Waiting Room

Chapter 3 #1

I \= January Anggara

Today I intend to go to the campus even though there is no class. I want to meet april. But April also has no classes. Hmmmm. Why did I go to college? Haha. You see, I saw he made an insta story of a photo of a lined tabletop that I believe was handwritten. I'm also sure that photo he took at this time. Because April children who rarely upload photos, especially in insta stories. So if he made an insta story, then yes that's what happened. So I want to take him away. Who knows, he's bored.

I quickly went to college to invite April to eat fried chicken. Haha. We eat that food almost every day. We don't get bored, because when we eat together, it's important it's not what we eat, but who we eat with. Like me. If I eat fried chicken continuously but not with April, I am also bored, lazy, afraid also continue to hoard disease with fast food. But if it's April. Everything I didn't think about.

I keep my motorcycle in the parking lot. Then get down and start walking looking for April. And sure enough, he's in the canteen. But shit, she was with a guy who from yesterday-yesterday made her smile happily. Stifled again. They stood up from their seats, then walked out of the canteen. And they automatically cross paths with me.

"Eh. Janus. What are you doing?." Ask April.

"mmmmmmm. Don't know!." My answer is strange.

"Eh. Yes already. You wanna come with us for a walk?"

"No need. You two go."

"Why?."

"It's okay. Uh Feby!" I shouted at Feby who was passing through the three of us.

"What's wrong?"

"Hmmm. Our job last night." I asked Feby to talk as he walked away from April and Fero.

They both finally left. Ja. Just both. I know it now. I am really jealous. I don't like April being close to the others. Even though I said it was okay if she had a boyfriend, as long as she didn't forget about me. But now it feels different. I was jealous to see him with that guy.

***

I went to the usual fried chicken place. I'm actually lazy, too. But if I eat fried chicken, who knows April wants to eat and be right in front of me. But it's impossible. Yeah, I'll try. I went in and ordered. April was there. My guess is correct. But he stays with the guy. Fero.

"Eh Janu's. Meet again. She was told she didn't want to."

"April. I thought you weren't gonna come here."

"Fero. It's okay, if janu comes to eat at the same table with us?." Ask April to Fero.

"Yes, it's okay." Fero answered with a smile even though I knew he didn't like it.

I sat with both of them. Seeing them talk about anything I don't want to hear. I wish I could be blind and deaf for a moment. Not to see or hear anything about them. It hurts. Yes sick. But is it true that my mother loved April? Or am I just afraid of losing a friend?. I hope what happened was the second. Because if I love her, I'm afraid that she won't love me. I'm afraid he just wants to be my best friend.

I ate quickly and left in a hurry. I just told April that mom was waiting. At home I sit. Read books. No other activity intrigued my taste.

***

April sent me a message tonight. He said he was with Fero. That fast?. Ja. That's fast. Defeating the speed of his run from the city of bandung to the city of Jakarta. Their feelings grow quickly. I don't know what kind of fertilizer they use.

Once you know they're a couple, you'll know how I feel. I feel lost. Feeling that what I needed was no longer there, feeling that things would no longer be the same. Even though I feel that way, I will always pretend.

"Gee. It's so fast. Congratulations on..."

"Hehe. He suddenly expressed his feelings for me. Aaaa. How could I refuse..."

"Where are you going to college?."

"You watch Fero. You come along."

"No ah. I'm on a lot of errands. It's exhausting."

"Well....."

I'm lazy to go with them both. Watching the two of them growling affectionately, while I only held back the wound while hoping for a moment to be deaf and blind.

***

In the days after April, we rarely went together. April is busy with her new boyfriend. He used to invite me to come with them, but I was reluctant. The breakfast he likes to bring is no longer for me. But for Fero. He rarely went to the bookstore with me. Exchange books with me. Ah everything's gray.

***

"Janu... have woken up... Come out, help the neighbors who want to move?."

Huh huh? Mom told me to help them. Wh why? There are a lot of paid officers there. Yes, I washed my face and left the house. A stranger woman was suddenly in front of me.

"April? Why is morning here?"

"I moved house. Hehe."

"Ah joking. Yes already. I'm gonna help the front neighbor."

"Oh yes. That's my house."

"Huh? Actually moving? Why?."

"Let's explain."

"OKAY. I helped clean up your house. Ohhhhhhhhhh!." I ran to the house and helped move the things in the car into the house. I am so happy that April moved. I could meet him more often. If only he had moved in.

***

Everything's done. My sweat poured from my head over my face. The shirt I was wearing was soaked in sweat. I approached April and the mother who was still sitting and chatting together in front of the porch of my house.

"It's drinking. Cape?"

"Yes. Cape. Fainted. But fear of not being caught."

"Haha."

"Eh yes. Why did you move?."

"Father will often go out of town. I will also take care of my sick grandmother. So his return must be rare."

"Why didn't the move get any closer to Grandma's house?."

"There are no friends. If there is you here. So you can play here every day. Meet ibu~. Hehe."

"Oh.." I said while nodding.

"Don't you want me to move here?."

"No. It's not that."

"Easy! I want to go home!!."

Huh huh? Why is he angry? I just answered oh. But he thinks I don't like him here. Haha there's-there's just. I just laughed to see him being so angry. Like a child. Especially if you have started to fold your chest hand. Haha. While walking once in a while he looked me back.

"Why?."

"Didn't you intend to arrest me?."

"So you said you wanted to go home."

"Ah, that's it."

She's weird. He said he wanted to go home. And he wants me to hold him back so he doesn't come home. He thinks this is a soap opera?. There's just.

***

That night I intend to go to his house. But before leaving, I peeked at the state of his house behind my bedroom window. Whether he's home or not. Turns out he was there. From the window of my room I saw him sitting in front of his house. I saw him laughing and talking. He was chatting with the man he was currently waiting for. Fero. That guy again. The endless man made April even more clingy with him.

Damnit. I guess when April's house gets very close to my house, I'll get closer to her too. But it didn't. It seems like my heart is going to get hotter because every day I'm going to see it with Fero. The man she loved.

My eyes kept staring at his house. My eyes were unceasingly staring but my heart felt tight. The more I looked at the two of them, the more the fear of losing was lost. Because it is no longer a fear. But I thought that would happen. I'll lose April one day.