WHYS

Until Dusk

"Star..." The whimpering of the Moon unceasingly filled the now empty classroom. The break bell was like a magnet that attracted starving students to run to the canteen to fill their stomachs after hours of draining their brains. Except those two young guys. Both of them do not intend to escape from their seats to just fill the stomach. Maybe if Arghi comes in they'll be dragged by that nagging motherhood guy to go to the cafeteria. But the heated debate this morning was won by Dirga who made Arghi inevitably comply to rest first at home.

"What is a beautiful Full Moon of Light? Just three more days, a waste of time just washing blood."

"No one knows the stars. What a pasretnya lo."

"Gue is not resigned, but accepting the circumstances."

"Ngeles is a teros."

The star rolled its gaze in all directions, then looked back at the Moon.

"Go back to school yuk street." Moon sneering. The girl just remembered that they had been traveling by car this morning.

"So, invited hd do not want. Now it's even walking."

"Come on.. When else, right? Last time."

The moon was silent for a moment and then laughed. "Are we really, really, right?"

"Where will Arghi's reaction be? Just healed up with bad news. What if it gets worse later?" The star is slowly shaking the head of the Moon.

"Nethink keeps your brain."

"The problem is this sticking around in my brain." The moon holds its head with both hands. Just like a depressed person.

"Let's go let's not think." The star took off the Moon's hand which began to grab the hair with its left hand, while its right hand was used to stroke the former. Very small things indeed, but able to make the heart of the Moon rustle.

"Yes?"

The moon breathed a rough sigh. "Yes it is."

The glad look on the face of the Star made the Moon sneer. "But then I'll go to the dance room first."

The two stared at each other for a moment. The stars can see the disappointment. He understood what the Moon was feeling because he felt it first. To be forced to leave something you like and let go of everything you have fought for is very hard.

The star destroys the mane of the Moon. "Later I will."

...~~~...

The two entered the dance room. It seems that people there stopped their warming activity seeing the Moon coming with the Stars.

"Lo why haven't you changed your clothes? What are the stars here too? Want to do some practice, huh?" Lisa came with a confused look. The room was silent. The moon threw a small smile then shifted her body facing the entire dance. The long breath becomes the opening.

"I'm here, wanting to say a big apology to all of you. I probably made a lot of mistakes both intentionally and unintentionally. Thank you for educating me, accompanying me to practice, even giving me the opportunity to go up to various big stages. To Brother Yohan, Jeran, and Lisa, I'm sorry I can't go with you guys continue fighting."

"What do you mean?" The smile that was usually imprinted on Lisa's sweet face disappeared.

The moon smiled. "I, the Moon of Full Light, wish to withdraw from this exculus."

The room was immediately crowded by the noise of whispers. Lisa stared at the moon in disbelief. "Lo's kidding? No one's feeling today. Who do you want to giveprank?"

"Gue wasn't kidding Lis," Lisa stared at the Moon bead. Looking for a little loophole of lies that he hoped existed. But he did not find. Only a sad look could Lisa see there.

"I'm sorry I had to stop halfway gini."

"What's your reason for retreat?" Yohan as the chairman finally spoke up.

"Gue can't tell you now, brother. Maybe in a week you'll know for yourself."

"Once again I'm sorry, and thank you." After saying that the Moon immediately ran out. Linger in there just makes it cramped.

The star bowed as a sign of excuse, then went along to follow the Moon. Without a word the star immediately drove his car out of the school parking lot. When the car has walked far away from the Moon school area is still silent. There was a sad look on that pretty face.

"In the next life, you have to teach me ngedance."

Moon looks. "Now want to?"

"No ah, tired. Run for a moment just now already say something, let alone ngedance."

"Later, in the next life, when I'm fit. You have to teach me to dance."

The moon looked at the star's face from the side. The prince's handsome face looks sad. Even though the little smile was adorned, the Moon could still see it. No, not looking, but feeling. The Moon felt the star's sadness behind that simple request.

"And later, in the next life. I'm sure I'm getting it." Star Eyes reflexes wide. His ears didn't hear wrong, did they?

"So-so you!"

"Seriously I."

"Ngapain ngegym?! Enough style and behavior lo aja that is not slick, your body do not get. You have to be a whole woman, dong."

