You're Not the First

lost before the war

After the drama changed clothes many times and taught me to convince myself if my current appearance is good enough and it is appropriate to meet people from the upper class.

Using white interior and plisket skirt and black outer knee-length. Wrapped in a black headscarf whose tip I pulled to the right side and I pinned a small brooch there.

I polished my lips with lip balm to make them look bright and I smiled at the mirror looking at my own appearance. I think this is my best performance. I don't know if he'll feel like me, like this?

I don't know, even though we've never met. I don't know why I'm so nervous. As will be found with the prospective husband only.

Eh... Is that true, right? why be an oon...

Huft..may all go well and according to the wishes of the parents and we can live it happily.

Our pickup arrived at half-eight and without waiting for long we got into it.

Mami and papi sat in the back while I was on the front bench next to the driver. Papi and Mami look elegant. Yes they leave a set of branded clothes that are appropriate for these kinds of events. Other clothes are certainly sold for our various purposes.

In the car I was sitting unsettled, very nervous. Move repeatedly to find the most comfortable sitting position.

"Sit down quietly, nik...!! Everything will be fine!" Papi.

"Yes pi. Sorry sir...!" I said then to the driver who had seen my behavior, he must be uncomfortable.

A few minutes later the car we were riding in stopped at a large courtyard full of flowers after we had passed through the gate. The house looks magnificent with a classic international residential style. It was almost like our house before.

As soon as papi and mami came down my heart immediately beat fast. All my thoughts are raging. It doesn't feel too willing to let go of my youth so soon but. Why are you so nervous.... What if he's ugly and fat? We're not getting married anytime soon, are we?

'uww...... Why is my mind like this, calm down, calm down, so sweet boy....!!'

I took my breath as hard as I could and then I exhaled slowly.

Papi and Mami also look a little nervous, both of them like strengthening each other by holding hands. After all, our different circumstances now, made us less comfortable.

We walked to the place directed by the driver to the living room of the Adi jaya family. It turns out Miss Rosi was waiting for us. He greeted us with joy. It seems that my Candidate-in-law is a person who is supple, friendly and sociable.

I took a look at this spacious living room with a high roof. The design is classic and luxurious. Enough to spoil the eyes.

"Come, please sit down, everyone. Don't hesitate, think of it at home..." Miss Rosi welcomed us.

Shortly afterwards, Adi Jaya was out and behind him a tall male figure followed him, walking firmly wearing a short-sleeved shirt and material pants, showing a less formal impression.

"This is Basofi sir Bas...." Said Mr. Adi introduced his son to papi.

Handsome, white face but wide eyes not narrow like me.

"Ah yaa. Our names are almost the same" said Papi then shook hands with him. He smiles unexpectedly and then kisses the hand of papi and mami.

"Hahaha... yes why can it happen like this huh? Really this soul mate....." Said Mr. Adi who was greeted with laughter by all of us.

I gasped and looked at him for a moment without blinking. This was beyond my expectations. His face was handsome, friendly and respectful to the elderly. My heart floated in his making.

I smiled as she looked at me and she replied. My heart's blossoming. My beloved buds have arrived, my mind.

Suddenly the words of ci siska flashed in my head. Is he really a player? If you look at his face it's impossible but if what my former boss said is true hopefully it's his past and now he's converted.

"Bas....!! Take your future wife for a walk first. Let these elders reunion first.... Is it jeng?" Mom said Ros to mommy. Mami just smiled and they all looked towards the two of us with happy and hopeful gazes.

As he walked over to me my heart dag dig dug was not careless. It was like floating in the clouds. Just look at the awesome style. Added to that with his tall stature and handsome face. Who would not be captivated and captivated?

"Come..we're going to the park!" He said in a cheerful and friendly tone. I followed him with a racing heart, very happy. I try to be calm despite being groggy and half dead.

We walked side by side even though his legs could go wider and longer but he tried to adjust his pace to my short footsteps.

He put both his hands in his pants pocket and walked the path inside the garden area and I just followed him. I really wanted to start a conversation but my mouth seemed locked and did not dare to start. Rather than a wrong word, I would rather just shut up and enjoy the beating heart that is still timid, clumsy and does not know what to do.

Maybe from a distance our parents saw us and thought if we could accept each other and could continue this matchmaking without coercion and mutual love. In fact, I was like a fool who just walked after him.

"How old are you?" He said break the silence and it surprised me.

"Eh..iya.it....e...18 years" I stammered. Why is it so hard to talk? Actually I want to ask also, she is what age but I feel shy and back I choose to be quiet.

" It's still very small ..."He said while glancing at me.

I instantly averted my gaze when our eyes met, I became embarrassed and misbehaved. Maybe my face now looks red and I try to hide it by turning away from it.

"Papa and mama forced me to accept this match because I felt indebted to your father. I couldn't turn him down because they threatened to get me off the family card if I didn't want to". He breathed heavily.

The deg!!!!

I seemed to glide from a height after daydreaming over the clouds but the reality was not in line with expectations. It sounded like he rejected me and disliked me.

"I'm sure you agree with me, too. Your age is still very small and surely you have a lot of ideals. You must also have a boyfriend "His words are firm, his face is serious there is no joke there.

It's broken my heart. The reeds became to pieces. I pulled both corners of my lips to look smiling to cover the bitterness in my heart. As much as possible I can't cry in front of him and be mediocre.

I made peace with the ringtone-sounding state of her hape and she immediately shifted the green icon on her screen. It turned out to be a video call. He also pointed his hape in front of his face.

"Babies...... " Sounds the voice of a woman with a voice lurking.

"Why?" The answer was brief with a soft tone.

" I miss you baby... When can we meet?" his voice was spoiled and his accent sounded like a bule.

Although curious about his face but I pretended to ignore them. If you don't remember any of our parents, I would have left here. I want to cry all over. Nothing yet, but it turns out I lost before the war.

I took out my Chinese phone to distract. Somehow she felt when she saw my hair, I didn't care. I don't want to be in front of him anymore. I will show you my true state and behave as I am.

Among my sadness, my ego also soared in the chest. If he can't seem to think I exist then I should too.

"How many numbers are you?" Ask after they promised to meet each other tomorrow and say hello by saying I love you and see you.

"Eh..." I pretended to be shocked even though I was trying to focus on my phone in fact I couldn't. I heard their conversation clearly. From earlier I just shifted my phone screen up and down.

"Why?" I asked stupidly.

"Let us strategize if our parents plan something for us..."

oh so...., my inner.

I mentioned a number of numbers and he typed them in his hape. I'm a little curious he kept my contact number by what name.

"I hope you can pretend in front of them and I'll buy our engagement time until they forget and we can explain to them that we don't fit in. We're gonna make excuses it takes time to get to know each other. As long as you are free to do anything with anyone and vice versa. We're not tied to each other but we're in union..."He looked a little at me.

"How many months?" I said indifferently to balance the chatter to make it seem that we had the same thoughts even though my heart was struggling.

"Maybe a year....." Said lightly.

"Ok deal..." I said steady more precisely to look self-respecting.

He looked at me who was still playing the phone.

"Why?" As if to challenge him I looked into his sharp eyes full of confidence.

" Okay, the deal..!! we're just playing in front of them" he said. There was a bit of disappointment in his voice. Or maybe it was just my feeling.

"Mama must have a lot of plans. You get ready!" Further.

"OK.." I said, nodding without looking at him.

Ok I can definitely get through it all with a cheerful smile and I will prove if I can laugh happily.