WHYS

Pain

Arghi stood upright observing the new home of the Star and Moon. The funeral atmosphere was quiet. Only two brothers left with Dirga who guard Arghi from behind. Afraid that the body will suddenly collapse.

"Ar, go home yuk. Your body needs rest."

"A little while."

The atmosphere was back silent. They both did nothing there. Just silently looked at the still very new headstone without crying or laughing. For 20 minutes, Arghi just invited Dirga to come home.

"Reverse the house."

"But-"

"Please." 

Dirga would not want to nod and then memapah Arghi into the car. From the trip until the two reached home, none of them opened the conversation. They were still immersed in their thoughts.

"Let's take a break." Arghi nodded then continued his steps up to the second floor. Not to his room, but to his sister's room. 

The scent of lavender instantly emitted out as he opened the door. Arghi's scent was chosen specifically for the Moon in order to reduce the burden of the girl's bad thoughts a little.

The light brown room looks very neat.The mattress, study table, television cabinet, and both items are arranged very neatly. As knowing that after that room there are no inhabitants anymore, the Moon actually arranged his room.

Arghi also switched to sitting at the study table. Touching the thick books of the Moon. Books that witness how hard the Moon learns until the morning, often not even sleeping. Especially when there is an Olympics, the Moon really does not touch the mattress of any item.

Switch to drawer. The first drawer contains all the stationery of the Moon. Pen, pencil, ruler, eraser, color pencil, and more. It's all neat, too. Continues to the second drawer that makes Arghi sculpt for a moment. There were only 3 envelopes filling up. In each of these envelopes there is a name, Dirga, and Lisa. Arghi grabbed the three envelopes in disbelief.

"It's getting caught." Murmured hoarsely.

With trembling hands Arghi opened the envelope engraved with his name. He took a deep breath, prepared himself, then took out the contents.

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Kakkkk

Emm. Hehe. This letter is specifically for the most dear brother. Brother knows? Adek bursunggggg really could be the younger brother of an Arghi Cahya Pratama. People must be jealous of you equally. In big brother handsome, kind, caring, loving, very soft treatment, anyway big brother complete package. Good thing adek not baper same brother himself, it would be bad. Who will get a sister? Want to know, but adek time was not enough yes, hehe...

Brother, thank you for everything. Thank you for loving the same adek, hug adek during a thunderstorm, take care of adek like a parent, take care of adek, duh. Sorry adek can not love anything, can not be proud brother, can not be a useful person, can not take care of brother. Later in the next life adek want to replace. Adek who will take care of brother!

Brother do not forget to rest yes, take medicine, diligently check up, if work do not eat. Take a pillow adek if the pillow in the room sister less yes. So if a pile of pillows a lot. But if you sit a lot. Don't, just enough. Continue, if the school do not forget to the cafeteria during the break. Oh yeah, brother passed. Wahh. want to see my sister college until make toga. But it can't seem. Hehe.. later in the next life yes, hopefully. But I also want to see my sister continue to have children. Most want it to happen.

Sorry, brother, if the writing is difficult to understand. This paper also has a lot of water. A very second brother, adek can not stand to not cry. So this geter-getter nulis. Want to hug brother now, really sick. Sicker than your father's punch, sicker than your mother's law, sicker than their wicked charges.

Though only nulis gini doang yes, but how sick is this?

Yes, brother, adek pamit. Nangis if brother is sad. But do not forget to rest and take medicine. I don't want to be sick anymore! If you are kangen, look at the moon. That adek who again seems to be the light of the night. 

Udah, this is a break straight away huh. Drugged... Adek dear sister!!!

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Tangis Arghi came out after reading a letter from her sister. After this morning he desperately held back, finally the circle came out as well. His chest was painful, but his heart was more painful. She has been separated from the moon since her sister was born. When he met he saw his sister miserable. And now, he had to accept the fact that the younger brother had come home with nothing he could give. Even the Moon's greatest desire to be embraced by her parents alone cannot be granted Arghi. 

