When You're Gone

The heart that is hurt

Khairani is better than yesterday. Today he can get out of bed, even breastfeeding children to their rooms.

But the nausea did not subside. Every morning and evening before night he would vomit. As well as this afternoon, Khairani sat leaning on her bedroom sofa while closing her eyes. Hoping to relieve the nausea that afflicted him.

His face was still pale even though it was not as pale as yesterday. Khairani realized her body was not okay now. There is suspicion that she is pregnant. But Khairani has not wanted to check it yet, because her heart is worried at the moment.

Khairani felt like her stomach acid was rising. Khairani whimpered a little while pressing down on her heart which felt a bit sore .Then his hand went down to the stomach and stroked gently there.

A warm and large hand was holding onto Khairani's fingers in her stomach. Along with a kiss of soft lips on his forehead .Being too preoccupied with her thoughts Khairani does not realize someone has entered her room.

Khairani reflexes overtook Farhan's hand. Yeah, Farhan was in the room a while ago. When Khairani was unaware of his arrival, Farhan approached his wife.

When Khairani brushed off his hand, Farhan assumed his wife was just shocked. But when those round eyes looked at him Farhan felt something unusual.

The eyes that always sparkle when welcoming him are no more. The eyes look sad even though they are now sharpening towards him. There was a dark circle visible underneath, signaling his wife was sleep deprived these few days.

"Deg"

Farhan grew startled when the eyes began to look glassy and now Khairani cast her gaze towards the window. " What's going on, he's angry. " Said Farhan in his heart.

Gently Farhan grabbed his wife's face and pulled her slowly so that the face and eyes looked back at him.

"Is my wife angry ? I'm sorry I didn't tell you a few days ago because I was so busy. " Say Farhan, then kiss Khairani's lips gently.

Khairani remained silent, neither replying nor refusing. A moment later Khairani recalled on the video that night. The eyes that were just glazed with glass have now broken scattered.

Farhan immediately released the link of his lips, when he felt his wife's tears. He looked at Khairani inside, looking for answers to what his wife was feeling now. It's impossible just because he didn't tell me for a few days.

Farhan wiped away the tears flowing down Khairani's cheeks while smiling.

"Did my wife miss me so much that she became such a crybaby. Or he's worried about me, mhm..."

Realizing that Khairani was still crying in silence, Farhan embraced Khairani. The hug was not reciprocated by Khairani at all. Farhan was convinced that something not simple was happening. His wife was really angry.

From Khairani's gaze and body language, Farhan realized something was wrong with him. But what !! Farhan should know that. Now Farhan is still grateful Khairani did not refuse his touch even though not a single word was spoken by Khairani.

Farhan tightened his arms even more, as he felt the tremors of Khairani's body spilling out his gloom. Until the khairani sobbing subsides replaced with a smooth snoring.

Actually Khairani felt comfortable in that embrace. She misses that hug so much .I don't know why lately he wanted that hug when he wanted to sleep.

Maybe due to lack of sleep these few days, and fatigue crying Khairani so easy to fall asleep. Moreover, that warm hug he got now. Only her pain made her not want to talk or return her husband's embrace.

Farhan held Khairani and moved him the basket, covered him to the chest and then kissed the old Khairani on the forehead.

Inadvertently Farhan's eyes saw Khairani's HP on the nightstand in a dead state. There are cracks and broken parts on the edges.

" You slammed it, it's not a fall. What's the matter exactly ? " Farhan muttered, then he charged up Khairani's HP. Farhan was so curious as to what exactly happened.

Farhan came out of the room to his son's room. Not only wanted to meet them, but there was something Farhan wanted to ask his nanny.

"Dwi, what was the time when Ibuk fainted he fell on the floor ? Farhan asked when she met Dwi.

"No Mr. Ibuk on the bed. Maybe because of fatigue after vomiting, Ibuk fainted after laying down in bed. "

"Did Ibuk's HP fall on the floor when you entered the room ? "

" Ibuk was unconscious while holding his cellphone Pak , even HP Ibuk was still alive only the screen that broke. At that time I wanted to help cas Ibuk ban it. " Answer Dwi.

"Oke Dwi thank you, where's the child ?

"Morning bathed with Tika Sir."

"Well, when you're done bring it to the living room, I'll wait ." Farhan also walked away from Dwi after Dwi nodded his head in agreement.

