WHYS
Hospital
After the hangout, Farel stopped by Kanaya's house and lingered there until night because he wanted to accompany the girl until her mother came home. They decided to watch the Netflix series while eating a few snacks. Kanaya sat on Farel's shoulder and Farel put his hand on Kanaya's body.
At first, Kanaya was used to Farel's treatment, but they were friends. But all of a sudden, Farel kissed his temple.
Kanaya was so surprised that she looked at her best friend. While Farel himself just smiled and pulled back Kanaya's body to lean on him.
Just so you know, Kanaya is a pretty sensitive person. He knew what the kiss on his temple meant or the smile Farel gave him. Kanaya knows that Farel likes her.
But Kanaya dislikes Farel more than a best friend.
“Rel..”
“I like you, Nay.”
Kanaya. His eyes continued to stare at the LCD screen in front of him with a straight look. “A-i.. sorry.”.
Kanaya did not see the face of Farel saar he said apologizing, but Kanaya could feel the aura of disappointment that emanated from his best friend. This is evidenced by the behavior of Farel who is now releasing the embrace on his body.
Kanaya turned her head and looked at Farel with teary eyes. “Sorry..”
“No, it’s fine. I should have known you never considered me more than a friend.”
“Rel..”
“It's okay, Nay. We are fine. Nothing will change after this. I just want to convey my feelings. Okay?”
***
“And we’re not fine at all, Dec. Maybe I didn't change, I didn't stay away from him or anything. But Farel changed.”
“As if there was a boundary between the two of us. Farel began to rarely invite me to hangout, his attitude was not warm as usual. He also joined the eskul basketball team. And I'm back.. alone.”.
“I and Farel stayed away, but the bullying I received stopped. It seemed that Farel was angry with me, but he did not stop caring so that I would no longer be oppressed. She'd always be by my side if I started having bullying.”
“My story with Farel isn't over yet, Des. The rift between me and Farel was the beginning of the entry of someone who could bring us closer back.. but then ended up destroying our relationship to pieces.”.
“This time I will tell you, the third recording. She was my best friend too. with Farel. Get ready, Arika Pratama.”
***
Desta stood up. He listened to the second tape about Farel when he was at school. And during that time, his eyes could not be seen a man who was now sitting in the corner of the cafeteria with a glass of hot chocolate.
Desta approached the man. “What hot chocolate is helping you?”
Farel raised his face. His eyes accidentally saw a tape recorder in Desta's hand. Instantly a cynical smile rose on his face.
“Ah, have you listened to the recording of me? Then what are you doing here? You want to judge me too?”
“…”
“I never killed Kanaya..” Og Farel with a vibrating voice. His eyes looked down at his hot chocolate, which was also Kanaya's favorite drink.
“But you were the cause of him killing himself,” Desta replied in a cold tone.
Farel closed his eyes in frustration, the tears once again running down his cheeks. Yes, Desta noticed. Farel is not as charming as it used to be. The man became thin and his face looked chaotic. His eye bags thickened and his eyes never did not swell every day.
“I've never loved Arika or Selin. To this day, I still love Nay.”
“You were Kanaya's best friend, Farel. Maybe even to death, Kanaya will still consider you as her best friend. She never hated you, but why?” Desta gulped his saliva roughly. “Why did you kill him?”
Desta left without hearing Farel's response. Farel himself now saves the glass containing his hot chocolate. Her tearful eyes stared at Desta's departure with a bitter smile. “You love him too, Desta. But why did you kill Nay too?”
***
“Desta is like a threat to us. He has or will know what we have done to Taehyung.”
Arika was silent as Ardhika's voice broke the silence. He would not look at the man. Because from the beginning, Arika never liked it.
According to Arika, Ardhika was a coward. He's the most coward here and not Desta.
“Then what will we do to him? Should we threaten him to shut up?” sahut Freya's. The girl also looked chaotic like Arika and looked strange every day. Because today he will look cheerful, tomorrow he will look like a disaster.
“I don't want to threaten anyone. It's enough bad deeds I've done, I don't want to do anything else,” Farel hissed.
“Maybe we should invite Desta to join?” ardhika.
Arika smiled cynically. “What makes you think that Desta wants to join us? He loves Kanaya. He will strive to unlock all these secrets and expose them to the public.”
