When You're Gone

Relapsed again

Khairani is now sitting alone in the canteen chair still with the position as before. While Jeany has passed since ten minutes ago as she returned to Singapore in an hour.

While stirring Ramen that he just ordered. Somehow his appetite was immediately lost after Jeany's departure. Khairani was very hungry.

The discussion of that dark night again sliced his wound. Khairani still feels very painfully remembering all that. How Farhan moved his body over Jeany's plain body. How does the voice****** and moans Farhan when spurring seeking gratification.

The spoon and chopsticks that Khairani was holding came loose and crashed in the bowl of Ramen. Her tears were shed without being asked. His entire body trembled and cold sweat had filled his forehead.

The trauma has not healed. All this time he was just trying to follow the directions of his Doctor. So that trauma he can fight little by little. Suggesting herself with the belief that Farhan only loved her.

This time the pain came back. Mastering his heart and mind. After a long time Khairani tried to always be happy so that the feeling was lost from his heart, but this time Khairani again attacked by pain, fear, and disappointment simultaneously.

Khairani paled, her tears flowing in the corner of her red eyes. With trembling hands Khairani tried to grab her glass of drinking water. Sipping the water until the toilet is not left.

Khairani closed her eyes for a moment, when she felt her head grow heavy. No one knew Khairani's condition as he sat in the corner of the canteen facing the glass window.

" Medicine... " Yes, Khairani needs medicine right now. He took his bag and opened it hastily, but because of another panic attack that excessive Khairani instead dropped the bag and its contents.

Khairani tried to grab her bag back, but she instead nudged the empty glass on the table. Of course with a very large stomach makes it difficult for him to move. Plus his condition is not good.

Khairani almost fell down when she was about to duck to get her bag back . But a pair of sturdy hands swiftly supporting his body so that he did not have time to fall to the canteen floor.

" Khai ! Why... ?" Farhan did not continue his question when he saw Khairani's face was pale and wet.

" Bag... " Khairani pointed towards her bag, after Farhan managed to sit her down again.

Without a second thought Farhan immediately grabbed the bag lying on the floor. Farhan is looking for a cure that Khairani means. But he didn't find it.

" There is no ! " His words looked towards Khairani.

" On the floor "Reply Khairani who was closing her eyes with one hand supporting her forehead her voice sounded very weak.

Farhan was looking near the bag that fell down earlier. Seen some objects belonging to Khairani scattered. Farhan picked it up while looking for Khairani's medicine until his eyes caught a small brownish-yellow glass bottle. Farhan took it.

" What is this ? " Farhan never knew if Khairani was taking the drug. Khairani nodded slowly, then grabbed it and drank one of the drugs.

" Is it safe ? " Of course Farhan knew it was a sedative, because Farhan had understood what was happening with Khairani by looking at the symptoms.

Farhan held Khairani to his chest while stroking his head. Farhan understood that Khairani was attacked by Panic Attack, which became one of the symptoms if the trauma recurred.

After Khairani calmed down a bit, Farhan stretched his arms.

" Do we need to see a doctor, but we're still in the hospital ? "

" No, I've gone. Help me get back to Papa's room. I'm gonna take a break. "

Farhan grabbed Khairani's bag, then asked his wife to stand up. Khairani did not refuse because he was unable to walk.

Arriving in the room Mr. Endriko Farhan lay Khairani in an additional bed that is already available there.

" What's wrong with him ? " She shouted Mr. Endriko.

" It's okay, Pa .A little limp maybe exhausted. Farhan said lying.

Honestly, Farhan also does not know why the Trauma Khairani can recur. It looked fine when Jeany was around. Why after Jeany left instead Khairani looks fragile.

When Khairani had a one-on-one conversation with Jeany, Farhan accidentally saw her while parking her car. With a sense of anxiety Farhan immediately approached fear Jeany hurt Khairani.

But in fact, the end of their conversation even seemed to make up for making Farhan relieved. And after Jeany went Farhan to his Papa's room to see his father's condition. It just so happens that Khairani is eating.

