When the Orange Tassbih

CHAPTER 40 - delete

Tonight, I'm back at my favorite place. Yeah, in my room balcony of course.

Here, I see the sparkling stars in the sky.

Humm, I wish I could feel a starry block in the sky there.

Oh, Adelio, why have you changed?! Am I not worthy of this for you?!

Every time, I miss you. Your shadow is always present in my sleep through my dreams and it always feels like I want to hold tightly to your shadow to stay there when I wake up.

I look forward to the day we meet. Looking forward to a wonderful moment in my life today. I walk alone for my love for you.

But when our meeting happened. Only the pain you give.

Humm, Adelio, why did you break my hopes for you.

I hope you will be my light like the stars in the sky. But instead you turned away from me.

In this city too, I am now trapped in grief.

Oh, what should I do now?!

Why did you tell me about your asia! Yes, if you didn't say it. Maybe not like this my pain.

And, would you know that only sorrow and suffering now accompany my steps?!

Dear God, can I have a life partner who can illuminate my journey in this life?!

A gust of night wind, started to give me a chill all over my body. However, I still refused to move from the edge of the balcony.

I still keep glued, contemplating my misfortune.

...............

And, not for how long in solitude I contemplated my fate. Qanita, come to see me.

Only, he, who became the outpouring of all my grievances.

"Someone wants to talk to you, brother orange." said, Qanita, telling me while giving her cell phone.

"Who?"

"Eitherway. Said he called your phone, but your phone's off."

"If, Adelio. No, Nit. Just tell him I don't want to talk to him."

"No. Who called this, a woman."

"Woman?"

"Here, speak!"

I also grabbed the phone in her hand, Qanita. Maybe my mother called.

"Hello!" my broom.

Oh, not my mother, apparently. But, it seems I know whose voice this is.

"Why, Nadia?" many too.

"Yes, Orange. I'm sorry, just called you again!"

"Why? Have you been like, Adelio?"

"You mean, Orange?"

"Adelio has changed, he's not the Adelio he used to be. Are you like that too?"

"Have you met him?"

"Yes, it was noon."

"I'm sorry, Orange. I've made a big mistake with you! Sorry, i!"

"I swear, I don't understand your apology and it seems strange. What's the matter, Nadia?"

"Actually, when you called me on Facebook, when you were already in Jakarta. I lied that I didn't know whereabouts, adelio."

"Haw...! Why?"

"I'm sorry, I!"

"Yes, why are you lying to me? What's your reason?"

"I.I.

"Why? say it!"

"I, I actually, also love Adelio, Orange!"

"A, whataa....?! seruku.

A few seconds my breath was stuck.

If, Qanita, don't hold me in my arms and whisper to me, so that I may remain calm and ask me to be strict and ask me to hold my anger. Maybe I just fainted. Yes, my head was starting to throb a bit, my vision started to twitch.

"Hello, Orange. Orange, please forgive me, me!"

"No, Nadia. You hurt me, you've been mean to me. I thought you were my best friend, you were a good person. But it turns out you really have no conscience!"

"So, I don't think that you're still looking for it, I'm still expecting it."

"But why did you lie, why didn't you tell me the truth?"

"I couldn't be frank then, to you, Orange. And I'm not ready either, Adelio's coming back to you. I was already in love with her the moment you showed up." - Nadia, who made my blood boil.

I try to keep myself calm. However, still I could not help my disappointment, annoyance and sadness. Of course all these feelings are like taking turns gripping my soul. So that I felt a very precise pain in this chest.