When the Orange Tassbih

CHAPTER 9 - delete

Tonight I thought hard about what would be best if I decided. Is trying to hold on to wait if the fabric of my marriage that I will feel a love, comfort and happiness of course as time goes on. Or choose to step down, but have to disappoint both my parents.

Yes, both of my parents have been comfortable enjoying the effects of my marriage with the man who has helped his efforts rise again. And of course, it came back like that time.

In the midst of the turmoil of my mind, I raise my hands at the end of every prayer to ask the Almighty for guidance.

Like tonight, and the nights before. I pray after my tahajjud prayer and of course I also pray Istiqarah, asking for instructions on the path that if best will be resolved.

And I finally confirmed my intentions after my morning prayers. For a moment I embrace this intention of mine will be able to survive later.

Ahk, no problem. I have to be sure and sure. Yes, I submit to, Lord's Power, only. So now, I've decided to stay and I'm going to make patience my hold. I am sure that Allah Subhana Vataala will reward me with everlasting happiness for my patience and sincerity. Surely I want to be a noble woman by my side, Allah Subhana Wataala, if I die later.

 

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"Hello, Brother!"

"Yes, Orange. How you doing?"

"Alhamdulillah. I'm fine, brother!"

"Thank God,"

"I want to see you, brother. Just sec. Please!"

"Where did he meet?"

"In the usual place when we meet."

"O, okay. I'll be there soon."

"Yes, Brother."

After hanging up my phone. I also went straight to the beach. On the beach was once a place nongrongku with Adelio. And on that beach too, I made it with Adelio.

There were many wonderful stories of me with Adelio on that beach. Arriving at the beach I meant for Adelio to meet.

Oh, myGod...! strengthen heart. Let me get out of the shackles of my race to her. I don't want to crave anything that can't happen.

Yep. I should have realized. That I no longer deserve a presence, Adelio, in my life as a lover or a companion of my life. I'm not the orange I used to be. I'm not a virgin anymore. Even if I split with my husband. My status is also a widow. And can Adelio accept a widow?!

Yes, he deserves a better woman. He is continuing his education. And of course he must focus on his college in order to achieve his goals.

 

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"Wait a long time, huh, Orange?"

"Not too long ago, Brother."

"Kirain, it's been pissed waiting, me."

"If it used to be, yes, maybe I'm upset."

"O, so now it's normal, it's bodo time, is it?"

"meaning?"

"Oh. Forgetit. Ohya, looks like something important, until we meet today?"

Duuh, I'm so hard to say. After I was silent for a moment. I also tried to convey my purpose of inviting adelio to the meeting.

"Honestly, I invited you to meet. Because I want to feel back the time that was once with you, sister. It was on this beach where I really felt the beauty of love. Feel your affection, brother. Yes, until this moment. I still love you, brother."

"So, Orange?"

"Don't misunderstand me, brother! I just want to meet up with, brother, this time only, and the last one I'm telling my heart. Moga, Brother, swear it!"

"Yes, Deck. I understand him so much. And honestly, actually I was often alone in this place, to feel what you feel. Sad, sad, disappointed, when we remember our time. But somehow in my heart there is always a push