Nothing catches his attention except for the many outgoing calls to Farhan's number. And it was about a week ago. Farhan remembers that time he was late until the morning with Jeany and fell asleep in the office.

But Farhan found no report on his HP. Just like what happened when Irul called him. When Farhan asked about Khairani's condition at the time, Irul also said he had contacted her several times and sent a message. But none of Farhan found.

Then Farhan opened his wife's room chat. So many messages that Khairani sent to him, to the last part .Farhan was very surprised to see the video footage Khairani sent with a few words below.

Farhan put down the HP then scooped up his frustrated face. Now he knows why his wife is so angry with him. Where did Khairani get the tape and why was there the tape .Who is recording.

All those questions swirled in his head. How to explain to Khairani. Whether Khairani could accept his explanation. What if Khairani finds out about her time with Jeany.

Amidst his frustration Farhan's eyes caught a round and wet eye staring at him softly. Khairani again sobbed in silence. Farhan could see his wife's heart breaking now.

With a slow step Farhan approached and laid his body on the side of Khairani. Staring at his wife close and getting closer until both of their eyebrows touch each other.

"sorry. " That's all Farhan could say. Kissing those two wet eyes.

"I'm sorry. " Farhan apologized again, then kissed Khairani on both cheeks. Last Farhan me***t Khairani's lips from earlier vibrated withstanding the sobbing.

Farhan was further frustrated that Khairani did not respond at all. The crying is becoming more and more. The frail body trembled violently .Seeing his uncontrollable wife Farhan immediately hugged tightly, hoping that the body would not tremble anymore.

" Don't cry anymore, enough ..." Farhan was unable to resist the rumbling in his chest. His heart ached at Khairani's current condition. His wife was not only sick but her heart was also hurting.

"Hit me, don't shut up. Or yell... ! Don't hold on, honey. It'll torture you even more. Let's take it out on me. " Say Farhan said in a hoarse voice and quivered withstanding the cries.

Farhan really felt very guilty. He accidentally incised a deep wound for his wife. Farhan doesn't know how to explain all that. Farhan was sure Khairani must have thought nothing of him. The situation is very supportive for this misunderstanding.

Farhan did not call and could not be reached. He hasn't been home in nearly a month. And Khairani's call was received by no one. Plus the video of the curse I don't know who sent it.

Farhan was eager to explain to Khairani. But Khairani's condition is fragile at the moment and Farhan chooses to appease his wife first.

Khairani is not calm. Farhan tries to take down the tired-looking Khairani. Her tears still flowed into the river. Farhan grabbed a glass of drinking water that was on the nightstand. He had not yet had time to drink into the mouth of Khairani, suddenly Khairani fell unconscious.

Farhan who panicked immediately put the glass back on the nightstand and immediately carried Khairani towards the car. Everyone who saw was shocked to see Farhan running in his arms around Khairani.

"Mother why Pi ? " Tanya Alma who happens to be in the living room with her sister.

"Mother fainting, son .Wait at home and Papi will tell you. Take care of Adek ! " Said Farhan while running towards the car.

After sitting down and putting on the seat belt for Khairani with Farhan immediately running towards the steering chair. With high speed he drove his car to split the streets of Pekanbaru city which was slightly jammed in the afternoon.

Two hours later

In the VIP room of a large hospital in Pekanbaru Farhan sat facing Khairani who had not been aware from earlier. His hands did not stop stroking his cheeks and then his wife's lips. And one of his hands faithfully clasped Khairani's soft fingers.

The hand eventually moved to Khairani's stomach. Gently brush there, smiling .

"Hi honey, fine fine over there. Do not trouble Mother. Take care of Mommy for Papi, Son ! " The murmur went to Khairani's stomach.

Khairani was declared eight weeks pregnant. Lack of intake and a lot of thoughts made him weak. The baby is healthy but the mother is not. This condition is dangerous to the content of Khairani.

Doctors also said that the SC birth distance was too close plus Khairani who had undergone three SC surgeries, adding to the list of risks of pregnancy.

But the doctor also explained many cases like this but can run smoothly to the body. But it must be extra to maintain the condition and intake of the mother. Especially his psychic condition.

This was what Farhan was worried about, Khairani was being shaken at the moment. Farhan just wants his son and wife to be healthy. Hopefully Khairani can accept his explanation later.

I hope.....

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