YUCIA Love Story
6. Living or Giving Up
Yudha's body trembled at the statement coming out of Dani's mouth. Yudha had run over fellow members until the victim fell into a coma. The man shook his head once more. “Really?” he still tried to denial, but now felt he did not have time to continue rejecting the reality, and Dani never lied.
Yudha tried to get up to see the victim, “Please help me, I have to go to her room and apologize to her,” Yudha said to Dani while holding the edge of the bed, trying to get up as hard as she could.
Dani immediately restrained Yudha's body and put the man to bed again with an annoyed face. “What are you doing? Don't make this situation worse. You're still in recovery, you need to stay here and don't go there until you're completely healed. I know you feel guilty and want to apologize to her, but also think about how you are at the moment,” she jolted.
Yudha shook her head, “I have to see it.” Yudha still wanted to stand up, he was still trying his hardest before Dani pushed him again quite hard.
“Do not do this, Yudha. You have to keep resting,” he said with great emphasis.
Yudha really felt guilty towards the member she had hit. He wanted to meet her and apologize to her for making her like this, but Dani kept holding her back. Now that Yudha felt indifferent to herself, she thought about the circumstances of the victim and wanted to take as much responsibility as she could. Yudha could not imagine how her family would feel right now.
“I want to see it,” hiss Yudha desperate.
“You don't need to see it.” A person who had just entered Yudha's room emphasized his words.
Neither Yudha nor Dani knew who the man was, but his body looked burly. The man stepped closer to Yudha and watched Yudha's body from top to bottom. “You're all right? Better listen to your friend's word to stay here until you're healed. You do not need to worry anymore about the next task.” The man smiled meaningfully.
“What do you mean?” yudha asked not to understand.
The man took out a white envelope from his pocket, then placed it over Yudha's chest. “This is a notification letter regarding temporary duty exemption. Do not know until when because there is no decision, but more important than that you can not come to the dormitory again until the next notification comes to you,”.
Not just falling and being hit by stairs, but this has reached the point of being dragged by a series of disasters. Yudha's universe just collapsed. For years he devoted himself to being useful to the country, but it ended up like this. Because of the many calamities that hit him, Yudha was not surprised at all by the notice. Instead he just looked at the letter-giver and moved the letter that was originally on his chest to the nightstand by the bed.
“Good, thank you for the notice,” og Yudha.
“You're not surprised?” ask the man.
Yudha. “No, rather I am tired of feeling surprised by the many disasters lately, so I consider the letter as an addition to the calamity that hit me,” said Yudha.
Not that his heart was dead, he felt that everything was broken in just a few days. But he could not prevent everything until he had to let himself fall on the mountain of unrelenting calamity. I don't know until when all the bad things pull Yudha to the black hole that doesn't end.
The man held Yudha's shoulder respectfully. “I hope you can return to being someone better when the time comes. I hope you can learn a lot from everything you have done. And follow your friend's word to never victim's room, because maybe his parents will rampage when they see you coming. You can apologize when things have improved, but for now do not come first. They don't want to see you,”.
After that the man left and left Yudha and Dani who were still in the room. Seeing the man who had disappeared after closing the door, Yudha suddenly cried, her eyes covered with arms and began to sob. His chest was completely claustrophobic withstanding the cries he should have let out in the first place. He was not as strong as he had imagined, he could not help his tears from falling. Everything is shattered due to his ego and his out of control self.
“Cry if it makes you calm, friend.” Dani said softly. The man was still sitting beside Yudha with a gloomy look on his face. How Dani knew that being a soldier was the ideal of Yudha from childhood, the face of Yudha who was always happy when getting the task always Dani remembered. But now the man had to be sent home temporarily because of his mistake which was quite fatal.
“Is my sin too much until the calamity comes alternately without stopping? Does the universe hate me? What have I done until this reply felt so cruel?” Yudha babbling. “Come out, I don't want to see you,” he continued.
Dani swallowed the saliva, he seemed to nod his head and left Yudha. Perhaps the man did need some time alone, so Dani decided to sit outside waiting for Yudha. However Dani could not leave Yudha, he promised to accompany her until Yudha could be sent home.
Yudha's burly right hand squeezed the bedsheet underneath her tightly, “Why? Why does this happen at one time? Was my fate so bad that I was not given the chance to be happy even for a moment? Why is the universe so heartful to me, when I always try to be better,” softly in a desperate voice.
Yudha rose with all her energy from her sleep. He removed all medical devices that were originally attached to several parts of his body. It hurts enough, but it hurts more to know the more tragic suffering of his life than just the removal of an infusion.
Yudha lowered her legs to the cold floor, slowly stood up and slowly stared at the street behind the window. “I have to get out there or should I never get out of here?” The man asked himself.
His body then turned to stare at a glass flower vase on the table standing firmly and beautifully. Yudha slowly approached the vase and picked it up later. “With this I can stay here forever, right? It was much better than coming back with a bunch of nightmares. I want to just disappear, it seems like it is much easier than returning to life,” softly while dropping the vase on the floor.