"Congor you asked me to rip ya. Feminine girl gini lo katain lakik!" Sergey Moon did not accept. Stars act like people throwing up with flat faces.

"Little children know in one look if you girls become happenings."

"Sugry."

"Ngeselin ya lo," The star pinched the Moon's cheek until the girl complained.

"Sick njir," The moon distanced the Star's hand and rubbed his cheek.

"How do you want ngegym? Want my bread? Don't expect bro."

"Sih geer's. I just want to have boxes in my stomach just as much muscle, nothing more."

The star breathed a tired breath. "Lo already has Lan's abs, no need to ngegym anymore."

"Well, you know where you're from?! Ever been interested?!"

"It's not good to be prejudiced against a handsome lady." The moon is throwing up like the stars did.

"What have you been performing all this time? A cape? A dress? Or a suit?"

"Huh? Office clothes? That brown shirt you mean? Why I don't take care of that bagong. What do you want to cosplay as a teacher?"

Star grimaces. "Misply speaking I. It's just lupain."

Moon squealing. If anyone talks half. Remembering the clothes he uses when performing or racing. It is not uncommon for the Moon to wear clothes that show the stomach. Only the stomach is visible. His burrowed waist is always safely covered.

"Jaudah is not. I want to be tall." Again the stars breathed a tired sigh. Tired of facing that random girl.

"Lo is already high for the size of a girl njir. What height do you want again? Or do you want to go high up the lo family company building?!" His breath was tired for the umpteenth time. Tired also nyerocos at length.

"Santuy bro santuy. Is this how the road is deserted? Where are we going?" Ask Moon in a tone like in a cartoon she often watches.

"Next to know for yourself."

The moon just nodded. His hand reached into his suit pocket to pick up a cell phone.

"Gue's permission to Arghi." The star says it when the call has been fully connected.

"Tells," snorted the Moon.

"So the deck walk?"

"Yes so."

"Okey, have fun. Don't forget to eat."

"Yeah. Brother don't forget to take medicine."

"Okay, sister close ya."

"Emm."

After that the car was quiet. The moon was busy looking around the road filled with forest. Guess where the Star will take it. Until a question suddenly flashed in his brain.

"Bin, man,"

"Emm?"

"Later...how is your company?"

"Yes up to them. Will it be bankrupt or sold cake or given to someone else."

"Lo don't want to tell them? Not for the last one?" The moon says that very carefully. Such topics are very sensitive to stars.

"No. Even if I call them, they don't care. Even the slightest lyrics they're reluctant."

"Don't know if it's rumored to have spread, they will install a wall or how. I am hypocritical if I do not hope. I want them to come to my eternal home for a little while."

The moon bit her lower lip. I am so thankful that she can see her parents even though she was dumped. Although Stars. The man was either completely exiled, or his abusive language banished.

Having parents the result of an arranged marriage does not always end well. The proof is the story of the stars themselves. Getting married without feeling. Even the presence of stars is undesirable. Just as a collage to let the public know that Angkasa, his father the Star, has a successor.

80% of matchmaking results may end well. The remaining 20% are gray. Star parents get into that 20. His father who often vent his anger to the Star because of constantly quarreling with his wife. Her mother never wanted to touch her in the slightest. Even looking at anything is reluctant.

Until it finally happened. The incident where the Moon found a star with a terrible condition while walking in a daze. He wanted to save the guy from a car that was running. But because it is not overtaken by time, Arghilah sacrificed. Pushing the Star and Moon that no longer had time to dodge made Arghi hit.

After all, the Star parents decided to part ways and return to their hearts' longings without caring about the one person they should have noticed. The star grew with Arghi since the two had just learned to walk. Then the Moon joined in, filling the boredom of the Star who was sick of seeing Arghi's face as a child. Finally there was a fresh sight after all this time, Inner Star.

Without even feeling the car stopped. A wide smile instantly expanded as those narrowed eyes caught the sight of clear water. The star took him to the beach. Both of them immediately got out of the car, walking hand in hand to the sea lips.

The moon took off her shoes first. The smile grew even more and more accompanied by a cold tremor as the cold water touched his feet.

"Main water yuk," The star certainly shook her head noisily.

"Nothing. Cold gini to play water. Enough feet."

"Ishh," The moon swerved. Even the stars speak the facts. Snow was still visible, though not as thick as in previous weeks.

