Wrong Khitbah

58. SK: END OF A WAIT

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Now Zahwa and Fatih are sitting on a park bench with their backs to each other. Azzam sat in his own chair with a distance to them.

"Emmm..Gus.." Zahwa started the conversation.

"Hmmm" Fatih brief

The two chests were pounding, there was a sense of impatience right when they were about to start the conversation.

"You know where this conversation is going, right?" Zahwa said slowly

"Na'am"

"Actually... A-a-a..."

"Say no doubt. Honestly, even though it is bitter, it is better" said Fatih. He was the same, he had to give up because maybe this was the way.

"Last night.ana.had done the umpteenth time istikharah"

"It is so too"

"But-but...Gus..."

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FLASHBACKS

After reading a message from Zahra. His heart began to worry, he wondered if Zahra had not been sincere with everything he said. And now Zahra chose to stay at her friend's house.

His heart is not calm. Guilt, restlessness, uneasiness, doubt, mixed up.

After struggling with his thoughts for thirty minutes he finally decided to send someone a message.

^^^📤Assalamu'alaikum ^^^

Twenty minutes he waited for a reply but never came. Every minute he checks his phone to see the incoming notification. But not as expected.

Ten minutes later. Her hp screen is on.

Vibration sound indicates that there is an incoming notification.

He immediately grabbed his phone. And true this time is the notification that has been waiting for.

📩Wa'alaikumussalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. What was?

it's on the phone screen

Zahwa immediately replied

^^^📤Gus.afwan. Ana wants to convey something mngkin this will be very disturbing but otherwise ana convey the heart is not calm. Can i?^^^

3 Minutes later the message was returned from

📩What's up? Tafaddholy

Reading that Zahwa hesitated. After reassuring his heart he re-typed the message

^^^📤Ana still hesitates Gus... Ana knew after a long wait that day had finally come. But somehow getting closer to that day, ana feels restless and not confident. As if something is stuck and makes there into doubt again. Ana cannot decide on her own and ana decides to istikharah again.^^^

Unexpected direct message read

While there slightly glared at his eyes saw the incoming message.

"Why the same?" Inwardly sheathed

Both are getting nervous. Fear is now thrusting into the heart.

"It's better to be honest. He had already conveyed his worries, then it was time to open up" his mind was steady. After that he typed in the message again.

📩If you can be honest ana was so. This is a time we have been waiting for since long ago. Maybe we should be cystic again. And that's the real answer

Seeing the message that entered Zahwa's body as if limp after reading it.

^^^📤Ya khayr. Ana will istikharah^^^^^^

^^^ ^^^

📩 Na'am. I hope whatever the answer is we can both accept it

Zahwa decided to go to Istikharah and then went to sleep afterwards. So too with Fatih over there.

They decided to both strengthen their hearts again in order to eliminate the doubts that suddenly came.

FLASHBACK OFF

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"What is the answer of the anti istikharah?" Fatih said staring at the beetle that perched on a flower.

Zahwa signals Azzam to come closer. Azzam. He stood in the midst of them.

"Not the anta that ana saw in ana's dream" said Zahwa.

NYEEESS......THE SEERRRR!!

Bareback, sakiit... Yes indeed. Bittersweet? Moreover. But it is better to say clearly than having to hold it yourself which eventually makes the heartache prolonged.

Silent! Azzam was also surprised, but he tried to calm down. He knew after this his sister would definitely be shaken.

"Yes! Not the anti who is present to be in takqir will be a life partner ana" said Fatih after a moment of silence

THE BYUURRR....

Like in a lightning strike, the two tried to strongly accept what was facing them.

"How can you accept what has become His ordinance. Maybe you can't be together in the sacred bond of marriage. But you are still in a brotherly relationship. This is the qodarullah that Allah has ordained 50,000 years before you were in this world. Perhaps this is just a test for you, how much your fortitude and trustworthiness are to the ordinance of Allah. This is just the spice in your life story. May you be sincere, rest assured that God's plan is more beautiful than our plan as human beings. And that is all God has prepared for you in the future" said Azzam at length trying to give understanding to both. He knows it's hard and they have to accept it.

"Yes. Ana understood thank you for waiting for Ana. Thank you for the anti wait. Ana hopes we can both accept. And ana hopes we'll be as usual and nothing changes after this"

Hearing Fatih's words, Zahwa just nodded.

"Thank you for the advice Bang. Ana pamit first. Assalamu'alaikum" Fatih embraced with Azzam briefly after that cupped his hands to Zahwa who also returned the favor after he left.

"Wa'alaikumussalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh"

After Fatih left invisible again. Zahwa turned to Azzam.

"A-branch..." Wiry

Azzam immediately carried Zahwa in his arms. He strengthened his sister who began to sob.

"Have been...have you seen the answer yourself, right? Sincerely yes... Someone's waiting for you. Brother's sister's dear..."

Zahwa.

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The wait for 2 years 6 months is more bitter. Not everything planned will end beautifully. Not everything that is expected will be perfect.

There are times when all hopes and dreams are destroyed to test our fortitude and sincerity in accepting what is offered to us. To see if we deserve true happiness, dreams and passion.

Keep improving so we can have a good partner. The past takes as a lesson to serve as a provision to explore the future.

No one knows what we will face tomorrow. Husnu'dzan to the giver of life so that we are more loved and given the best.

For Fatih and Zahwa.Perhaps from the tragedy of the wrong sermon that you have experienced has shown where your taqdir will be taken. Event after event, misunderstanding, until the debate, which you go through it has become a sign that you are not in the taqdir'kan to be together.

And all that you experience is just as a spice in your story.

From the beginning you met until the end of your wait is not what. Be assured that the truth is waiting for you.

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THE TRAIL DOES NOT STAY YES :)