Who is Myself

Take Tania

Like the night before her, Aldo's arrival at home was greeted with Tania's empty wailing in front of the bedroom window.

But tonight Tania's back in the extreme, she's screaming hysterically. Making Aldo suddenly panic, although Tania suffered a mental disorder but he never rampaged by hitting or throwing objects. She was just crying hysterically so.

Aldo hurried over to her, trying to calm Tania down and giving her a sedative pill as usual. The pill is only given when Tania is extreme, while for consumption every day there are other pills.

But this time Aldo still can not calm her even though the pill has been consumed by Tania. Her usual performance of the pill in just a matter of minutes had already reacted and could calm Tania even make her sleep. But this time it was difficult, until some time later the cry gradually softened and silent but after that Tania got up and cried again.

Meanwhile, the tranquilizer pill is high-dose, so Aldo did not dare to take it more than once to Tania .That would be dangerous for her, Tania could be OD.

There was no other choice, for almost overnight Aldo stayed awake to keep Tania, until almost 03.00 am Aldo can just close his eyes. Her focus is only on Tania even until she forgets to take her phone which is still stored in her briefcase. Every day the rain hit so Aldo secure his cellphone by keeping it in the bag to avoid the rain.

Though on the phone there are some messages Kirani unrequited, even illegible.

"Darling what else? "

"Tomorrow if we go together again or not?"

"Are you asleep"

"Well, maybe you're really asleep"

"Good night, have a nice dream"

The message was unrequited, even only opened in the morning. At that time Aldo took his cellphone because he wanted to contact Kirani.

Heather. tuut..

The phone has started connecting and waiting for answers, up to twice Aldo

repeating the call then comes the answer from there.

"Halloo"

"Haloo dear sorry I just opened your message. I was busy last night, I was exhausted and didn't get to see my phone"

Kirani's forehead puckered a sign that she was still unclear with Aldo's reply saying he was busy. Kirani had not had time to ask for clarity Aldo first gave the word.

"Today I didn't go to work, you'll be careful when you go to work"

"Why don't you go to work today"

"Later noon, I'm going to take Tania to the doctor. But this morning I was really tired and sleepy because I slept almost three in the morning"

"Ooh.okay..heart heart"

"Thank you dear"

Tuuuut..

As the day progressed, the sun began to sting. Aldo woke up from his sleep at exactly 10 a.m., because he had started to close his eyes again at 06.30 a.m., after almost a night of not sleeping.

Aldo saw Tania who had returned to sit in her usual place, today they want to see a doctor to check on Tania. Last night's incident made Aldo worried about Tania's condition because the more days there is no better change. Maybe Tania should be in intensive care in the hospital. This time Aldo will not refuse if the doctor recommends Tania should stay at the Hospital.

Worried about Tania's situation or because Kirani already exists? maybe his two are the reason for Aldo.

With help and accompanying ART, Aldo took Tania to the Hospital using a taxi. While those far away are still thinking about what Aldo did last night?

They arrived at the RSJ where Kirani was receiving treatment.The team of nurses immediately helped to bring Tania into the Hospital and immediately called the Doctor to check her.

After waiting for a few minutes, a nurse came out of the room and called out to Aldo. "Family master patient Tania? ", Aldo nodded and asked to enter the room. There Dr. The specialist who handled Tania was waiting.

" What's the matter Doc, how's my wife doing? ", Aldo asked the doctor who handled Tania's disease from the beginning he had a mental disorder.

" The patient's condition is frankly very bad, to be more efficient it is better if the patient is treated more intensively at this Hospital" explained the Doctor to Aldo.

Not yet Aldo answered him, the doctor added his sentence, "Of course this condition will not occur in patients if since last month he has received treatment here, he said, but you always refuse it".

Aldo was silent on all the Doctor's explanations, he didn't know what to answer. In the depths of her heart she cursed herself, "On the other hand I made Tania worse".

From the beginning of the incident, Aldo always blamed himself. If at that time he accompanied Tania maybe Tania would not have an accident. would not have miscarried.. and for sure it will not make Tania experience this bad disorder...

Aldo's eyes began to look glassy in his daydream, until the Doctor's voice built Aldo's daydream, "How about Sir, do you allow your wife to be treated at this Hospital? "

Aldo could only nod his head, his chest was so tight. "Okay Doc, I'm sorry because yesterday I always refused the advice of the Doctor. I don't know if it's going to get any worse. Now I'm giving everything to the doctor, give my wife the best treatment".

" Good sir, now please take care of his administration outside. We will take further action. And there's a cell phone number left if at any time we need to contact you", the doctor said his words while walking to Tania to deal with her further.

Aldo came out with heavy steps then walked towards the administration room. During Aldo's work, his salary was only to finance Tania's treatment and pay for ART which had helped take care of Tania while Aldo went to work.

Finished doing the administration, a nurse showed Aldo the treatment room for Tania. Tania has been moved from Dr. Specialist's room to the treatment room where she will rest while she is being treated at the Hospital.

Tania appears to have been lying on one of the beds in the room, she also seems calmer than when she was at home. Inside the room were five patients who were treated with Tania.

It was sad that Aldo's heart saw him, seeing his loved ones in a room of the Mental Hospital. The two of them were sitting sweetly in the arms with loving smiles, which they used to laugh happily in an USG room when they checked Tania's content, but now everything is dark in the room.

There was no smile, no laughter, no joking.. Even at that moment Kirani's shadow had disappeared for a moment from Aldo's mind. It was all because he was so bitter to see Tania's current state.

"Master.... Mr. "a nurse called Aldo but there was no answer from him because Aldo was still late in his daydreams.

Until the nurse called him one more time with a rather high tone to make Aldo wake up from his daydream.

"Sorry sir, here are some prescription medications you should take today. The rest of tomorrow we will give you more information" said the nurse as she gave up a piece of paper containing a prescription drug Doctor.

" OK, I'll take her soon".

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