Waiting Room

Chapter 2 #5

I \= April

The day passed too. I try to get out of all that pain. I fixed that broken heart plan. I returned the pieces of that broken feeling. Even though it can't go back to how it was, at least it's all healing and I can be happy again.

I walked out carrying a pile of laundry. In front of my gate there's already that bully. He was sitting on his bike. But I don't mind it. I walked to deliver the laundry. He followed me, leaving his bike in front of my house.

"It's chocolate!" He said while giving me a chocolate. But I still don't care.

"You still angry?"

"April. I told you I don't know what the picture is about."

"That's it. Don't be angry anymore. We're better, okay?" He kept rambling until I got to the laundry.

"Mom. I'll take the afternoon."

"Oh yes mba."

Until I got home, he followed me.

"Let's eat fried chicken!"

"Or we go to a bookstore!"

"You just watch how?"

"I told you never to come back unless you want to fix everything!!" Bruk. I turned on my HP music. Connect it to the loudspeaker in my room. I played the song at random. A song from the float titled while singing melodiously in my room.

My feet are moving towards the study table. A brown notepad that is familiar made me remember the figure of the giver.

Meanwhile, my heart is still.

Not far away anymore.

It's not time you fell.

The lyrics touched my heart slowly. Heart, please shade for this time. It's not time you fell and broke. Let's get up and make that happy again.

I slowly opened the chocolate note. I open one page. There are recorded memories of me with two men I once loved. My eyes slowly water, but my lips develop a smile. I saw the poem that the two men had made. The beautiful poems they made before they let me down.

I picked up a pen and started writing down my feelings.

End of all stories

Maybe this is the end.

The people I thought were guarding turned out to be wounding.

Someone I thought made me whole turned out to make me fragile.

He, the guardian of the heart who turns out to be a heart-breaker.

And he, the loyal bodyguard who turns out to be the wound creator.

Maybe this is the end.

The three of us didn't meet each other in the middle

But split each other in all directions.

Separate and give each other severe injuries.

My doorbell sounded over and over again. I looked out the window. The heartbroken man remained silent there. I don't know what he's waiting for. I told him not to see me again unless he wanted to fix everything.

Trust me, more than we've ever been through.

We will no longer have to go far

Enjoy lara.....

The song still goes hard. Gave me a warning not to get dissolved in that wound. To immediately accept all lara heart. Enjoy it without tears.

The song changed. Now playing is a song of joy from nadin amizah. I remember when I was heartbroken. Janu once said that separation should be celebrated. But with him, the farewell felt impossible to celebrate. He just didn't call me anymore. And maybe our friendship ended here. Don't say thank you to him, just explain the photo he didn't receive. He never answered my message or picked up my phone. Now it's time to take it off. Maybe I should start believing that he wasn't meant for me.

***

Now it's time for me to go on broadcast. I ordered an ojek online. In a few minutes the motorcycle I ordered will come. I just wait for the motorcycle outside.

"Mba, the house is a black fence, right? Which wall is ash?" A message from the online geek.

"Yes sir. Right."." Right."

"This is said to be her boyfriend. So how? Want to be in cancel?"

"Wait for you sir." I rushed out. There's still Okta. He told mas mas ojek to leave. But I'm getting on the ojek soon.

"Let's go!" I said so Okta wouldn't bother me much.

"Miss. Is it the same with her boyfriend?"

"Oh. It's just nice that he doesn't like her. But pity him he's waiting in front of the house."

"I feel more sorry for you. You need money for your wife's children at home."

"Hehe. Neng can do it."

***

"Good night everyone. Back again same April and Kania. blah blah blah blah. I started the broadcast. Then I gave it a moment with a song.

"April. Tuh Okta in front of that ketok ketok continued. Noisy. Meet first!" Said vino my producer. So that no one would disturb me, I decided to go out.

"What the hell are you doing? This is not the time for you to work. Don't disturb. Better get home!!" I snapped at him and pushed his chest to get him away. Everyone in my broadcast room was a little shocked. But I immediately sat back down and tried to calm myself down.

"April. Why?" Ask Kania.

"It's okay."

"Yes, if you want to keep it yourself, the problem is okay."

We continue the broadcast. "This time, request by phone. Who's our first caller, hello?" Kania.

"Hello. April. Please come out first. I want to talk." After that, Kania looked at me. I'm nodding. Understand what he means and get out.

"What are you talking about?"

"I want to explain...."

"Everything is clear, Okta. Janu and I broke up. And that's because of you. Don't bother me anymore. I want to live quietly. By ourselves. Without anyone saying love but it hurt." I tried to leave, but he held me back.

He took a deep breath before speaking.

"OKAY. I explain. It was me who sent the photo to Janu."

"Yes, right? Now you confess. Everything is clear now. Very clear!! So don't you ever bother me again!!"

"Everything I do is because I love you so much!"

"Oct. We've talked about this!"

"But I can't keep doing this! I really want to be yours!"

"Oct! Love is accepting each other instead of forcing!"

"But..."

"But what?"

"Everything I do is just so we can come together."

"United? By separating? That's the dumbest thing I've ever known."

"But...."

"Your reasons don't help what Okta!" I immediately ran to the broadcast site crying.

Hmmmm. Crybaby indeed. Basic april!!

"Why Pril?" Ask kania. I just shook my head.

I continued the broadcast with tears I was holding. As much as possible I should look fine.

By ourselves. From now on I should be happy in solitude. Do not rely on happiness in others. Don't ever. Because everyone can create a sense of disappointment!!

After the broadcast, Kania invited me to sit down for a while so as not to go straight home. He grabbed me by the shoulder and started talking.

"If you are sad, be sad. Don't shut it down." After she said that sentence, I immediately hugged her tightly and cried in her arms. That feels like a relief. Like being thirsty in a desert, then finding water that is soothing.

"So why?" Ask her.

"Dark."

"Why?"

"Just like your own feelings. Janu, Okta, both are hard to get out of memory."

"Why should it be eliminated? They love you."

"It is precisely they who make me sad like this."

"Remember no? Janu used to be your best friend, who took you where including when auditioning to be a broadcaster, until he expressed his feelings and you accepted him. And Okta, she was always there for you when Janu wasn't around. Which gives you a surprise birthday, which invites you to go to the place of your dreams, so....Just because they both have made you hurt, do both have to disappear from the universe? Not really, is it? Be good friends with both of them and forgive their mistakes, April."

"Later try. But for now it feels like it can't. Everything's too painful."

"Yes dong..do not be sad anymore.." he rubbed my hair and hugged me tightly.

"Thank you, right..."