When the Orange Tassbih

CHAPTER 37 - delete

Before I knew the clarity of what pain I was suffering. I was very curious to know. But now, I can't even accept my curious answer.

My breath is getting crowded. My heart feels like it hurts to imagine tomorrow or the day after, my history will be finished.

And what grieved my heart the most, when an assumption came to my mind. That is, I will die before my hope is realized. Or die before you meet, Adelio.

Oh, did hope not come to this, will I really take her to death?!

Oh Allah...! Do you not give me healing again? Oh Allah...! I still want to live, much longer.

In my heart I speak in my heart. And of course, my struggle withstands the pressure of all the feelings that surround my mind.

"Upper orange. Big brother, yes! What happened to you, brother. Just a test from God."

The words, Qanita, are. A little disperse my mind that has increasingly dissolved in the vortex of my despair to be able to continue to live this life even longer.

Yes, after a few minutes I was overwhelmed. I asked again, Doctor Sari's mother.

"So I got brain cancer, Doctor Ma'am?!"

"Yes, Deck."

"Do I have a good chance of getting well?"

"God willing."

"How bad is it, Doc?" back I asked.

"Yes, from our examination as accurately as possible from your brain organ scan. We found cancer cells lodged in your brain. But, Thank God, thank God. From the first scan, ever since you entered this hospital. Until yesterday's scan. There was no significant increase to the level that was more at risk of bad."

"Look, Deck. From the results of observations on the performance of cancer cells in your brain. Cancer cells are not so strong in their increase. Yes, the possibility in addition to your immunity is quite stable, also influenced by factors, God. So all this time, we only schedule check-up time. In addition to checking, we also do treatment and therapy that is still standard and has not done surgery to other medical measures, such as radiotherapy or chemotherapy. But we still caution if we have to take more action immediately so that the cancer cell tissue does not increase to a level more malignant than it is now. So, in order to keep things worse and of course before it is too late. I, beg of your willingness, Dek, to have surgery! God willing, I will continue to do my best to heal, Deck."

"Sorry, Doctor! What do I have to do, I'm in surgery?

"Must, Deck."

"Dok, what's the expensive operating cost?"

"Orang, please don't think about the cost, yeah!"

"Dek orange. Qanita, has told me so much about you, about me. Yes, people as good as you, Dek, will certainly also get good rewards as well. So, I told you like I said, Qanita, that you don't have to think about the cost issue. Because I'm personal, I'll help you, too, Dek."

"Oh, thank you so much, Doctor!"

"Yes, Deck. So ask you, Dek, not to overload your mind with such thoughts, yes! Throw away your anxiety, your fear, your pessimism, let alone your despair. Keep up the spirit and always be sure to get well, yeah, Deck!"

"Okay, Doctor Ma'am. Again, thank you very much."

"Yes, equally. Are you ready for surgery?"

"Yes, I'm ready."

"alright. We'll schedule your operation in five days."

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Today, I am trying to do what I am