Who is Myself

Get used to

At 21:00 they return to the boarding house, tonight is Sunday night.The host gave different rules for Sunday night, which can receive guests until 22:00 pm. But for ordinary days you can only visit until 21:00.

Aldo said goodbye to Kirani while repeating his words earlier, "I hope you really can understand the meaning of my words earlier.I don't want to stay away from you, I just want to calm my mind first. I don't want to make you uncomfortable with me if my mind is still not calm".

Kirani nodded with a smile, "I understand, I will also wait for you to meet me. Hope you won't be too late in your grief".

"Once again thank you, I Love you", Aldo hugged Kirani and then went home.

After Aldo came home Kirani immediately closed the door and again blew the tightness in his chest that he had been holding. Kirani cries as much as she can, she overflows everything to feel more relieved. Until the crying stopped after he slowly closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Same thing with Aldo who is in a different place, he also still can not adapt to the distance with Tania who is in the Mental Hospital.

Morning greeted, Kirani was still asleep with her face careless. Because I don't know at what time last night she was crying. Today he doesn't work because today is Sunday.

While Aldo was there already awake, he also slept very late but his eyes were soon closed. Before sunrise Aldo had awakened, on this holiday he wanted to do more positive things for himself. He did not want to stay long with his situation. He must rise.

Aldo intends to clean up Tania goods, he stored in a closet that contains only Tania goods. She hopes that after this she becomes more accustomed to her new life living far apart from Tania.

Aldo is too busy with his activities today, so it does not feel the time has been pointed at 11.00 noon. He tried to change the order of furniture in the house. Of course it is to create a new atmosphere in his house.

But time actually runs very long in Kirani's place. Because it is not an activity that he does other than just laying down on the bed. It even makes his heart always in the fog of turmoil.

Yesterday in front of Aldo he can say "yes" Aldo said with a smile because he did not want to make Aldo more sad. Kirani wants to say the word "No".Kirani doesn't want to be away from Aldo.

The day was getting late, Kirani really felt tired because all day she just slept and slept. He decided to go to the park. He wanted to breathe fresh air.

Who would have thought Aldo also had the same intention, without agreement they would equally go to the park.

Until they arrived at the park they had not met each other. Aldo came first and sat down in the chair where he used to be with Kirani. While Kirani does not come alone, she comes with her hostel friend who lives next door to her room.

Until when Aldo was about to go home the two met.

"Cyrani"

"Aldo"

"What are you doing here, Al? same who? "

"I'm alone, I just want to get some fresh air"

"Sama dong, I also want to breathe fresh air, from the morning I just lie down so he was tired, bored. Recognize, this is a friend of the hostel next to my room, her name is selvy".

" Hey I'm selvy"

"OK I want to go home first, you guys go on. But don't go home too late"

Aldo said goodbye, Kirani could only smile faintly. He thought Aldo was better, it turns out Aldo hasn't been able to see him for long. Aldo is still comfortable with his nostalgic room with Tania.

Whereas in Aldo's house now there is no trace of Tania, all the order changed. Even Aldo intends to repaint his house to really look a new atmosphere in his house.

Aldo had crossed to invite Kirani to stay at home with him, after all in the house there are two bedrooms. But Aldo undoes his intentions, he has not dared to make the offer to Kirani.

The next day Aldo was getting ready to leave for work, he looked fresher today. But not for Kirani, she instead seemed a bit lazy slack. Kirani is less excited. He knew once he got to work he would be faced with Aldo's slightly indifferent face.

The morning was still the same as a few days ago, there was no presence of Aldo who came to pick him up.

Once in the office, it's true that Aldo only greeted Kirani as necessary, "For Kirani, the spirit of his work".

Kirani just smiled a little, in her real heart she felt annoyed but she did not want to show it to Aldo.

Though the attitude of Aldo who slightly away is to keep the feelings of Kirani. Aldo does not want Kirani offended or even hurt if too often see Aldo who still keeps thinking Tania.

Yes, although it is not wrong because Tania is Aldo's wife, but the situation is different because Tania is in mental disorder.

The break time arrived, as usual Kirani was about to find lunch. At that time he was a little out late, hoping Aldo invited him to lunch together. But ten minutes of waiting for Aldo never invite him. Aldo is still continuing his work, and like him Aldo will not be out foraging. Maybe he hasn't had a taste for food since yesterday.

"Why don't you have lunch? ", ask Aldo.

" You haven't come out yet, why tell me to eat? "Kirani turned the question around.

Aldo smiled, and he knew Kirani was waiting for him. It's just that Kirani is embarrassed to say it.

" You eat there, you get sick. I'm still full, after all, there's a piece of bread in my bag. Later if I'm hungry to eat", Aldo again told Kirani to have lunch soon.

Without answering Aldo's words, Kirani came straight out. Aldo can read Kirani's attitude which looks very upset.

In his real workplace, Aldo is just competing pretentiously busy doing his job, even though his task is not as busy. His stomach was also very hungry, and there was not even a piece of bread in his bag.

Aldo lied to Kirani because he could not find an excuse not to invite her to lunch, too heartless if Aldo arrived out by himself without taking Kirani. Though it was clear from earlier Kirani was waiting for her.

During the break Aldo assures himself, he has made the decision to live his life. Like her after this Aldo will end his own life which he asked Kirani to share. He felt so selfish with his attitude.

Now Aldo is getting used to living without Tania, and tries to accept Kirani's full presence in his day.