Ardhika, Farel, and Freya looked at him.
“Desta loves Kanaya and she is not afraid of her own love. Meanwhile, other people who claimed to have loved her were too selfish and afraid of their own love. Until finally without them knowing they have killed Kanaya for one thing.”.
“... ie their own love.”
Arika turned her face. “And it was my selfishness that also killed, Kanaya. I will never forget it.”
***
“Hai Rica. It's weird to call you that when you'd rather I call your little name, Ara. Do you remember our first meeting? At that time you came to me with a red face and a view that was always down.”
“You said you liked Farel. And you asked even to beg me to help you get close to him. I who was in need of a friend at that time because Farel away also immediately agreed to your request. You could say.. I need a friend.”
“And after that we both became closer. The topic that initially always discussed about Farel has now changed into another topic. You often take me to the mall just to shop together or even play in the game center. Honestly, I'm so happy.”
“Despite my bad reputation at school, you still want to sit with me. You ignored all that and kept walking beside me. I'm really grateful to you, Ara.”
“Then in order to repay your kindness, I began to match you with Farel. Farel did stay away from me, but he wouldn't refuse if I asked him to talk. I talked about you to Farel and asked him to have him pay attention to you.”
“And next, you guys are officially dating.”
“Ra, I've never been mad at you guys. I'm not mad when you two start to get away from me and get engrossed in your own world. I have never hated you and held a grudge. You know why?”
“Because I love you both so much. You are my best friends, people who are always with me even though I have a bad reputation. I really love you guys.
“But the question is, do you love me too?”
***
The break is over and Kanaya intends to enter the class after the last 30 minutes she spent sitting in the back yard of the school. Kanaya was a little surprised when she entered the classroom, she could see Farel sitting in his place with an angry look.
Kanaya doesn't understand, she never does anything wrong with her best friend. Kanaya's eyes met a look with Arika's bead standing beside Farel, but the girl immediately turned her face away.
“Rel, what are you doing here?”
Farel looked at Kanaya sharply. “Arika. Said he didn't want to date someone who had marred his relationship with his best friend.”
Kanaya increasingly does not understand. “Rel, you mean ..”
“Silence, Nay. You're the cause for me and Arika to break up. You told him I had sex with you before ‘kan?”
Kanaya's eyes widened. “No, I never said that, Farel. I even..”
“Nay, you're really despicable. I thought you would never be like your mom who is an******, but in fact.”
Kanaya's eyes glazed over. Did Farel just call him a snide? Did Farel just insult him and his mother?
“You're evil, Nay. I've been kind enough to be friends with you, fortifying from all the bullying other students have done. But look what you got back at me? You stabbed me in the back and caused me to break up with my boyfriend!”
Kanaya wants to scream. He wanted to scream in denial that it was all untrue. But his voice did not come out. He never stabbed them in the back, thinking to do that alone never. Kanaya is sincerely friends with them.
Farel and Arika leave her class. And in a glimpse of Kanaya, she lost two of her best friends. They looked at him with farewell greetings.
One class began to judge him. They began to sneer and insult Kanaya as if the girl was not there. So Kanaya ran out and wanted to chase Farel and Arika. But his steps stopped as soon as his eyes saw the two friends were joined by Ardhika's group.
“How can? You used to say you wanted to beat up Rails. You said you wanted to make Ardhika a deterrent and not break girls' hearts again. But now you laugh with him. You're friends with him.”
And that day, Kanaya lost not only her two best friends, but also her pride.
***
“Why did you say that to Farel, Ara? Why are you dragging me into your relationship problems? Until now I don't even know what really caused the breakdown of your relationship.”
“I never knew. Though all the students in the school accused me of the cause.”
“You know, Ra. What you did to me wasn't just hurting me. But it's also the start of every touch I don't want.”
“And I really want to hate you. You deserve to sleep for a lifetime. But I can't. I can't hate my own best friend.”
“But the problem here is... Do you deserve to be called a friend?”
***
“Hei, Desta. I need you to unmask one of the students here. You know, I have a stalker. Yeah right, stalker. Kanaya Dhira has a stalker.”
“My stalker name is Fahri. And this is a recording for him.”
***
To be continue...
