" I'm Not My Beloved Child"

chapter 11 misses the figure of brother

I think my brother has made the right decision, which from yesterday wanted to stop school, but he has decided to continue school.

I don't know who made him realize, it doesn't matter to me that it's important that my brother doesn't make the wrong decision.

and today, I miss my brother so much, I haven't seen him in a long time.

almost 3 years, I did not meet him. Even my brother rarely tell us, maybe the effect of our village is difficult to signal times, want in what words, maybe, if our village is only in remote areas, even though there is a network, even in certain areas.

I remember my brother, the mischief we made, my brother and I who were at odds with my 5-year-old brother.

from childhood I was with a less familiar brother, I also do not know why, just I was more comfortable with my brother.

it's because my brother was never angry at all with me or not, but from a small age I prefer a soft figure.

the mischief we once made, remembering it made me smile at my own smile, fortunately in room , if out there maybe people think I'm not sane anymore.

a little story about the mischief of both of us with my brother:

originally the intention of playing to the river to fish, yes my brother hobby once fishing.

on the outskirts of our Empang, there is a river so every brother wants to go fishing always to that river, after school my brother took me with his friends.

tarjan and Anton fishing.

not as usual, it's been a few hours we've been fishing not getting at all .

" i'm getting bored, 'cause if I get fish, I make it my playmate.

" fish where bang" with my whining for not getting fish.

* maybe the fish are sleeping again" said my brother to persuade me not to whine anymore, because we did not get any fish at all ,

so we decided to return home.on the way home we passed by Empang , yes Empang my parents although not too broad.

because of the drizzle, the road we passed so slippery that made me fall my small body slipped.

and the end of entering the Empang, Empang not too deep, a child like me who is 5 years old, will not drown. even though the water is as high as my shoulder, does not make it difficult to move , a little understanding also I swim, because I often invited my brother often swim in the river.

" yes bang" I said with a whine.

" let the hunt go up" said my brother as he extended his hand.

" even to fun I play mud ...

" it's late in the afternoon, mayu hunted home said my brother to persuade me!;

but I'm still playing with the water and mud because I still want to play with my brother to play with the way

I threw mud at my brother, threw it in his face.

" grandfather" said my brother and he went into the Empang, while replying to me by pouring mud into my body.

as we again cried out for play, my brother's two friends did not want to lose in our excitement, and the brand decided to join in, throwing each other to throw us to enjoy our excitement.

suddenly, there was a screaming voice, we set our eyes towards the voice, it turned out that the loud screaming was my father.

we immediately looked at each other, our hearts had started jogging like hearing DJ music.not because we were happy, but because we were afraid.

we went straight out, and took all our equipment, while my brother carried me, not thinking long we used the style of a thousand shadows, to avoid the tantrums of Orochimaru. without realizing we have done the thousand shadows that Naruto always uses.

my father who saw us run away, he chased us and did not want to lose by using the style of Edo tensei . because we know our opponent is not arbitrary , so we use different paths so that we are not easy to get, if we can say a secret way, so that Orochimaru does not find us easily, because Orochimaru is crazy with Sasuke, his best friend Naruto, he will use various techniques to get us. And we also use Indra sasuke's arrow to avoid the attack of Orochimaru.

how to be a story Naruto, maybe because I'm one of the Naruto fans.

ok we continue again.

" punishment"

you look at us one by one, I'm with my brother .

my brother's friend escaped from the father's tantrums, while we again struggled to face the father's tantrums.

we saw his face so very angry, we did not dare to look at him.

"do you both know what your mistake was???

looking at us with great anger, we who were standing in front of him were even more afraid of my father's anger.

"you sir" replied my brother with fear

what and try to explain ??? said the father with still deep into anger.

" play in the Empang"

"most notably "

Brother was silent, he did not answer the question father, afraid of wrong, if wrong getting worse .

" you know, a week ago, you just put a goldfish seedling in!!!

said the father withholding his anger.

my brother and I looked at each other!!!

we feel increasingly guilty, for our actions.we have made you lose, automatically that you did last afternoon, make all the goldfish seeds to die all.

today I do not release you, you must be punished, said the father by lowering his emotions.

starting tomorrow, every 3pm you two feed the fish seedlings.

because tomorrow I will add more fish.

"Abtain it sir"

"adek do not have to come" anyways wrong Brother, the biggest brother.adek do not know what said Brother to defend me.

either of you two, you two are wrong.

and Brother do not defend adek continue, later your adek will be spoiled.

let him also participate in the law, so that later he can be more independent again, said my father firmly.

that's the kind of mischief we did with my brother. There's still a lot more delinquency that we made.

if only that childhood, can be repeated, but unfortunately, can not be repeated again.

the longing I felt became more and more so, I subconsciously shed my tears on the bolting pillow I was holding.

"bang, you kangen!!!

did you not miss me???

bang, is your grandpa big???

Brother won't be able to carry me anymore??

moreover, adek is now in the 3rd grade of Junior High School, soon to have started entering High School.

You didn't come home until now!!!

it's been 3 years!!!

my murmuring in my crying became more and more so. My tears kept falling.

Brother went away to the capital, to look for a piece of paper, but at that time he was still in school but

My brother decided to quit school, and went to wander, and,

at that time I was still in 6th grade, the brother who went to leave us.

I think he made a decision at that moment in an emotional state.

so any advice anyone, he would not listen to it, let alone my parents could not persuade my brother of his decision. Because my brother once was decided no one could change it.

I always remember every word he said, when he was leaving:

my brother is the most.small.be a submissive child yes.as you always listen to every word Brother.

always respect the older.

while hugging me so tightly..

I will miss you, she said with a smile.

he also approached my sister

my sweet and stubborn brother!!

listen to what you say!!

be yourself, never keep an anger in your heart.

Brother must miss you, with your bring or with your stubborn head!

my brother said, hugging my sister tightly.

My brother cried sobbing Isak at what Brother said :

"who else will stand up for me, "

he said, still sobbing Isak in his tears.

when another child bothers me.

who will defend me??

still sobbing Isaac in his cry.My brother cried

like a baby when the sister is in 3rd grade Junior High.

my brother smiled:

" do not always depend on others, it's time you do it yourself. Emotional control behave more mature. said my brother to the brother who was at odds just 2 years old.

my longing is getting worse ,

after remembering our behavior at that time.

because I was tired of crying and remembering my brother, my life had drifted and I finally fell asleep to remember the memories with my brother.