenly my father asked, but from earlier I noticed he was just daydreaming.

"good, well ,

no problem, sir!!

why is it sir???

no, I'm afraid if you fight, you fight,

you know what your brother is, though,

if he is angry he can go!!

say father by giving a thin smile.

"no sir, fine !!

there is no problem between us. "

giving a thin smile so that you are sure of your words.

"fortunately. bruises on the face are not very visible"

if asked by father,

how ???

could be another world war with brother"

I murmured in my heart.

but brother where is it, how come I didn't see.???

or at Sri's house???

it's easy that brother is there. murmured me again in the heart. and hope that brother is in good condition.