When You're Gone

Farhan's Explanation

Those round eyes started to open. From behind the curtains looks like the day has wiped. Those eyes surrounded the dimly lit room. From the nose-piercing aroma, it can be known that he was in the hospital.

Khairani felt warm palms clasping her fingers. It turned out that Farhan had fallen asleep in a sitting position with his head in the Khairani brangkar.

Khairani slowly pulled her hand from Farhan's grasp. Then he slept on his back to Farhan. His heart still ached as he looked at Farhan's face.

Farhan had already woken up from the moment Khairani withdrew her hand. Seeing Khairani sleeping behind her his heart ached. His girlfriend is still angry.

Farhan got up from his seat and grabbed the mineral water on the nightstand. He walked around the branch and approached Khairani from the other side. He looked at Khairani who closed her eyes. But Farhan knows that Khairani is not sleeping.

" Dear, wake up. Drink first, you must be thirsty ." Khairani opened her eyes, free temple to sleep, especially her throat was dry.

Khairani received the bottle and drank it with the pipette Farhan had prepared. After drinking, he handed the bottle back to Farhan. Farhan accepted it with a smile.

"Do you want to eat, but the food is cold. Let me buy you a new one, huh ? What do you want to eat? Tanya Farhan was enthusiastic.

He wanted Khairani to talk. Since meeting not a word said by his wife. But Farhan was again disappointed when he saw Khairani's head.

"At least eat a little, although you are not hungry but our child needs intake, Khai..." Said Farhan while stroking Khairani's stomach.

For a moment Khairani stiffened and was a little shocked. But she immediately neutralized her face as Khairani was aware of her condition. It's just that he hasn't confirmed it.

Seeing Khairani seem calm and unreacted made Farhan a little riled up. Farhan runs out of ways to make Khairani eat. But he still wants to try.

"Khaira, do you want Seafood fried rice ? Which has the crab. I'm actually hungry too, I haven't eaten in the afternoon. " Said Farhan a little.

The soft-hearted Khairani, hearing her husband had not eaten her heart immediately felt guilty. Then automatically his head nodded.

Farhan's smile immediately expands beautifully with his wife's answer, though not with a voice. Farhan immediately kissed Khairani's forehead and then stroked her cheek.

Farhan then ordered the food online because he did not want to leave his wife. While waiting for the food to come Farhan wanted to invite Khairani to talk.

"Khaira, did you know you were pregnant ? Khairani nodded back.

"How long has it been ?" Farhan and Khairani said only. Farhan took a deep breath. His wife is still tight-lipped. Farhan approached then kissed his wife's cheek repeatedly so anxious.

"Abang... !! Pekik Khairani arrives while pushing Farhan away. Farhan who heard his wife's screech even chuckled happily. Then he repeated again with a wet peek at his wife's cheeks, forehead and lips .

" Brand ...! Watch out this wet, ish ! " Farhan was unwilling to stop, he kept doing it over and over again. And now Khairani's two hands had been held by Farhan.

"Stop Bang, I'm tired. " Khairani said that made Farhan stop. And how shocked Farhan saw Khairani's eyes glazed over.

"Darling, sorry. Sorry dear. "Farhan hugged his wife.

"Don't cry anymore, please don't cry. Honey, don't think too much. What you see is not what you think. Nothing happened between me and him. I've taken care of myself and my heart like I promised you. "

" Khaira, talk... ! Tell me what you feel. Ask what you want to know. Don't punish me with silence and tears. It hurts me so much, baby "

Actually Khairani did feel hurt and devastated to see her husband with another woman, even if only kissing .But in her heart she believed in her husband. But still he could not accept everything.

Khairani is very sad and happy at the same time. The pregnancy she had been expecting and Farhan's presence was close to her. It may be the effect of a young pregnancy that makes her miss her husband lately.

But the reality he saw made him feel even more sad than angry at Farhan. Although Khairani actually wanted to ask a lot of questions, but because he was rushed into the hospital so he chose to hold back first.

Farhan who was waiting for his wife's answer who did not make a sound finally sat back on the chair with a sigh.

Farhan was really tired, overtime these few weeks drained all his energy. Hoping to get a warm welcome even he made his wife in the hospital now.

Suddenly the knock on the door took over the attention of the two. Turns out their food delivery courier. After receiving the order and closing the door Farhan prepared Seafood fried rice for Khairani.

"Let me bribe." Farhan

"I can do it myself. "

"Your hands are infused, how to eat. Khairani finally gave up.

"Bribe to you too, and wait for me to finish. You report it ? " Hearing Khairani's thoughtful remarks made Farhan smile happily.

They feed fed Farhan in turn. Finally two packs of Seafood fried rice were toileted by the two of them. Khairani's appetite suddenly arises, even though it has been a few days now he is difficult to swallow food.

After finishing the meal Farhan helped Khairani lie down in the cage . Finished with the rest of their meal, Farhan also lay in the narrow bed hugging Khairani from behind.