"Let's eat first, hunt later in the afternoon." The star pulled the lapel of the Moon's coat from behind, pulling the girl to one of the nearby taverns until the Moon was seated in one of the seats. The girl silently stared at where she was standing earlier.

The star followed the Moon's view, then broke. The girl's shoes were left there. "Why didn't you say boy?" Laughing Star takes Moon shoes.

"Partially you just pull, pity my shoes are abandoned." The star put the Moon shoes under the table and went to order food.

The moon is spreading its gaze across the coast. Not many people pass there. Besides because today is not a holiday, the cold atmosphere makes most people may prefer to float in a blanket at home while sitting casually in front of the fireplace.

"Yes on your own?" The star sits in front of the moon. Look around. "But delicious. It doesn't have to be narrow."

On holidays, especially during the summer, this beach will be very crowded. Especially at dusk. People will sit in rows in the sand, observing the beautiful orange sky with loved ones.

"Thank you. Because, my life is getting more colorful. What was once gray, now turned into a rainbow."

Moon smile. "Thank you because you always take care of me. Always come when I need help. Always present to be an encouragement. Sorry for always taking nicotine."

"Who said you got ngerepotin? Keeping it is a promise I made myself. Even I promise, even if I'm dying, I should be by your side."

The Moon's heart rippled warmly. His body shuddered at the Star's statement. "That's the promise."

"That means it makes me Lan." The stars stared at the moon. "Later there, you'll have to hold my hand. Don't take it off."

"I want to cry." The moon doesn't lie. Even now his eyes have been glazed.

"Later, whatever the circumstances. Don't stay away from me. Please hold my hand as tightly as possible." The sound of the stars shaking. That guy's bead was also glazed over.

The moon rises and moves to the side of the star. Hugged the man very tightly. "Crying off. When else can we cry, right?" The bitter laughter ended the words of the Moon, followed by a clear circle from the stars. Defense collapsed.

The robot waiter who just wanted to deliver the order was silent on the spot. The finished food was stuck there. Let the Stars and Moon cry in the afternoon. Clenching each other to neutralize each other's tightness.

"The path we chose is right?" The moon took off her embrace. His gaze turned to the expanse of the high seas.

"Other people will say we're wrong. We're too resigned to the same situation, without knowing the reason behind it."

"Small example. You once told me that I didn't really want to die. But just to end the pain. You are, but you are wrong too. I want to end the pain, but the sense of wanting to die is greater."

"False thinking was, but it was too much for me at the time. But again the sound was disturbing. They often say, it's only time to die. They are also the ones I want to die. And from there I also came to think, many people out there who are heavier. My brain seems to say, do not pretentiously have the heaviest burden. That's more or less what I've tanamin since."

"But now I bodo very much the same their voices. We'll be in a minute. Don't think of things that stress you out. Enjoy your days without burden. Anyway, we don't have to bother with suicide."

"Sesat lo," The star shook his head with a small laugh. Success makes the Moon smile too. The atmosphere suddenly disappeared, and the robot waiter immediately approached to deliver the order.

"What do you think about if you want to kill yourself?" Ask the stars on the sidelines to chew their food.

"He killed himself. What else would you think?"

"I mean when you want to do it, your brain thinks what. Empty or something you think?"

The moon was silent for a moment, remembering the times when he did such a bad thing.

"If yesterday was one hundred percent empty. It was beyond my consciousness."

"At that time, I was eight years old if not wrong, fitting I was still in the home. I almost stabbed my pulse with a knife. The home was empty again. Everyone goes here, to this beach for a vacation. But there's one girl, the same age as me. He was willing to pretend stomach pain so as not to come for my nemenin who would never be invited to vacation."

"Gue to the kitchen, see there's a knife. Put the knife in your hand. But he suddenly appeared. He cried me back to the room, used up I was at length with him." Moon smiled considering the face of the girl she still remembered until now. It has been a long time since they met.

"So much join it." Star rings are concerned. Staring at the moon who is still fondly reminiscing about his childhood.

"Lo no intention of telling your story at the parlour?"

"Males ah, nambahin load of mind alone."

"No. There are if you don't tell me I'll be a curious ghost later."

"Biarin, you can't shake me. Our people are one world." The moon turned her shoulders indifferently and then continued eating.

