You're Not the First

Atonement

"OUT!!!" Basofi yelled at Sofiyah which made her heart stop beating.

Sofiyah who felt her pride fall and get trampled by the handsome man was also a jerk immediately rushed out.

He did not know why Basofi was so angry with him. Isn't that what he wants. Then what's wrong?

Sofiya passed by without asking or asking for an explanation. He left Basofi who was at the peak of emotions. If you do not remember now he is in the neighborhood of the boarding school want it to feel like he closed the door of the car owned by Basofi very hard if necessary maybe until it was damaged.

While Basofi, he was trying to reduce his anger and wanted to leave the place quickly but when he saw the ointment of Sofiyah's still left in his car he collapsed his entire ego.

He went out to put the ointment on the door so that he would not have to meet the woman he respected. But Sofiyah's mom was behind the door. His face seemed confused because he found his daughter coming home with an indecipherable look.

"What's the Ko?" Ask in a weak voice.

"No papa mi. It's Aya ya noodle ointment.... "

"Shops don't sit down?" Ask again.

"I'm sorry mi. I'm in a hurry..." Basofi said as he kissed the back of the hand of his future father-in-law.

"Sorry Fiah yes Ko...." Mami said sincerely although she did not know what the problem was but as an older person of course she could feel something was happening between her daughter and her future daughter-in-law.

Basofi just gave a smile and immediately left from there.

When he was on the big road Basofi grabbed his own hair and then shouted as loud as possible.

"Aarrrgggghhh!!!!!"

Basofi cursed his folly by loving a little girl he had never even touched at all. Because the girl also he never again dipped his navel on his favorite burrow which used to be his daily food.

Basofi drove his car at high speed not knowing the direction. He just wanted to let go of his frustration no longer thinking about his safety. He just wanted to forget Sofiyah's loving gaze on the young man earlier.

He has begun to take the path of repentance, although not yet fully appropriate. He has tried to pray at least once a day. He also never again used his legacy to come here and there only if it was not strong enough to resist the urge of desire he would be solo in the bathroom by calling the name Sofiyah.

Suddenly there was a desire to go to the club and drink there to forget the problem because maybe God did not want him to repent. Evidently when he began to get closer to Him he was instead given a painful surprise.

Babas started driving his car to the scene. He was good in bed but somehow he could not drink hard. Drinking just a little bit of his head would float and not remember anything that was why he very rarely went to such places. He did not want to make his mother sad because of his actions.

One of Basofi's good qualities is to love his mama more than anyone, he is the main one and Basofi is willing to do anything as long as his mama is happy.

But on the other hand he really hates women because of the actions of his stepmom against his biological mother. That's why he's just messing around with a lot of women without knowing what his name is. He only wanted to take revenge on the women for the actions of his stepmother.

His fondness for the great sin was also a form of protest to the father who until now he is still often ignored. He wanted to show his father that he could be more depraved than the father who had hurt his mother. And strangely in front of his mother he will turn into a good boy who respects both of his parents.

Because his mind was traveling his car was not necessarily moving. He who has the intention to go to the club must stop because his car suddenly dodged in the middle of the road. And after checking it turned out that the car's fuel ran out completely.

He looked to the right and to the left and only realized that he was far away from the city. Although it was currently in his wallet tucked away a lot of money yet it was useless at all because the gas station seemed to be far from where it stood.

And coincidentally the Maghrib adhan echoed from the mosque across the street. Basofi sighed. Intentions want to go clubing and drunk go to a place of worship but it turns out God instead leads him back to His house.

He smiled at his game of fate. Basofi himself is confused whether he is actually among the good and lucky or he belongs to the group of losers who regret later on.

Just entering the gate of the mosque his heart was already cold. What was once turbulent and wanted to destroy anything he saw now turned more calm.

Basofi stepped towards the place of the wudlu. He washed his face, hands, head, and feet with tears soaking his cheeks. He remembered the many sins he had committed, but the Powerful One seemed to want to say that forgiveness was still available to him. It was as if the Provider still wanted himself to return to his arms and repent earnestly, nasucha said.

As he prayed in congregation and followed the priest's movements, the cry still continued to flow through his face until sobbing in his prayer.

After the Maghrib prayer service was over and the priest had finished reading the do'a Basofi did not immediately move from his seat. He still wanted to read the good words he memorized. He read Istighfar as he remembered his sins. Then read the hamdalah while remembering every gift given to her. It was repeated many times.

His ears also heard an ustadz who was explaining the book he read even though he did not fully understand it but he tried to digest it.

" There is a thug who every day coiled with prostitution. He used to drink, fornicate and he killed 99 people and then he wanted to repent and come to a religious leader. This thug explained that he had committed a great sin and wanted to repent but he doubted whether God would still forgive him or not.

The priest asked, "what sins have you committed?"

"I've killed 99 people"

The less-scientific cleric replied, "there is no way God will forgive your sins"

Because he got an answer that did not fit his heart, this thug also cut off the neck of the religious leader so that even the person who killed him became 100 lives.

He then walked and looked again for a religious leader and he met a wise seikh.

The thug then told about his sins that had destroyed 100 lives and he wanted to repent. He then asked if he still had a chance to repent and if God would still forgive him?

The seikh said wisely. "The opportunity of repentance is for anyone but you do so because of your environment therefore go to this country where the people are diligent in worship."

So the thug set out to emigrate but before he reached the destination turned out his life was uprooted by the angel Izrail in the middle of the road.

Allah also told His prophet that he forgave all the sins of the thug and put them into those who go to heaven"

The more he wept, the more Basofi listened to it, determined that he would repent earnestly and would learn religion from this very moment.

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The next morning he told his driver to pick Sofiyah up to his house and drive her to work.

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The story of repentance is a lot of stories. You have a unique story about our repentance, brother, parents or neighbors. Dong...! let me put it in the story.

May we also be among those who are forgiven of their sins and can enter the Bighoiri paradise of hisab. Amyn...

Thank you all who want to read a story that is still a lot of reproach everywhere.....

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