Khairani was silent about Farhan's treatment. He simply closed his eyes permeating the warmth on his back. While Farhan's hand rubbed Khairani's stomach gently.

"His name is Jeany, she's my assistant. " After that Farhan spoke. He tried to explain because he did not want Khairani to misunderstand for too long.

Khairani just silently listened. Even now his heart is racing. There is a fear of knowing the truth. Fear that reality is not what it wants.

" That night we had just finished a meeting with the new owner of the Company. We celebrate the success of the collaboration. I can't refuse it. "

" I don't drink at all, I really don't lie. But Jeany drank too much and got drunk. " A moment Farhan paused and took a deep breath to loosen his chest that felt squeezed.

"Trust me only that, nothing more. I pushed him right away at that time. But the video was cut .Be patient again looking for another piece of the video. "

Realizing Khairani did not respond at all, Farhan pulled his wife slowly to face him. Khairani's eyes have been soaked by tears.

"Please baby, don't cry anymore. I could not see the sadness in my beloved eyes. " Farhan rubbed Khairani's cheeks flooded with tears.

"Rage Khai, hit and slap your husband. I'd rather you vent your emotions by hurting me. Than for you to be silent but here sick and tight. " Say Farhan pointed to Khairani's chest.

"Speak baby, I miss. " Farhan buried Khairani's head into his chest.

"Is he your lover ? "The sudden Khairani question made Farhan stiffen. Farhan loosened his embrace and looked into Khairani's eyes asking for an explanation.

"Can I not answer it now. I promise one day I will tell you. You're sick again, I'm afraid I'll disturb your mind. " Say Farhan looked for an excuse.

"No, I want it now. The longer it takes me to die curious. "

"Khi, I'll hurt you later. "

"I'm ready to listen. " Khairani said firmly.

"Darling, you know my past is very bad. " Farhan tried to bargain.

"Whatever bad I want to know, let's tell you what's the worst thing between you and that woman. " Khairani's heart felt strong trembling. But she wanted her husband to be honest even though he could already feel what a bad thing Farhan meant.

"Alright, listen don't interrupt, okay ! Khairani just nodded. Farhan again let out a rough sigh.

" Jeany and I are a university in Tokyo, Japan. I continued my S2 while he was only in the first semester of S1. We were familiar until I was done. We never saw each other again until Mama told me to build my own business. "

"I went to Singapore to see a business opportunity with my friend, and accidentally met Jeany there who turned out to be a Singaporean ."

" And finally the three of us built a small small business at that time. Until I finally decided to make my own company .Jeany offered to help. "

" At first we were just Ceo and Secretary. Because I often go abroad I finally appointed him as Assistant. It is easy to split the work. "

"But ill-fated at that time there was a client who wanted to trap me with stimulants. Until there was a forbidden relationship between me and Jeany. " Farhan tightened his embrace. His chest rumbled, afraid that Khairani would grow angry.

"What does Jeany need responsibility for ? " Tanya Khairani's.

"No ." Farhan answered only short. Concern began to enter his heart if Khairani asked the continuation of the story.

" It's so good of him. " Khairani looks at Farhan in search of honesty, but Farhan looks nervous, making Khairani wonder what her husband is covering.

"Is the relationship just that. "he continued.

" Deg"

This was the question Farhan avoided the most. A big mistake in his life. Now the wife questions the dark story she wants to bury.

"Why keep quiet, what you're hiding. Tell me now, than I know the truth from others, it will have a different effect. " Threaten Khairani with sharpened round eyes .

" Once you know I beg you not to hate me .Khai... ! Farhan was confused looking for the right word. "You know I never fell in love before I met you. But I'm from my twenties already feeling *** . "

" Our life and environment out there is free. So did me and Jeany. Since that night we have been used to it. " Lirih Farhan's.

Sontak makes Khairani push Farhan away. His heart felt sliced, even if only the past, but just imagine Khairani hurt.

Farhan who was ready for Khairani's reaction immediately returned to his wife. He shuts Khairani down strongly fearing his wife will go away from him.

"Don't.don't stay away from me. By Allah it is only the past .Even if my body is filthy and filthy, don't hate me. Please dear, I have long since abandoned that bad habit long before meeting you. "

"Since when ? " Khairani's voice rang out trembling withstanding the rumbling in her chest.

"Since I impregnated Sikembar's mother .Since then I have learned to respect women because I realize that not all women are like Jeany and my other female friends. "

"What Brother doesn't have the slightest taste in Jeany. You guys have been living like husband and wife for so long. ?"

"I'm not, but Jeany she's in love with me. But I refused it because I felt nothing for her other than satisfaction. " Farhan's voice is getting smaller and smoother.

"Did he take your rejection for granted ? "

"Yes, he took it ."

" I don't think "Farhan looked at Khairani with narrowed eyes, full of questions.

"How do you know .....

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