But how shocked Farhan when he saw Khairani drop a glass and almost fell down. Many questions he wanted to ask, but saw Khairani's condition and there was his Papa so he paused.

Khairani had closed her eyes from the moment she reached the room. It seems like the sedative effect has worked. Khairani is asleep now.

" Sorry... You are still suffering because of me. " Said Farhan softly while peeping Khairani's hand that he had held.

Certainly not responded by Khairani. But instead got a difficult question to answer from Mr. Endriko.

" What are you doing, making my son-in-law suffer. " Task Mr. Endriko who listened to Farhan mutter.

" I once hurt her so deeply that her trauma returned. Papa remembers Jeany ..."

Farhan finally told him all the wounds he had inflicted on his wife's heart. Including Khairani meeting with Jeany earlier. Until Farhan finds Khairani in alarming condition .

" You've always reminded me of you. Rather than sin, it is better to marry. Look at the consequences of your promiscuity, you even hurt the people you love. " Mister Endriko took a deep breath.

" You know Han, my principles and your father are the same. We'd rather not have friends than have to hang out with the wrong people. Especially free association. Thank goodness your mother did not see your one temperament, could hang him if you know. " Mister Endriko looks upset.

" I'm sorry Pa, I'm so sorry. Especially seeing his suffering. " Lirih Farhan with eyes that do not turn away from the sleeping Khairani.

" Is he okay ? should we check it out ? " I saw a worried look on the old face that still looked handsome.

" I think so too. Okay, I'll call the doctor first. "

Farhan hurried to leave Mr. Endriko's room.

Moments later he returned with two doctors. And the two narrow-eyed Doctors were directed to the Bed where Khairani lay.

" May I see what medicine your wife is taking ? " Say one of the doctors. Farhan immediately took and handed the medicine bottle.

" This drug is quite safe for pregnant women. But still conditions like this should not happen too often. However, pregnant women should be physically and psychologically healthy. " Said the doctor warning.

" Good Doctor, I'll take note. " Said Farhan. " What about the content ? "

" From his heartbeat sounds normal. This has entered the month of birth, should be checked more often into the Obgyn section. "

Upon examination, the Doctor states that Khairani is in good condition making Farhan a little relieved. But his heart was still agitated waiting for Khairani to awaken.

Two hours later the round eyes began to move. Farhan who was holding onto Khairani's fingers started to smile with relief.

" Drink first !" Farhan helped Khairani sit down and handed him a bottle of water to Khairani's mouth.

" Is there anything painful or uncomfortable ? " Tanya Farhan was gentle.

" Yes, there's. " Khairani answered, after sipping a drink.

" I'll call the doctor, wait a minute. " Farhan was about to rise from his seat but was stopped by Khairani's words.

" No need, the Doctor won't be able to treat it because of the pain inside here. Sometimes it still feels. " The voice of Khairani is accompanied by tears falling. While pressing his chest that began to feel tight.

Farhan understood Khairani's intentions. Either when the pain will heal, or it may never heal. Farhan has hurt too deeply.

A moment later Farhan again embraced Khairani into his arms.

" Sorry, Honey. I have loved you with all my heart since looking into these round eyes until now and then. Only you Khairaniku. That's all I can guarantee. But when I hurt you accidentally, please forgive me. Because I never had the slightest intention of it. " Say Farhan lirih

" I know that, but every time I remember it the pain is back."

" Then forget about it ! Just remember my great love for you. Can...

" I'll try. "

Farhan let go of his embrace, and looked into his beloved round eyes.

" Did Jeany bother you again ? " Khairani.

" Why did he meet you ? .

" He gave up on you. And then back to Singapore. "

" Good, I don't want him to always be around us so you don't remember that bad day anymore. I just want to be happy with you. "

" Let him find his happiness." Khairani hoped Jeany would no longer exist between him and Farhan.

" I want to be happy too...

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