"Nyebelin, but also."

The two paused the conversation in order to focus on each other's meals. After finishing eating and staying for a while, the two decided to circle the beach from end to end. Their steps slow down so that time does not pass quickly.

"Have you ever thought of suicide?" The moon started the conversation with a question that had been continuously ringing in the head.

"Either."

"When?"

The Star's forehead shriveled, trying to recall the events of many years ago.

"If you think often. But the experiment was only twice, and everything was blocked by your brother." A small laugh came out before the Star cleared the sign ready to tell the story.

"First, at eight years old. I was beaten up all-out with a bang. Maybe if Arghi did not come to my house I would have died at that time. I was taken with him to the hospital. When I wake up, I daydream. Arghi wasn't there not knowing where the boy was. And suddenly that desire came. I went to the roof, and a little bit more I fell Arghi suddenly pulled me. I was dragged back to the room while being crushed by him nagging long times the hexagon."

"Second experiment, at school. Arghi always adorned me until the whole school thought we were twins was so desperate nempelnya. The face is not similar. I have it."

Moon pretends to vomit. His seriousness was scrapped hearing the final words of the Star.

"Well, Saturday is not wrong. Arghi didn't come in, hurt him because of my rain shower. And stupidly he took a shower on me first, he just took a shower. It's a fucking moron. We were small, the same age, equally trunked, gender as well. Not taking a shower with Gituloh. I asked him, he even poked. He said I cake worms get rinso motion-motion continues to playin water. So there's no choice, he took a shower on me and he took a shower. Tomorrow he falls."

The moon heard the story of the stars. His brain immediately imagined how bothered Arghi was to bathe the Star. It turns out that the guy has been grumpy since childhood.

"That's the day I had the chance. An hour after the bell came home, the school was quiet too. I'm going to the warehouse. Why not go to Rooftop? Because from the roof of the school plunged down the distance is less high. I was just dying when I jumped. So I chose the warehouse. I was in that chair long enough. Bacain spells before death. But because of the duration of the mantra bacain, only three seconds I played Arghi dateng hanger!" The stars began to shake.

"He came with a pale face, ngomelin I use the tone lethargic tired tired tired. Pull me to the car just as if pulled by the wind so lemes him. Come home we were escorted by Sayu sir, his personal driver Arghi. But he didn't exist two years before he came home. I was again horrified that he was nagging. I actually want to laugh. She talks about it. Between pity as funny as he nagged that."

"Kak Arghi, how do you know you're going to kill yourself?"

"IT'S HIM!" The star is so excited to tell stories.

"There's a girl from another class who seems to see me. So he called Arghi because he didn't dare to take me."

"Take it he's afraid. You gini thugs."

"Ohh no bro. Little stars are so adorable."

"Young,"

"But I'm a grin. I am lucky to have a friend like him. He can change my position. Really like the fathers. But if you say kayak mother-mak, very ferocious. My ear-bearers got her."

The moon agreed. "Sir Arghi is the definition of a perfect guy. The handsome, the caring, and the most I admire it from the way he treats women. Brother Arghi really-appreciates women until a lot of girls who have a crush on him because of his attitude. But brother Arghi refused them without hurting their hearts. Who dapetin brother Arghi will definitely feel so lucky girl in the world."

The stars agreed. "Gue was amazed by the nature of him who never gave up. That's how sick he has been for years. I ever tell you Arghi nyariin you when he's dying?" Moon nodded.

"Logically, when people are suffering from extreme pain, most people complain or cry because they are not strong. But he's not. He still stamps my name, nanyain lo. He was clearly in pain."

The moon smiled. She was born as the younger sister of Arghi Cahya Pratama.

"HACHOOO, oh." Arghi sneezed for the umpteenth time while holding his painful chest as the stitches were still wet.

She's confused. The problem was that he sneezed, but no thick liquid came out even a little which means he was not in the flu.

"This is who else I njir gibahin." Grumpy Arghi while patting his chest softly.

...~~~...

So many stories that come out without feeling the sky has changed color. The two immediately looked for a suitable place to enjoy the twilight sky.

With the coconut tree as the roof, the two sat leaning against it. Staring at the orange sky that looked very beautiful that afternoon. No matter the cold temperature. The link of the two hands since then never came off as if they did not want to separate.

