Waiting Room

Chapter 7 #2

I \= April

It's been almost a year since you left, Janu. I missed for almost a year too. I don't want to keep remembering. All I want is to repeat. I don't want to keep waiting, which I want us to see soon. I'm tired of constantly replying to messages, which I want us to give each other a hug.

If I miss that tree, I've created a lot of forests. From the most beautiful forest to the most terrifying forest. The forest that leads to the forest that makes me lost until tired. Sad, lots of crying, sometimes you say "I'm always there." Yes exists. But I don't know which dimension. There is, but either there is for chatting or just simply greeting through a flat screen screen that can only support a tap, not a hug.

Okay now I want to be mad at the universe. I'm starting to hate this. The situation where the miss was exhausting. So, when are you coming home? When am I held behind you, when do we create meetings from week to Saturday. When do we eat chicken and ice cream that chilled chocolate and strawberries. When do we buy a book and exchange the books we buy? When is there another word among all the events. Hopefully soon.

***

No phone calls this morning. There is no greeting from him to welcome my day. But not just today, yesterday he didn't even have time to call me, it's okay. Maybe he was busy.

Then the horn sounded so loud. Okta, his arrival was as I could guess. Starting from what time he will come, to the sound of his horn that only twice he sounded. I've been puffing about it. I ran quickly to see him, whether I was possessed this time. I really hope he comes. Is it because there's no word from Janu? It's probable.

"Hi Ap.." He said hello, I immediately put on my helmet and rode the bike.

"Come on. Hurry along!"

"Oh.. i.."

"Now I want to eat, then go to the bookstore." I said a short word and then I kept quiet again. There was silence there, maybe he was astonished. How not, even though he used to take me, I never acted like this. Usually I would reject him first, yes even though I finally accepted him out of pity he had to wait. Haha. Sometimes he always forced me to eat, but this time I invited him. I don't know, I wonder why I am too.

Arriving at the place to eat, he still looked at me in wonder. Maybe in his heart he asked "why is the woman next to me?" Really, my attitude towards her this time is strange.

"Selfie.." take me. He's asserting. We started to get in style in front of the camera. After taking a picture, I immediately upload it to Instagram with the caption "Friendship."

Okay. This time I can't shut myself off from Okta continuously. He's been very kind to me. To think of him as a true good friend would I rely on it feels fine. I'm sorry, I've reneged on a promise I made first, a promise not to get too close to any man. But Okta is different, she really wants to take care of me, I don't think she intends to keep me away from janu. He also asked Janu for permission. So yeah, I guess it's okay.

***

"What book do you want?" Okta asked as we walked into the bookstore. I didn't answer it right away. We walked through the bookshelves lined up. Until I stop at one of those bookshelves where there's a conan detective comic.

"You're that okta!!" I jumped and kept trying to reach for the comic because it was at the top. While I was jumping, okta was busy laughing looking at me who was in trouble.

"Ih.." I saw him and hit him hard.

"What?" As if she didn't know what.

"You're insensitive yes. Get it!! I already know I'm having a hard time."

"Jas. Come on." He bowed his body in front of me. "Come on. He said he'd take the book." Further. I hesitantly climbed on his back and he began to carry me. Janu....... I've been remembering you. You usually carry me like this. When I'm lazy to walk, you usually do this. Now you don't exist.

"It has. It's been. Downhill!" I told him to put me down. But instead of putting me down, he turned around until I wanted to scream out loud.

"Okta... quit.." I kept trying to make him stop doing that while grabbing his hair. But still, he just kept turning around and laughing. Basic yes, do not pity what see me swayed like this.

We only bought two books, but the damage was outrageous. Because of him. Fortunately, he was not called a security guard. Haha. Oh yeah, I bought detective conan's comic while he bought tere liye. I told you when we're done reading we should exchange. But he refused because he didn't like comics.

"No way."

"Ck. How come?" I put on an upset face.

"When I'm done reading. The book is for you."

"Well, that's better. Let's go!"

"Haha. Ja. Come on!" He passed away while I was just wailing and quiet. "Come!!" He grumbled.

"Baske ya?" Ask me.

"God. Yasudah, come!" He leaned over and carried me out. Who is this? Janu right? They are both too alike!!

***

"When you want to pay."

"Later I say."

"good. Tell them that their child is like a child! Keep carrying!"

"Haha. It's been. Hurry home! Salim first." I said while extending my hand. But he patted my hand.

"Well. I'll see you later." The bike then moved away from my front door. I smile more often when I'm around him. Because of his attitude that somehow always reminds me of Janu.

***

Finally at night, a video call from Janu appeared as well. I hurried to lift him up. He put on a face like a tired man.

"Why?" Asking me worried.

"Many tasks. From morning to evening. Sorry I rarely call you." Then he smiled.

"Yes. It's okay." I put on a happy face.

"Why are you so happy?"

"Oh.this... I just bought a new book...."

"Octa-same?"

"Eh. Ja. I'm sorry I didn't say."

"It's okay. Just chill. What matters is that you have no more feelings for her. And I'm sure you won't make it that way."

"Hmmm." I smiled again.

"Oh yes. I have something to say."

"What?"

"How come.. Look at it. Next month I have a holiday. But I can't go home yet."

"Why?"

"mmmmmmm. There's business."

My face turned sullen. Next month is a special month. Why shouldn't he go home?

"Jas. It's okay what. Next year the origin comes home and we walk the road of the kingdom ampat huh?"

"Eh. Do you remember the king of amps? I thought I forgot."

"Still be. I also remember that you promised to take me there."

"Yes. Ja. Relax, I won't forget. But not now, sorry."

"Yes.."

For the first year she left, I thought there would be a lull in a long, torturous relationship. I thought he would meet me for a moment, give me a warm hug or a relief backrest to heal my longing. Apparently not. There is something more important he said. It's okay what. As long as he's happy there, I'm ready to wait for him. Hope so. Hopefully I will be strong through the second year which will probably be more torturous.