WHYS
Bully
“Ardhika July. Male students are among the most popular students in the school. Ardhika is handsome, gentleman, charming, smart, and more than that she comes from a rich family. Ah, it sounds so good that his life is ‘kan?”
“While I, Kanaya Dhira, was just an ordinary and inclined student. And to me who is this ordinary student, Ardhika is the perfect student. But that doesn't mean I'm in love with her, I just plan on it.”
“I plan to put my heart on you, Ardhika. I want to feel that love with you. I want to feel everything I don't know with you.”
“But we both know that I'm the only one who really has feelings here. We both know that I'm the only one who wants to be with you.”
“Hei, Ardhika. You are the beginning of my nightmare. Do you know that?”
*
“Welcome!” greet Kanaya cheerfully.
Ardhika who was in front of him blinked awkwardly and scratched his nape which was not itchy. “Mm... hi?”
Kanaya smiles cutely and checks the item Ardhika wants to buy at the minimarket where she works part-time. Upon realizing what the object was, Kanaya's face could not help but blush.
Kanaya cleared her throat and normalized her face. “Oh, which woman don't want you hamili tonight?”
“E-eh, i-it..”.
“Not to be nervous, Mr. Cassanovas. This thing is usually purchased by teenagers who are like you, kok.”
Ardhika raised her eyebrows. “Mr. The cassanova? You called me that?”
“Ah, are you offended? All right, I'm sorry Ardhika. I won't call you that anymore,” replied Kanaya still maintaining her smile.
“Oh, do you know my name?”
“All 58 thousand, Mr. July. Do you want to buy****** with other variants? We have quite complete supplies.”
Ardhika shook her head with an embarrassed smile. His eyes looked at Kanaya with a look of interest there.
While Kanaya herself was unaware of Ardhika's gaze, the girl was busy counting the change and handed it to Ardhika. And the opportunity was not wasted by Ardhika, when her hand accidentally came into contact with Kanaya's hand, Ardhika immediately restrained it.
“You're interesting.”
Kanaya held back a smile. “What is a compliment?”
“Ya, you could say so.”
“Alright, thank you for the compliment.”
“Can I ask for your number?”
A school cassanova asks for a regular student number like her? Kanaya couldn't help but feel proud. But the girl tried to calm down and returned Ardhika's gaze with her ignorant gaze. “Well, for what reason should I give you my number?”
“Actually I have three reasons.”
“Oh yes?”
Ardhika smiled shyly. “First, I'm a fan of late night calls.”
“Oh, phonesex?”
“Not, not something like that.” Ardhika shook her head in panic, Kanaya tried to hold back her laughter. “I love to talk about the beauty of the night and tell someone about my day at night.”
Kanaya nodded. He did not expect Ardhika to be such a person. “Second reason?”
“I'm interested in you.”
Kanaya's cheeks warmed up. “Ooo.co.uk. That's too to the point, Mr. July.”
Ardhika laughs. “I don't like long-winded.”
“And the third reason?”
“I want to know you more.” Ardhika stared directly at Kanaya's chocolate bead.
Kanaya couldn't help but smile widely. Her cheeks were heating up and for no apparent reason, Kanaya felt her heart beating rapidly.
“So... how? Am I going to talk to myself and just tell the sky tonight?”
*
“You know, Des? A few minutes after Dhika left, you came and apologized for being late. Honestly, I didn't really care about you at the time.”
“What I think about is Ardhika. Ardhika Ardhika and Ardhika are just running around in my mind.And you know? That night and the nights after that were my most anticipated. Because only at night, Ardhika wants to communicate with me. She called me first, told me her monotonous days, and also whispered her sweet words to me.”
“While it's daytime at school, I'll just be his shadow. I could not get to him and could only look at him from afar. He's too glowing that I can't get too close to him or I'll burn.”
“Then after, my race began to change. I started to look at Dhika with a different look. You know.. I like it.”
“But before that I want to ask you, Desta. You know I'm just an ordinary student who happens to get a scholarship to attend a prestigious school. All students at school know I am the son of an ****** but I don't blame him because I don't really care.”
