" I'm Not My Beloved Child"

chapter 3 I was a kid

Ting... Ting...

Ting.. Ting...

the bell indicates the time of rest.

" jajan yok to the cafeteria" Erni said to me.

"no ah, I just brought provisions from home" I replied with a faint smile.

" okay I stay" said Erni who directly pointed out .

I always bring supplies from home.and my pocket money I never use.every time there is pocket money I always save.how many months of school , I have never set up a canteen, I have never set up a canteen, because I always bring the supplies that I always provide.

I take my provisions and I open them immediately I want to eat them.

just arrive

rose, I set my eyes on her.

the boy who used to weave me with a smile his name was Hendra.

I just shut up and continued eating.

I'm not used to being friends with boys, even if there's only one brother or my father.

" eat again"

with a smile on me, and I didn't look at all.

" there's a message from him.. "

he said he wants to meet you at the usual place he hangs out right now.

" be careful if you don't come". while bringing some of my snacks and go straight away.

* i don't want to yell at me" out loud but he doesn't pay me any heed.

a few minutes later my friend came.

" to the park yok"

I just finished eating.

"ayo" I said.

we headed straight to the school park in the place where we used to hang out. he also did not like snacks.so our rest hours always go to the school park , because it is cool and fresh that is not too hot because many flower trees that block the sun.

suddenly, there was a greeting sound disturbing us who were fun to tell a story.

hi rose..

we looked directly at the voice that was in front of us.

"hai lita" in greeting my friend as well.

" him too" lita returned his greeting.

"may I speak alone with the rose" he said.

" yes"

answer lita and leave immediately

leaving me.

"may I sit next to you"

"whatever "I replied with a somewhat irritated tone.

his name is ijon.he is a classmate with me his son is smart, kind, polite.

"kok is here"

"what is "

didn't Hendra just give me my message to you.??

Hendra is his best friend, just they are different classes . Ijon one class with me while Hendra one class with lita.

ijon often invite me to chat, just I have difficulty connecting with new people.even though I have often met with him talk alakadar only.

he used to take me to the cafeteria I never wanted to.

" i want to say something"

" just say it"

"i like you"

while looking at me seriously.

I also looked in shock and immediately lowered my head.

" what's your answer" he said again.

I'm getting head down.

" would you be my girlfriend"

he said softly again.

hearing her words gave me goosebumps because I didn't know what to answer.

and fear me

crying sobbing sob sobbing sobbing sob

and he was immediately confused and looked at me and asked.

" you why, don't cry later other children think I'm whatever you are again"

I was still crying, sobbed Isaac.

and he tried to keep persuading me not to cry.

" there's Jon "just arrived there's a voice pointing at us.

" this is the bang she cried"

"you are "he said again

" i don't know what a bang" he said again.

have roses you do not cry again later think other children in what other things" said Fero.he is our upperclassman.and all close friends ijon, Ijon, maybe Ijon a lot of stories about me, then he knows my name, and I also only know a few days now, because I often play my class .

"ijon said "he asked me again.

I slowly raised my bowed head from earlier and directed my gaze towards Fero.

I replied slowly

"he said he liked me" in a still-slow voice.

fero kept his gaze the same as Ijon and directed it again at me.

" why if. ijon says he likes you"?? questioningly.

" i was a little bang" in a soft voice and still sobbing Isak.

" Jon , rose is still a child do not invite girlfriend to date ya with a little laugh while mocking him.

ijon who acted silly when he heard the words and added Fero's taunt to him.

Ting ....

Ting....

Ting... bells ringing the entrance sign of the classroom.we immediately rushed into the classroom and Ijon followed me from behind as we were one class.

"why war" Erni asked in wonder towards me.

" no why "

so why are your eyes red and cause, like crying out??? erni said again with curiosity.

I just kept quiet and did not answer Erni's question and sat down on the bench.

"day child "

noon ma'am, we simultaneously reply to the greeting of the teacher.

the most powerful teacher in my school.

math teacher Bu ES (Ely Simanjuntak)

he likes angry without cause.not that I do not like mathematics, but because his teacher I became lazy to learn mathematics.like to do many tasks, but never in check ma him, but he, after a few weeks like to be asked if the task is finished yet, but it has lasted several weeks.

what were you doing??

like crying after finished talking to Ijon??

questioningly

set his eyes on me.

we were again laying the bed lita because the brother was angry again at home, directly to his house lita rather than knowing the mending dodging nagging.

" no "I answered

"sichh time" with ridicule

yes - yes I answered high notes but not angry.

"when did he say he liked me???" with a plain face, my eyes were fixed on him.

" keep answering what"

he said again with curiosity and a serious face waiting for my answer.

" yes I cry" with a face still plain but rada a little annoyed.remember the words of Ijon that was last afternoon.

" why cry" while laughing as if feeling amused by my answer.

"i was a little girl"

I answered still plain and confused why lita laughed at me.

" yes yes it is still a child "you said he again mocked me.

don't watch Naruto

here it is, then,

people like to cry"

laughing, I again nodded.

" i'm going home"

magrid said I rushed home.

slowly I went into the house because I heard a noise from inside the house.I saw the look of mamak's face as angry with my father who was at the dining table, my mom in front of the tv sat down.

maybe you were watching before you came home.I went straight to my room. Because I came home then they stopped fighting . and also did not see my brother at home.

adek.call against me.

" what sir" I answered immediately rushed to the father.

" eat "he said to me

I just shook my head.

"eat" said the father again.

"mom let's eat "my words with my mama

mamak didn't answer

mamak immediately rushed out to where .

I was the same father who ate, and I did not ask why they had quarreled, nor did my father refuse to tell me.

we just kept quiet and continued eating.

keep fighting .....

keep fighting .....

quarrels continuesss....

suddenly the voice surprised us and turned out to be my brother.

" the basic parent has none"

" the child is already grown up also still fighting with a loud voice and leads to his room by slamming the door.

we just kept quiet, didn't comment on what my brother said.

after I finished eating I cleaned our plates and dad went out, no matter where there might be business.

I was tidying up the dirty dishes, because I could no longer bear my tears, the end fell as well. I sat at the dinner table remembering their quarrels. before entering I had heard all the quarrels of my parents.

not once did my parents quarrel twice, perhaps dozens of times they had, but it was only the first time I heard the word, and it was spoken from the mouth of two of my parents.

" why" my brother asked in a still-loud voice.

and it was just there in front of me.

I just looked at him and lowered my head again towards the table.

no need to tangyin.

it's no use

they are just parents who have no shame" said my brother in a voice still emotional..

He took the rice and sat down at the dinner table, he greedily finished his meal.

my sister never paid attention when both parents fought.

as if I don't care about them.

as for me, I can only cry and can not do anything.