Who is Myself
Refusing
The atmosphere of grief is still very thick in the house of the late Indra. Tania's condition has not fully recovered. But Tania already wants to eat food, because she thinks Davina still needs ASI.
Although the food swallowed by Tania feels stuck in the throat and difficult to swallow, but Tania still tried to eat it.
Mother Tania was very happy to see her daughter a little better, although sometimes arrived Tania cried herself to see a photo of Indra.
"You eat a lot, son, so that your health will improve" said Tania mother.
Tania simply smiled and continued to chew her food.
After eating, Tania and her mother sat together to accompany the sleeping Davina.
"Son... After seven days your husband, father and mother will return to London. You come with us there yeah .. there is also your home.. You're here living in Indra's own house. Mother is worried about your situation" said mother Tania.
"Tania still can't think about it now bun, later let Tania think again" Tania replied.
That night Tania couldn't sleep. In addition to grieving for Indra's death, Tania is also struggling to think about her messy life. What steps should he choose to take to move forward.
He could have gone with his parents to London, but what about David? David will be looking for her. Did David just move to London?
"Ah no, the family of the deceased mas Indra definitely forbid. Stella will probably also take her rights as a biological mother and David will she bring" Tania said in her heart.
"Mas Indra, why do you have to go mas...? It turns out my hunch was right, you showed a different attitude. And it turns out that it's true that now you're gone forever. Now what should I do?", Tania again cried in her lamentation. But this time he was more able to control his emotions and did not scream.
"Maybe I should stay here. David is Indra's mas deposit that I have to take care of. Aldo.. yes Aldo .. I'll find Aldo if I need anything. Because to me, maybe God didn't separate us. The proof of the donor's uterus will also not be realized if Aldo does not provide so much funding. Although the child I bear is not her child, but she is the one who made me pregnant again because she has a uterus again", Tania created her own way of thinking.
Now she has settled into her decision to stay at her late husband's house.
The next morning Tania's mother came to the room with a tray containing breakfast menu. Her daughter is still sleeping under the blanket. Mother Tania woke him up, though,
Tania squirmed and tried to open her eyes. His face was puffy from crying for too long. Then he got up and went to the bathroom to wash his face.
After her eyes opened perfectly, Tania approached the tray containing the food she had brought for her.
Tania started to hold the spoon and bit by bit put food in her mouth.
After breakfast, the mother still accompanied her daughter. He asked again about the incident.
"How son, have you thought about anything else. You're coming with us to London right after seven days of your late husband?"
"No bun, Tania will stay here with David and Davina", Tania refused her mother's invitation.
"Stay living here? isn't it wrong? are you sure? who will accompany you to stay here?", Mother Tania was surprised to hear her daughter's answer.
"Yakin bun, I'm sure of my decision. I'll stay with David and Davina, and if I need anything I'll call Aldo" Tania said.
"Aldo? isn't he married? she won't care about you anymore", Mother Tania disagrees with her daughter.
"Davina will make her care for me, because I can conceive the child of the deceased mas Indra because of her. And now Indra's mas is gone, so he has a responsibility to help me take care of Indra's children" Tania explained.
"Him? what do you mean Tania?", Mother did not understand the words of her daughter.
"Aldo has financed the donor's operation. Without her, I might not have a uterus anymore and would not be able to give birth to Davina" Tania replied.
Mother was surprised to hear that, but she also did not think out with her daughter's mind.
