Waiting Room

Chapter 1 #5

I'm = April

For the day the beginning was left, the pain was still covered in my body. The pain of being left behind by someone I love very much. I still can't accept everything. I still hope Janu will withdraw all his words.

The first day, I locked myself in my room. Not going out or seeing anyone. And that's the stupid thing I did. Just staying home, it's not gonna be over, April.

"Mom~." I screamed in front of Janu's house in the morning. But there's no answer at all. Is mom gone? But where did it go? Since there was no answer at all, I decided to just go home.

"Where did it come from?" Ask my mom when I come in

"From the front house."

"What off?"

"Finding Janu's mother."

"That's it. Forget your Janu." Mom held my arm.

"But ma'am...."

"Listen mother. You were made sick by it. So for a moment forget the memory of him hurting you. So that you can heal and recover. Forget, huh?"

"But April was just looking for her mother."

"To get her to persuade Janu to come back with you?" Mother.... Why would you know? A psychic mother or what?

My head just nodded. Then I went back to the room.

***

Now I'm sitting in the garden. Waiting for someone I've already met. He said in a few minutes he came.

From far away I saw a woman coming towards me. He walked slowly and greeted me.

"April." She sat down next to me.

"Hello feb." Sapaku's back on feby.

"What did you ask to see?"

"I want to have a serious conversation with you."

"Chat what?"

"I broke up with Janu!"

"Huh? Seriously?" I just answered him with a nod.

"And I'd like to ask. But sorry before."

"Heem. What do you want to ask?"

"Mmmmm how is it?"

"Tell me."

"mmmmmmmmm. I'm not suspicious or anything. It's just asking. Kira kira........ You didn't send this photo to Janu?" I asked stammeringly while showing a photo that made me and Janu part ways.

"Hmm?" He looked in wonder at the photo.

"Not me. not me. Besides, I've never been in contact with Janu again."

"Seriously not you? Not because you're jealous and want to see me part with Janu? So you sent me this photo?"

"Seriously. I wasn't. I swear it. If you don't believe me, you can see my HP." He started to take out his HP.

"Hopefully you and Janu can come back okay." He held my hand before leaving and I nodded.

As I left the park and was walking on the sidewalk, a motorbike stopped next to me and rang its calcone twice. I looked to the right where the bike stopped. He's Okta. Ah yes, my gosh. I don't remember him. It's possible that he sent the photo to Janu. He said he loved me so much and would wait until I wanted to. Not geer or anything? But with all the things that happened, who else could possibly have done all this?

"Where are you going?" He asked while opening his helmet.

"home."

"Let's ride!"

"No."

"Why you?" He brought his face closer.

"Your date."

"I? What's that supposed?" He got off his bike out of curiosity for what I said.

"Wait a minute." I took out my HP and tried to find that image. "You're the one who sent this picture to Janu? Because of this photo. I have to part with him!!!"

"Eh. It means to separate, you and janu...."

"Yes. I broke up with her. And it's all because of this photo!"

"the photo? Who took this picture?"

"Don't pretend. I know for a fact that you told someone to take and send this photo to Janu! I know you're jealous. I know if you expect more from me. But this is not how! What you did was so disappointing!!!" I snapped at him right then and there.

"But seriously. I don't know what." He tried to defend himself.

"No need to lie!!! I'm sure it must be you!! Listen well well well. Don't you ever call me again!! Don't ever see me again!! Don't you ever dare come to my house again!! Unless you intend to fix everything!!!" I pushed his chest. My eyes are starting to water. I can't hold back my crying anymore. I left after the words came out.

"Wait.." he held my hand. "Please. Don't act like this." Her request.

"You're the one who made me have to behave like this!!" I took off my hand and left while wiping away the tears that came out soaking my cheeks.

"But I really don't know what April is!!" He shouted loudly. Then I heard a loud slamming. Maybe the helmet he slammed.

I can't believe what I did just now. I accused him without proof. But I'm sure, because all the signs really point to him. No one else would do that except him.

***

By ourselves. For now, it is the best choice. No one's bothering. There was no one who said he loved but in the end he left. There is no one who seduces with thousands of promises but never keeps. Enough of all that. I'mtired. I've been let down many times, but only this time I was so unwilling to let someone I loved go. Very unwilling. It was so painful and piercing. My feelings broke apart and I don't know where all the pieces are now. I am lazy to collect and reassemble it so that the feeling recovers again.

I am no longer someone whose heart is broken. I've given half my heart to someone I believe will take care of her. But no, he just threw it away until the heart was crushed by thousands of pain.

***

I slammed my body into the bed. The crying is not gone either. The tears did not end. Unknowingly, I slept. Rest all the tightness that does not stop. Abandoned, let down, broken, painful. I better not meet the one who made me feel all that. I have memories of them far away. It was so far away that the memory could not return home.

***

I woke up in the afternoon because my mother woke me up.

"Eat first. You haven't eaten."

"Eh mother. Keep it on the table. I'm still too tired to chew." She kept the food she brought. He opened his arms and hugged me tightly in his arms.

"Hmmmmm. Abandoned is painful. But don't get too bad. That's not good. It's okay you're abandoned. Maybe this is all God's way of telling you that you deserve better."

"But he's someone who's the best in my opinion, ma'am..."

"If he's the best, he won't leave you." Mother's words were enough to make me shut up. He's correct. If he was the best, he wouldn't have hurt me and just walked out of my life.