You're Not the First

bewildered

He walked out of his room before the security reached his doorstep. Receive the package without saying thank you. Sounded just say "hm "only and the security immediately excuse me.

Now he only wears a shirt with his sleeves rolled up almost to his elbows. Looks cool and dashing but once he recalls being in touch with a lot of women I felt his good looks dropped dramatically.

"Come...!" He said as he sat on the sofa that the guests used to use and began to open the package containing food without looking at me at all. And of course the call was for me because there was no one else here other than the two of us.

I walked to the couch and sat not far from him. Opening the box that turned out to contain rice and a full side dish. A big besek between us opened and the contents are whole roasted chicken that looks delicious with a lot of super sambal.

"Your job is done?" He asked while taking a little chicken meat and then chocolate it on the sauce and put it on my nose.

"Yet. Maybe it will not be finished even overtime all night", although lazy to talk I answer also the question.

I ate using a spoon that was available in the box. I just eat what he gives me without asking let alone protest even though my stomach is actually uncomfortable because it had eaten chili in large quantities. I do like spicy but my stomach that sometimes can not accept.

"After this we go home! Continue tomorrow morning!" He continued to take chicken meat and chewed small and then dicocolkannya on sambal then put it on my nose.

"Don't ge-er! I'm doing this so I don't get blamed for letting the employees starve".

"Yes". I answered briefly and then continued eating. It seems I'm tired of hoping he'll turn into a nice guy so I don't want to second-guess what he's thinking. It felt empty even though he was with her.

He stopped his activities and looked at me as if something was wrong on my face. He sighed then went to the sink and washed his hands with the available liquid soap.

I continued to eat until it was finished while the food I saw was still intact. He hasn't touched her at all. Now he just sits while staring at the hape he may be busy chatting with his lovers.

"How's the rest?", I asked while cleaning everything up.

"Dispose only! " His answer without seeing me then drank the iced tea.

" Can I take it home?", I asked because I felt dear. Why do we have to throw away so much? mubadzir, right?.

"I told you to throw it away! I'll buy you a new one for your family! You think I don't have the money to buy a new one?!"

Started to relapse again crazy. I'm just asking like that he's crazy. Thankfully, I was not in the mood to talk.

Besek and the food box I put again in its original place while my food box that I had finished making one with my iced tea cup. The one I throw in the other trash can I'll take home or I'll give you a security guard.

"Let's go home!" He said as he walked and put his hape into his pants pocket.

You crazy boss!! He really did everything at will. I rushed to clean up my desk because I didn't want to be alone in a room this big.

"Wait a minute sir!" I said while arranging things on the table but instead fell everything.

"Astaghfirullahaladhim....." The important thing is that the laptop is dead and the data I have stored everything else can be cleared tomorrow, my mind.

I ran after him who was in the elevator. It was fortunate that he wanted to wait for me so I would just follow him without asking much.

At the exit I gave his rice to the security who delivered it to us. He just looked at it, not angry.

"Take your bike!" He said while giving me the motor key contact.

I went straight to the motorbike parking even though I was a little afraid because only a few people who I had seen before, could be counted fingers. Very different from the time of day, this place is very boisterous because everyone has their own interests. Though this has not been isyak but this place so it looks lonely and a little make my hair stand up.

"You are my screw! I wonder if you can master a path that turns like this or not!" His orders after he put on my helmet. I don't know what he wants? Sometimes he seems to care about me, but other times he gets really grumpy and tramples on my pride.

I drove my motor matic slowly out of the parking area with him sitting behind me. Maybe it's because it's lonely now so he's not ashamed of being with me.

The security in front of the gate looked at us with his eyes squinted. Either he knew who was behind me this director sir or not but his gaze was a little probing.

Mr. Security asked me to stop by up and down his orange snter lights right in front of my motorbike which was running very slowly.

I also stopped carefully because I was still a little groggy suddenly in this stop.

"Yes sir?" I asked while turning off the engine.

"I'm sorry I checked!" That security word.

Babas got off the bike and opened his helmet and walked closer to the security, which immediately swallowed his own saliva.

"You don't know me? Are you asking me to fire Hha!!!??"

"Mmmmaa-ma - sorry sir sorry!!. I just saw this. After all, you never ride a motorcycle and usually the same girls sek..si...!" He closed his own mouth which did not even want to stop talking worse his mouth spoke for what it was.

"Remember her face if you don't want me to fire!" He said while pointing at me with his chin then pointing at the security face and snapping at it.

He immediately sat in my backseat again and the security lowered its head while apologizing many times.

Along the way we just kept quiet and stopped only once at the chicken shop. He bought it to take home and it turned out that until my house he gave it to me.

When we arrived at the house mommy and papi were not at home. Surely they are in the mosque because there is a teaching ba'da isyak there.

"Mami and papi must still be in the mosque...!"

"Hm.. greetings to them!"

"Yes...."

"Yes.", call him when he's outside the door.

I waited for the next words but she kept quiet while looking at me question mark.

"Be careful at home!" He said while wiping the top of my hood.

"Thank you ko..." I said 'cause I'm dropping me off tonight.

He nodded and only caught me briefly.

I'm confused about myself. I was angry and crying and wailing about it and now we are like a couple who are not willing to separate.

I don't know what relationship we have at the moment. So ambiguous.