"Dec, brother's sick. Adek do not want to come? Just a minute." He shrieked while tightening his left chest. The pulsation is getting worse along with the increasingly intense stuffing.

"Yes God... Why?!"

"I'm the one who's sick, but why do they leave?"

"God, it hurts so much..." Arghi patted his chest firmly. It is very difficult to draw oxygen. As it sank into the water, Arghi could not breathe. 

"Lord..." Arghi is getting worse. His eyes were almost closed. Oxygen may be hostile to him to the point of not wanting him to breathe. But in the midst of his pain, he saw the shadow of the Star and Moon resting before him. Staring at him with worried eyes.

"Come brother, fight a little more." Moon cupped both cheeks Arghi. The hand felt so real. It felt like she was hugging the two tightly while saying that she missed so much. But he was afraid that if he touched them, the Star and Moon would disappear from sight. Yes, he knew that it was all just his hallucinations.

Arghi was still not moving. As if he didn't care about his condition, he smiled. God granted his prayers. Showing the Stars and the Moon in front of him even though he knew that they were only his imagination.

The shadow of the Moon rose to Arghi's room and returned with an oxygen mask in his hand. When the mask is placed intact on the face, the shadow of the Moon immediately turns into the face of Dirga.

"Good," Dirga turned his back on Arghi. Help the brother to get on his back. Then immediately brought Arghi into the room, put an oxygen mask on his sister's nose.

Dirga went out first, then came back in with a glass of water in hand. Move nimble to prepare drugs that must be taken Arghi.

"Still a second? Can you take it off for a minute?" Arghi nodded once. Sit down and take the medicine Dirga gave. 

Dirga piled two pillows into one and helped Arghi back to lie down. His hands raised rubbed Arghi's forehead which was filled with cold sweat.

"It still hurts his chest?" Arghi.

"Not going to the hospital." His words that understood what Dirga was going to say next.

"I'm sorry."

"Sorry what?"

"Gue failed to be a sister." Arghi nodded in disagreement.

"Now we're just the two of us. There are no more women to look after. Our work has been taken over by God." Dirga stared blankly at the balcony curtain of Arghi. The place that always comes to the Moon even though snow or even rain storms are heavy.

"Before you go put a salutation to lo. He said he missed." Only with tears that had stopped came out. Dirga covered both of his faces and sobbed there.

"Where do I live after this?" Arghi looked at the roof of his room. Thinking about the days after. There was no more girl he could hug, he pampered, he protected, and he noticed. There was no one else to remind him to take medicine and accompany him to check up. 

And after this, no one else could support it like the Stars always did. Someone who was always beside him has now returned to the lap of God. His little friend who used to be intent on suicide has now left.

They have been freed from the problems of the world.

Arghi wanted to let go, but it was hard. Especially after reading a letter from the Moon. His sister seemed to have prepared it all. Like knowing what would happen to him while writing the letter. His feelings said there was something he did not know yet. His brain still very much remembered the words Moon and Star before leaving. Their excursions are not as usual. Even the stars hugged him. The man rarely hugs people, especially gender ones.

Suppose yesterday he followed his heart to forbid the two from leaving. 

"Why didn't I die?"

"Gue's sick, but why are they leaving?"

"Gue wants to follow them."

Dirga glared in disbelief. "Lo want to leave me? Your struggle has been in vain if you give it up. They must also be disappointed if you know how to talk about Ar gini!"

"But I can't brother," Arghi's voice trembled. The manic returned to tears. "It hurts a lot."

Dirga hugged Arghi tightly. As if giving strength through that embrace. "Strong Ar, there I am. I can't replace them, but please let me be a useful sister this time. I don't want to lose Ar anymore" Dirga's voice sounded so stifling that Arghi was immediately filled with guilt. He shouldn't have said that.

"Sorry brother."

"Please, stay by my side. I don't want to lose anymore either."