When You're Gone

Leave me

When Farhan talks to the Doctor, Jack chooses to see Khairani. The frail woman lay down while looking up at the sky of the room. Those round eyes stared blankly.

Jack knocks on the door he opened to take Khairani's eyes off. Trial succeeded. Khairani turned her head towards Jack who was standing in the doorway .

"May I enter Mrs Jonhson ? " Say formal Jack.

"You're already inside Mr. Luo. " Khairani's words made Jack chuckle.

"Sorry Mrs Jonhson, I was intentional so you can't turn me down. " Said Jack on the taste. Khairani only snorted hearing it.

" Mr Luo, thank you for helping me. " Khairani.

"Of course I'm helping you, because you're my best friend's wife." Jack's words invited the gaze of Khairani.

" Mr Luo, may I ask you one more favor. "

"Of course Mrs Jonhson. "

"Call Rani alone, that's my call." Khairani said uncomfortably.

"Alright, then call me Jack. To be more familiar and not too formal." Reply Jack . " What can I help you with ?" Further.

"Help me out of here and I want to go back to Pekanbaru. I miss the kids ." Khairani.

"Alright, but still have to be with the permission of the Doctor. if the Doctor says okay I will help you to return. " "Khairani, don't you want to hear the explanation first ? " Speak Jack heart.

"No need, what I saw was very clear" Khairani replied.

"Sometimes the truth happens not as we see it. There is a reason we need to know to understand why this happens. Sorry Khairani, I hope to talk to her. "

"You think it's because of what makes a man and a woman get in touch with that team. You also saw him sir, there was no compulsion there at that time. " Khairani said with a trembling voice.

" But still you have to talk, many things you don't know, madam. Farhan....

"Everything I know, sir, I see for myself. You don't have to bother defending him. I believe more in my eyes and ears. " Khairani looks emotional with glassy eyes.

" Well, maybe there is no solid evidence at this time, so I just ask you to take advantage of your feelings and instincts back Madam. I once saluted someone who had great faith in challenging me. And I hope that person's faith is unwavering just because of an obsessed actor. "

" Don't try to affect me, because this pain wipes out all the flavors. You won't understand a position like mine, Mr. Jack . I can tell if you're defending your friend. I understand !! " Khairani weakened as the clear liquid spilled onto her cheeks.

"I'm sorry Khairani, I didn't mean that. I'm just trying to tell you there's a truth you should know. But I have no right to tell it. Someone has to tell them themselves. Again I am sorry. " Jack felt guilty when he saw Khairani shed tears.

" It doesn't matter if you mind helping , I can still do it myself. I'm sorry, can you leave me alone, I'd like a break. " Khairani couldn't help but rumble in her chest and she didn't want Jack to witness her weakness.

"Okay, ma'am, I'm going out, but if you need anything, just call me. I was right behind that door. " Jack pointed at the exit of Khairani's room.

"Not to bother, there are a lot of Sisters here. There is a button I can use. Thanks for your attention ." When Khairani finished talking, she lay her back to Jack.

Seeing Khairani who does not want to talk anymore, Jack finally came out. Jack sat on the bench in front of Khairani's room while waiting for Farhan .

Not long ago Farhan also came with a disheveled and chaotic face. Jack could understand that Farhan must have just heard something unwanted.

"Why is your face like that, is there something bad ?" Sapa Jack's.

"Very bad, I didn't even expect it to be this bad. " Farhan replied as he threw his butt next to Jack.

"What bad?"

Finally Farhan told me about the Doctor's diagnosis of the trauma that Khairani had. And about the possibility that Khairani had experienced something similar and Farhan made it worse.

Farhan hit his head slowly as dizziness began to grip his head.

" Patience, now meet him first. I was afraid he felt neglected. We talked a little bit. I look disappointed by the word he said. Try to talk to him, but remember ! His emotions are unstable You have to be patient with it. " Said Jack advising Farhan.

"I'm still scared, wait a minute I calm down. After taking a few breaths, Farhan finally strengthened his heart to enter. Slowly he pressed the door handle and pushed the door.

Farhan instantly felt pain in his chest looking at the stifling sight before him. Khairani sleeps on her back against the door with her body shaking to dampen her cries.

The weak woman groaned softly with both her hands smothering her mouth. Farhan cursed himself even more to witness the suffering he created for his beloved heart.

Farhan stepped slowly after closing the door with a heart. Arriving near Khairani Farhan laid his body beside his wife and ventured to embrace the fragile body from behind.

Khairani who felt the warm embrace stiffened. Unable to resist even moving. He knows who the hugs are. Khairani has a body scent that she always misses since she was pregnant.

The crying that had stopped for those few seconds was getting louder. And the vibrations of Khairani's body are getting stronger. Farhan clutched Khairani tightly to dampen the wife's emotions that were again peaking.

There were heart-wrenching wails and moans. Khairani no longer held him back. He vaporized the tightness that was squeezing his chest. It was as if expressing his misery to the owner of his heart.

The man he trusted so much, where he gave up the rest of his life to be filled with the word happy, was painting a pain called wound. Khairani never thought that her life would be so painful.

Farhan lets his wife let go of her pain. No words were spoken from his lips. Only his breathing sounded rough hunting. Yes, Farhan also let out his tears in silence. His heart was wounded when he saw his wife's wounds.

Tired of evaporating the taste, the crying began to subside. Khairani began to release the winding of Farhan's hand under his chest. But Farhan again tightened it while peeping Khairani's head covered with her hijab.

"Detachable... " Khairani said sounding cold and hoarse.

"will not. " Farhan's reply was brief.

"Let go or I push, you'll fall to the floor. ! Khairani said a little more.

"Do it, if it can ease your pain." Farhan closed his eyes, while inhaling voraciously the scent of his wife's body .

" This pain will not decrease, even if you bleed all over your body. "Jawab Khairani tried to be firm even though he still sounded vibrating.

"Then tell me how to make the pain go away. " Farhan tried to talk more with Khairani.

" Leave me and the children. Go far away to be invisible. " Khairani's words spontaneously let the hug slip.

Farhan turned Khairani's body towards him. Staring at his beloved round eyes that looked red and swollen. Farhan sought doubt or puritanical pretence there. But all he found was a look of conviction.

"Don't say it. Don't. Please don't stay away from me. Don't ask me farewell. Punish me in another way. I don't want to." Farhan re-embraced Khairani into his arms.

Khairani again shed tears in her husband's arms. She did not want it either but her husband's betrayal had destroyed the foundation of her household.

" Cry for today only, from tomorrow do not drop a drop. Never cry for your stupid husband. " Farhan's voice rasped withstanding the cries.

"Go, I'm feeling nauseous. Touching you feels like slicing every inch of my skin. " Khairani's cold words pierced Farhan's heart.

"I'm sorry I hurt you so deeply. I did not intend to hurt one bit. L'm....

"Go away.I really want to vomit to see you. Away, please. "Khairani's voice sounded weak.

Finally Farhan let go of the winding of his hand and got up from Khairani's bed. Not wanting to hurt his wife more deeply, Farhan tried to relent. Though Khairani said it was like a knife stabbing his heart.

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