WHYS
Sorry
The night makes the temperature rise. The star snapped his jacket, glancing at the Moon as it opened its balcony. There's only the two of them here. Arghi and Dirga left the Moon to him from this afternoon until maybe the next few days.
Grasping the hand of the Moon, making a step the girl who originally wanted to go back in and out. The star shut the balcony door.
"Shivering gini may still come out." Omel Bintang while raising the zipper of the Moon jacket up to the top.
"Night snow is good" said the Moon with a funny smile making the Star scramble the Moon's hair.
The star climbed onto the top of the mattress, sat leaning against the mattress headboard while stretching out the blanket and then pressed the tv remote. "Hororor time?"
The moon immediately slammed its body beside the Star as a sign of agreement. Take a pillow to make him his stomach friend, then go into the thick blanket of the Stars.
"Bin," call the Moon without taking his eyes off the screen.
"Hm?"
"Come huh?"
The Moon changed position to sit and approached the Star that was looking at him strangely.
"Gue saw lo gelagat from the end of dinner. You can't lie to me."
"Father, this doesn't hurt too much. It will also disappear by itself." The star wiped away the cold sweat that fell on his forehead. Making the Moon even more certain if the Stars are just bragging.
"It doesn't hurt so much? Take the gini dry." The moon wipes the Star temple. Making the guy stunned to see the worried look of the girl in front of him.
The moon took the tv remote from the Star's grasp, then turned off the film that had been neglected. "Rest," Moon held the man's back nape, helping him to lie down. After getting the most comfortable position, the star patted the empty side next to it which was directly occupied by the Moon.
The Moon's hands are held tightly by the stars. The guy just stared at the ceiling of the room expressionlessly. The Moon knows that the Star is holding back pain, seen from the star that is biting her lower lip strongly.
The moon changes position facing the star. His hand was raised and then stroked the left side of the Star. Hoping to relieve the pain that the stars feel even though it is impossible.
The eyes of the stars are closed. His breath sounded trembling.
"Will the hospital?" The Moon's whisper is soft. Anxious because of the star pain never subsided.
"No need" replied the Star, further creeping the wrists of the Moon.
Honestly, the Moon is afraid. Moreover, looking at the lips of the Star that almost resembles cotton so pale. Even the Moon did not care about her hand which was sore by the reclamation of the Star.
Five minutes passed. The star loosens its crust. Realize that what he saved was a human hand. His eyes opened, staring at the moon who was also staring at him.
"Sorry, your hands hurt." The stars said with great difficulty.
The Moon shook her head, wiping the Star's sweat back with her hands. Gently rubbing the increasingly thin cheeks.
"Gue instead meng lo want to share your pain." The star smiled weakly. Tucked his hand into the head of the Moon. He made his arm a moon pad. Then quickly pulled the girl's body into his embrace. Even the face of the Moon until hit the chest of his field. A second after that the pained look of the Star was clearly depicted on his deathly pale face.
"Lan,"
"Emm?"
"What is your wish that has not been realized?"
"Liat lo, brother Arghi, same brother Dirga so sugar daddy." The stars laughed.
"Kalo lo what?" The moon asked back.
The star was silent for a moment and tightened his embrace.
"Liat lo happy," he said sincerely.
The Moon feels dejavu.
"Gue is happy."
"It's not ordinary happiness, it's happiness that's really happy."
"Lan,"
"Emm?"
"Gue love you."
The Moon's breath restrained. Is he dreaming? Or is he just getting shy? But the voice of the stars sounded very real.
"Can... lo ulangin?"
There was no response from the stars. The moon frowned. Looking up to see the face of the stars. The man's crescent moon's eyes were closed without a frown.
The moon took off the arms of the Stars and rose to sit. Both of his hands cupped the pale face of the Star. "Hey, you sleeping?" The Moon slightly shook the body of the Star. But there was still no answer until it invited his panic.
"Star, hey, don't make me afraid of plis." Still no answer. With the hands shaking the Moon grabbed her phone on the nightstand, calling Arina's doctor.
"Hello aunt, what should I do?" The sound of the Moon shaking.
"Moon, calm down. What's up?"
"Stars don't want to wake up aunty, what should I do?"
"You wait there, auntie's there now."
Call disconnected. The moon threw her phone at the nightstand which fortunately did not slip and fell to the floor. Grasping the Star's hand while massaging it slowly. The Moon's gaze scolded. He often experiences this. Where the people he cares about close their eyes in the sense that they are not asleep. And that's always been the moon's biggest fear. Fear that the eyes are no longer open.
"Wake up" the Moon shook the Star's body slowly.
"She wants to see me happy, let's get up."
"You're all so mean. I love to close my eyes."
"Enough your father won't wake up. No more," the Moon's voice shrank.
The moon looked at his left hand which had a terrible scratch mark. Then he looked at the star who was still closing his eyes.
The girl got up, opened one by one the Star nightstand drawer. Until the moon found the cutter in the second drawer. The moon will soon enter the bathroom. Roll up the sleeve of the jacket to his left, and slowly scratch the new art in the same place. The moon smiled slightly as blood began to fill her hands. The Moon quickly ran to the sink, washing her hands until there was no more blood left. Pull out toilet paper to cover the wound. After all he's cleared the Moon out of the bathroom. Looking at the still-covered star. The clean cutter is back where it was.
The movement of the Moon who was about to climb the mattress stopped when the bell of the house of the Star rang. With lightning speed the Moon instantly descended to the first floor.
