Wrong Khitbah
1. C.: ZAHWA MARY EQUEENA
Under a vast dark expanse studded with stars
I stared at the brightest star
I looked at him with hope
As if it were you
Which is far away now as if lost..
All this time
I hope you try to always understand my heart
But now it's all I feel
The name engraved in the coral of my heart
Now it's eroded
By the waves that hit..
Me and saturates me, together mute
It was too far away to reach the star I was looking at
Me and my smile
Following the pensive silence
But created a dream
It disappeared in an instant
Heart Shouts
When I think about him
Which is different now
Sometimes the heart cries out with its voidness
Seeking and waiting for his love
I cry without tears
I screamed without a sound
Just feel the pain of the heart
So tormented waiting for the later
So heavy to release this taste
Who has entered into the heart
Maybe if I die
My regrets will be eternal
My heart is always hard to face
In the end, it only makes wounds.
...Scratches wounds...
...~Zahwa Mary Equeena~...
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My name is Zahwa Mary Equeena, a beautiful name, right???
Yap I like that name how not it is the name given my parents from Ali Manaf Sheena my father and Fatimah Khairinniswa Sheena my Mother's name.
I have a Brother whom I love very much , Bang Azzam Dinata Sheena his name . We are only 5 years apart , I really like to depend on who always spoils me.
Father and Mother moreover, like the only princess, I loved them.
But it didn't last long everything changed since the birth of my sister Zahra Asy-Syifa . We were two years adrift.
All the attention has now moved to her, many say she is more beautiful than me but some say otherwise I am more beautiful than her.
I don't mind that all I want is the attention, the affection, the spoiled nature that my parents gave me like I used to.
Ahhh did not know, maybe because I was not satisfied with my childhood which had just stepped on two years but my brother Zahra was not long , was present to add to our family members.
However , I am still grateful because the Azzam bang is still the same as it used to be . He still has the same attention on me but also he showed my brother Zahra that made my heart a little bit sad to see him .
It turned out that he had seen me go sit on the bench in front of the house park leaving the whole family who was engrossed in playing with Zahra.
"Hiks,,hiks,,i,, Iyaa bang A, Azzam, sorry Wawa,, Hikss, Wawa knows that Wawa is a little selfish . Wawa was just shocked because all this time Wawa who was always spoiled by the same father as mother, hikss, ta,,,,ta, but,, hikss, now there is Zahra, so all love Zahra,,,, Zahra,,hikss,, hikkss, ." Zahwa replied as he pleased
"already.ssstt...sini" Bang Azzam took me to his arms . He hugged me so tightly as if he was reluctant to let go .
"Yes.iya.ibang maafin but next time Wawa can not be rich gini again well...
Wawa must learn to give up on Zahra, rebuke and remind her when wrong, Wawa be a good sister for Zahra well. Then my brother will be most proud of Wawa" said Bang Azzam who stroked my hair behind my Khimar .
"yes bang ,Wawa promise.. Wawa will be the best sister for Zahra, Wawa will do anything for Zahra as long as she is happy" said I smiled as I showed my little finger at the Azzam bang.
"Ma Shay Allah, my brother is smart indeed . Kan more dear.eummmm..don't cry anymore well, Brother most not resistant to tears Zahwa. Too precious to fall from Wawa's pretty eyes" said bang Azzam smiling and welcoming my pinky with his little finger. The other hand stroked my cheek.
"uhh abaaang... Wawa also loves you brother..." I'm getting into Bang Azzam's arms.
"Udah yuk, we enter her . Rich little sister Wawa ain't good out late at night gini" said Bang Azzam pulled my hand
"yes, Ayuk Bang "
We walked until we got to the main door.
"Assalamu'alaikum.." We said together. Everyone is looking
"wa'alaikumussalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh "answer them in unison
"loh..Ewah..Azzam ... Where are you from???" ask Mommy
"we are from the bench in front of the mother's garden " answered me and Bang Azzam
" Wawa nights like this can't come out well, it's not good for your body to "advice Mother
"yes mother.."
"well, son, we're playing Zahra yuk "call Daddy Ali
I cleared up all my bad feelings and thoughts to Zahra and began to accept the presence of my little sister. I drew near to Dad , after till Dad flanked me with his arm .
"Tok out not saying anything?" ask dad
"just go to the front garden, yeah.."
"other times can not gini again well.last night like this is not good for a child like you" said father poking my nose.
"hihihihii.iya well "
"a.a.ay..ayyah..ayyah...aa.aa." - Zahra spread her hand to my father.
"emmmm... Zahra wants to be embraced and rich Ka Wawa ya.."
"hu'um" Zahra nodded her head .
Seeing her cute face we all felt anxious towards her . I kissed her and made her cheeks, and then we laughed together .
I can see bang Azzam smiling at me and giving his thumbs up . After that he went up to his room.
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Of happiness? Can I make the people around me happy in my way or the circumstances force me . I hope so because seeing the people I love I feel happy too
The affection? All are in the portion . The little me who suddenly felt like I lost half the affection should be able to give more to those around me
A sacrifice? in the course of life there must be sacrifices to test how much sincerity, sincerity, patience and determination we have .
Then what about me who must be able to live all three together in my life & can I make sacrifices later?
I'm sure there will be a beautiful rainbow after the rain . But how will the rain I face?
Curious??
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