“And now I care. So I want to ask you, is liking someone a mistake for a child ******** like me? Is there a law that forbids it? Please answer my question.”
“At first it all felt so beautiful. My relationship with Dhika has also slowly become more and more intimate. We started to meet often outside of school and walk around like a couple. I believe that maybe it is possible that Dhika may also like you.”.
“But expectations are always far from reality ‘kan? Because in fact, I'm not the person he likes, Des. I'm just a little secret from an Ardhika Juli.”
*
“You're ashamed to be friends with me, yes ‘kan?”
“You're talking what Nay?”
“You never wanted to greet me at school. You always thought I didn't exist, just like them.” shrewd Kanaya with teary eyes.
At that time Kanaya and Ardhika were sitting in a park chair because they were exhausted after playing a kelilig bike park. Kanaya felt it was the right time for her to take out her teardrops.
“I didn't greet you because—”
“Because you're ashamed to be friends with me, Ardhika. Right ‘kan? You're ashamed to be friends with an ordinary student like me. You're ashamed to be friends with son—”
Ardhika pulled the nape of Kanaya and wrapped her lips in a kiss. Initially, Kanaya's eyes were rounded in shock. But slowly the girl closed her eyes and tried to enjoy her first kiss.
Yeah, his first kiss. And it was Ardhika who took the kiss. But Kanaya doesn't regret it.
Ardhika began to deepen her kiss until she got up on her feet and half-bent down, pressing Kanaya's body until the girl's back came into contact with the park bench. Kanaya who did not experience because of this first kiss looks tired. But the girl tried to compensate for Ardhika's kiss.
They were too busy eating each other's lips until they didn't realize someone was aiming the camera right at them.
*
“That night, I planned to fall in love with Ardhi, Desta. Because. a-I, I don't know. I really. I mean he's absolutely perfect. I don't want to be friends with him. I want to be more than a friend to him, Desta.”
Desta shed his tears as the sound of sobs ran through his ears. His hands were already cramped because throughout the story he heard, his hands were always clenched. He's upset. He was very angry with Ardhika.
“But maybe. I was too greedy to want her perfect self for my usual even low self like this.”
“The next day as I was walking towards my locker, all of a sudden. I feel noticed. You know ‘kan me this is sometimes considered just the wind then. But that morning, it felt different. I realized that a few pairs of eyes were staring at me, even that gaze was following me until I got to the locker.”
“However, when I finally got their attention, it turned out to be a form of anger. I opened my locker and smiled wryly as I found a lot of trash here. My favorite telenovela books are shabby, wet, and also smelly. And I found a piece of paper that said ‘anak ****** disgusting’ along with some of my photosheets that were kissing in the park.”
“That's my picture while kissing Ardhi that night, but Ardhi's face looks blur and hard to recognize. Then I heard laughter and laughter from them. But I just kept quiet. I'm the weak one, what can I do?”
“And look we meet Desta. You looked at me with a look of compassion in your eyes, but I just smiled as usual. I don't feel sad or angry because I think I can get through this with Ardhi. He'll definitely cheer me up. She will definitely be with me.”
“But once again, reality is far from expectations ‘kan Desta? I met Ardhi's eyes and at once I felt slammed from the seventh sky to the bottom of the abyss. Ardhi looked at me, Desta. But not with a warm or flirtatious look, but rather a look of disgust.”
“I cry every night. I always wished he'd come to me and keep staring at the door like a madman. But until my tears run out and my heart shrinks his name, he doesn't come either.”.
“Ah, I should have known. Ardhi would have preferred her popularity over a lowly girl like me. He prefers to be with his fake friends and ignore me who was always with him in the past nights.”
“Ardhika, may I ask? In that kiss, I felt your feelings so longing. Is that a reflection of how you feel about me? Do you like me?”
“But for what also ‘kan? After all, I'm no longer in this world.”
Desta bit her lips holding back a sob. Desta should have helped Kanaya, hugged the girl and whispered that everything would be fine. But at that time Desta was just silent, unmoved even he had seen Kanaya's eyes glazed over with a smile on his face.
...“Second recording.this time it's your turn, Farel Sanjaya, my old best friend. Did you miss me?”...