"Let's go in aunty," the Moon closed the door back when Arina had entered. Taking the steps of the woman in the doctor's uniform up to the second floor.
"Where's tan?" Ask Moon as Arina starts to tidy up her things. The adult woman sighed.
"We all know that the Star kidney is completely damaged, not even functioning at all. But this kid always misses dialysis. And also, it seems like lately he's had too many thoughts of making his body lose even more."
"Tomorrow, please bring the star to wash blood. It's for her own good, too. Because chronic kidney is not a trivial disease."
Arina patted the Moon on the shoulder, making the Moon aware of her daydream. "The star will be fine if you take good care of it. You just calm down. Aunty back to the hospital, yes, there's an operation schedule soon."
The moon nodded stiffly. Take Arina to the gate, then lock the door immediately.
Arriving at the Moon's room immediately spread his body beside the Star. His gaze turned to his left hand which was still wrapped in a tissue that had been red. The moon decided to clean his wound first. After that it again lay beside the Star, following the Star to dreamland.
...~~~...
The star woke up in the middle of the night because of the nausea that made him inevitably go to the bathroom. Take out whatever he ate yesterday. A small ring came out of his mouth. His stomach hurts. Stars want to have no stomach.
Out of the bathroom, the net was directly focused on the moon curled up while covering both ears. The girl's eyes were still closed and occasionally shook strongly. The star approached the Moon, slightly shaking the skinny body.
"Moon, hey," The star rubbed the Moon's forehead in cold sweat.
"Yes, I'll die" the star pupil broke into a pattern. That instant also the Star instantly shook the Moon's body even more powerfully. Making the girl jerk up until sitting down.
"Herger my voice the Moon. Don't beat them up, let alone mess with them, okay?"
"They told me to die" he murmured blankly.
"Moon, look me in the eye." The star cupped the face of the Moon until the gaze of the two met.
"Don't hear another voice, focus on my voice." Like a magic spell, the Moon awakens from its hallucinations. Make the reflex star hug the Moon tightly.
"Lo scares me Lan," she said slowly.
"Oh, it's waking up, it turns out," the Moon hugged the stars back no less tightly.
For a moment of silence. Letting each other's fears disappear first in an embrace.
"I'm sorry I fell asleep."
The moon hit the star's chest pretty hard. "Lo fainted bego," he said.
The moon remembered something that made her take off the arms of the Stars.
"How many times have you washed your blood?" The Moon's hands crossed in front of her chest. Staring at the pale guy in front of him.
The star scratched its nape that was not itchy. "8?" Answer doubtful.
The moon punching hard on the Star's arm produced a groan of pain.
"Lo moron, bego, no brains! Why not wash the blood? Wanna die, huh? You won't die until I die! I'm ready to go when, my time will always be there for you! But you never asked me to, and you refused even hard when I said you want to nemenin. Do you want to be sick alone? Every time I am sick, there is always. I've always been a useless person!" The moon took out all her junk. The girl's neckline stood out very clearly. Showing how angry he is now. His tears were soaring that the Star felt even more guilty.
The Moon's body rebelled as the Stars embraced it. But that very tight hug stopped his movement. The Moon cried loudly in the arms of the Star for the second time.
"I'm sorry" is the only word that the stars can say. Her hands were busy stroking the Moon's hair. Occasionally peeping the head of the girl wished the Moon a little calmer.
"Gue is like that because you don't want to take care of lo. The burden is heavy, so I don't want to go back. But it turns out I was wrong. My actions even make you cry, sorry, I'm sorry."
The moon is crying harder. He also did not understand why his cries would not stop. His heart just wanted to cry now.
The view of the stars is shifted downwards. His initial intention was that he wanted to see the state of the Moon because the girl's cries were not as loud as before. But urung when the net even caught a tissue that slightly poked from the Moon's left hand. There are red patches that the Star believes are blood. He forgot how to breathe for a few seconds. Her breath feels tight. What did he miss while sleeping?
"I'm sorry" that's all the stars can say. Throat's choked. He failed again.
"Sorry Ar, brother Dirga, I can't take care of the Moon."
...~~~...
"Tell me if you're nauseous" the star nodded slowly.
After last night's incident the Star immediately agreed to the Moon's invitation to wash blood. And it looks like from now on he won't be truant to dialysis again. She's traumatized.
"Lan,"
"Emm?"
The star was silent for a moment, thinking of the right words for the Moon.
"You want a story?"
The moon scrunched his forehead. "What news? I don't have a story."
"You really don't exist, why are you telling the same story?"
Month loading for a moment.
The star grabbed the Moon's left hand, revealing the sleeve of the jacket the girl was wearing.
"I'm next to you, but why is the story the same hand?" The star repeated his question in a soft tone.
"Sorry," the Moon's head bowed in.
"Moon, look at me." The moon shook and lowered its head even more. He was too scared to face the stars.
The guy sighed. His right hand touched the chin of the Moon, raising the face it was facing towards him. But the Moon scrolls the net in the other direction.
"Gue's not angry, don't be afraid."
Succeeds. The Moon looked directly at the star even though the twinkle of fear was still clearly stated.
"Hurt yourself can be fatal. You don't want us to leave you, but you're going to leave us alone."
The star stroked the back of the Moon's hand. "Gue hope you stop. Slow down, I can."
The star was shocked by the sudden hug attack from the girl.
"Sorry Star," great-grandson of the Moon.
The stars chuckle with anxiety. His hands were raised to gently rub the mane of the girl. "It's okay, you're not wrong."
