Waiting Room

Chapter 5 #5

I'm = April

"Okta.." I said hello between broadcasts. Because at that time the song was playing.

"What's? You've forgiven me, haven't you?"

"Don't know.

"Ck. I thought I was."

"Tonight you can't come to the usual cafe?"

"Oh okay.want me to pick it up?"

"No need. You just come at seven."

After I invited Okta, I then asked Janu through a message.

"Janu, you're still home, right?"

"Still, why?"

"Seven o'clock tonight can't you meet me at the cafe? Manti I sent the location."

"could. We're going the same?"

"No need. I'll go alone."

***

From after the broadcast, I was still a thinker. What I should do. Deciding on a choice is not easy. I'm afraid I'm gonna hurt them. It seems like they might not be hurt. Janu has let me know if I am with Okta, and vice versa.

Does this mean they don't love me anymore? Do they really not want me anymore? Ah already. I'll cancel my meeting with them. Uh but..no. I have to meet them first. If they don't want me, I want to be their friend. Okay. I need to be prepared to talk about what I'm gonna say.

"I brought you here because I had something to say. It's concerning..

Gee whiz.... 'It's my language is so formal...

"Look, I brought you here because I had something to say. It's about relationships.....

'What 'relationship? When the time comes I say have a relationship with them? Oh my....

"Look. I want to apologize for....

Because what is it? What is my fault? What I did was natural. It's only natural that I'm angry with them. They have hurt me. I even wish they were gone from the universe. Uh yes? Why did I forgive them? What makes me forgive them? Nevermind! If you think about it, everything gets more confusing.

Bruk. I threw my body on the bed and grabbed my own hair in confusion. Hhhhh.

***

Nightly. It's already night. It's time I left. But I'm still here. It's been half seven more. I'll be late. Okay I'm leaving now. But what will I say later? Ouch...

While thinking I paced back and forth in my room. I took a deep breath and tried to convince myself.

"Huh.... Okay. I'm gonna do this. Make April!!" Say sure.

Slowly the taxi I took reached the place I promised Janu and Okta. I went out and walked in. I saw there was Okta and Janu. Sit down but be quiet with each other. I approached them and sat in front of them. On the table there are three drinks that have not been drunk. The cafe is not filled with many people. There's only the three of us and a couple of guys next door. The atmosphere was like supporting the three of us.

"I'm sorry I'm late..."

"It's okay." Say them simultaneously.

"So.... What are you taking us to....here?" Janu asked terbat.

"Huh.." I took a deep breath first.

"For?" Ask Okta.

"I apologize for not forgiving you yesterday. I feel so guilty. I've made you ask questions with my attitude. I have made you angry....."

"Hey.not at all. We're not angry." Janu calmed me down and held the back of my hand.

Gosh darn. I'm so nervous. They both looked at me seriously. I can't be like this. But I have to try.

"I'd like to say one thing too."

"Say what?" They both said at the same time again.

"E... how do you say it. I want to repeat everything from the beginning again." I'm firm. "I want to make a new story. I honestly can't survive alone. I cannot have happiness without you. I... I. still love you. But it's hard. It's hard when I have to choose one of you. Very difficult...."

"Hey.. calm down. If you don't want to choose us both is fine. You can find another happiness. We'll still be your friends." Janu calmed me down.

"No. I can't. I'm still tied to you both."

"So... Now what do you want?" Okta asked while looking at me seriously.

"I.. I want to start a new story with you...." I held the hand of a man I chose while nodding and looking at him smiling. "But I want the three of us to be best friends with each other." They both nodded and smiled. I've decided my choice. I've anchored my heart to the person I believe will take care of me the most. And all those new stories, starting today. With him. With him who fought me very well.

***

Months and years passed. I sat in front of the house today. Waiting for someone to come home. I stared happily in front of the yard. Staring at a swing accompanied by a carefree laugh. Look at the ball that runs here and there. Then a car came in through the gate. Marking someone I'm waiting for is home.

"June! Anjani! Your father's home!" I called my two children. They both ran and hugged their happy father.

We all went into the house. I made coffee for him who just got home. My son was busy telling his father.

"Well.. look! Lookie! My picture's good no."

"Good! Anjani's pictures are always good."

"Dad.. if that paper plane I made! Lookie! Nice no?"

"Well. But this plane is better.." he carried his son and swung him like an airplane. My two sons laughed cheerfully in his lap.

"Hey.. hey. Poor daddy you're still cape..."

Tin.. tin.

"June! Anjani! Look who's coming!" I called my two children.

"Uncle Okta.." they both cried out happily and hugged his uncle.

"Well... What are you doing?"

"Play plane!"

"Okta... Come on in! Feb, let's go in, come in!"

Here's finally. I married Janu. A good friend who eventually becomes a good life partner. I have two very handsome and beautiful children. Who loved his mother's father. They also have a favorite uncle, he said.

Ah yeah. Octa. He's also married. With Feby. But I brought them both closer. Because I was furious to see him alone continue. Haha. He also has a beautiful son. He named it April. At first I did not agree. But they say they like that name.

So this is the story. After the exhausting wait. We all have a happy ending. About feelings, there's nothing to worry about. Feelings never go wrong finding purpose. But remember, if the destination of your feelings is not accepting, do not be sad. There are still other sincere places that will accept your feelings willingly. Don't get tired of waiting. Life is always about waiting. And waiting, always finding the end that destiny has outlined.

- April. On his happy day after a long wait that is quite tiring.

~TAMAT~