"Senja this afternoon is so pretty, as pretty as the girl next to me." The moon threw her face in the other direction. Means to hide the red hue that unfortunately has been seen first by the bomber.

"It's a shame." Stars laugh when the Moon pinches their fingers.

"No need to be horrible. Not good for the heart."

"But I'm serious. Even that twilight was lost in my eyes. The most beautiful woman I've ever met."

The moon biting her lower lip resisted the heat flutter on the cheeks. It is not safe for the heart. He wanted to run as fast as possible. Wherever, as long as it is not near the stars. He might have died early.

"Enough Bin, my heart is not strong." The stars are getting worse. His burly hands ruffled the Moon's hair making the long mane even more messy because it had previously been blown by the wind. But the Moon had no time to take care of her hair. His heart still churned violently hearing the death sentence of the Star.

"I'm in my right mind for a long time." Moon bobbing head. Trying to maintain his sanity that seemed to be taken by force by the person next to him.

"Langit dusk this afternoon so witness the last memory of both of us yes." The moon raised its gaze to the now looking up Star. Staring at the shade of the orange sky with a small smile that never faded on those pale lips.

"There's three more days." The moon turned slowly, looking up at the twilight.

"We'll never know what's coming next."

The star is resting its head on the narrow shoulder of the Moon. "Returns a little try. Beautiful you're passing up."

The Moon does not hesitate to smile because the stars will not see it. The guy was still comfortable leaning on her.

The skinny fingers gently rubbed the Star's burly hands. He sometimes wondered how hard the man could get to the hand of this star. The Moon itself is sometimes horrified to see the muscles of the Star that stand out even though it is not being powered.

"The prison is gone. Want to go home now?" Tanya Moon looked down at the star that was watching. Did that guy fall asleep?

"Bin, you sleeping?"

"Just a moment."

"Why? Relapsed huh?" Tanya Moon anxiously heard the stiff voice of the Stars.

"It's just a little pain, a little."

"Can't be a little. You usually pretend not to be sick if the pain is a little doang. Come home now, I'm carrying."

"Lo ngaco." But the Moon actually rose and crouched down in front of the Stars.

"Good." The Moon that the Star does not ignore. The man got up with great difficulty by holding on to the trunk of the tree, then pulled the Moon up.

Both eyes of the Moon rotate. Even though it was up to ride what was difficult. "Lo underestimate my energy huh?" The moon holds the star's hand tighter. "Make the road?"

Stars nodded. Arriving in the parking lot of the Moon without many words immediately robbed the car keys from the hands of the Star. "It's just the drive." Say the Moon firmly while helping the Star get into the car.

Silence for a moment. The journey was smooth without obstacles. The moon glanced sideways to find the silent star with the position of the hand gripping his left abdomen. His forehead wrinkled in pain making the Moon move his car faster.

"Gue likes to forget you can take the car." After a long time, the stars finally made their sound.  "When can I bring a car? Who's studying?"

"Class 10 yesterday. Learn by yourself."

"Lo if it's hard to say mending diem deh. Don't waste energy."

"That's a hell of a bitch." Star sneers.

"Go to the hospital?"

"So" replied the Star spontaneously.

"It hurts his stomach. I'm not a kid you can lie to."

"Don't be plistic, I'm sick of seeing the hospital."

Hearing the sound of the Star's very pleading speech produced a rough sigh from the Moon.

"Look at your face enough to reduce the pain."

"For the pain is still too late."

"Bin, man,"

"Hmm?"

"It hurts a lot?"

"Not so anymore."

The moon smiled. "When you can be honest with me Bin. If you are sick, say sick. Don't be covered up and pretend to be strong. Lo always told me to get out of all my junk without needing to be arrested. But the fact is you can't even do what you always tell me."

"What's the reason I'm talking about that?" Moon shaking.

"Because I'm sick lo lo sick."

"Lo don't think I am? It feels like you're in pain and I can't do anything about it."

"Gue hulk, so hold it." The star held its thumb.

His gaze turned to look at the Moon within. The full light in the sky seemed to highlight the beautiful face of the girl. It was beautiful and beautiful for him to look at.

"My dear feeling to you is too great to be described with words. Whoa, that's until I can't see you sick moon."