Waiting Room

Chapter 4 #5

I'm = April

For a few days, they didn't show messages or calls on my HP. Because I've changed the SIM card. I'm sure they won't bother me anymore. My life will be quiet.

There's a morning broadcast today. I replaced someone who said he couldn't attend. It's still half-seven, and the broadcast will start in half an hour. Since I had not had breakfast, I bought a bowl of green bean porridge in front of the radio station.

"Eh April! Was it from earlier?" Ask someone when I'm eating.

"Hey. Just new. New coming! Come with breakfast!"

"Yoo. Yang satiated. I'm going first, right?!"

"Yes...."

"Eh.." He came back again like there was forgetfulness. "Is the book coming?"

"Be. Hehe." God, I forgot that Okta is the producer of the broadcast today. Ouch. I patted the jidat many times. "April......"

***

And what happened next was; octa was next to me. I've asked to move seats but no one wants to. And I'm stuck here, too.

But even though he's next to me, he doesn't talk much. It just keeps pouting. Haha. Let it. Let's not interfere.

"This is a read yes for this song's commercial!" Okta said coldly while giving a paper.

The paper is two sheets. There is a sheet for advertising, and another one. It is like this :

Don't be angry for long. Yes already? I'm tired of trying to stay away. We started everything like the beginning again, right? I beg you. I can't keep going like this. All right, I'll do whatever we come from like before. Please forgive me for not being able to fix everything....

from Okta

Who was struggling to persuade his daughter's master.

I don't care about it immediately.

"Hi everybody. For those of you who like to eat. Well, that's coincidence. Now again there is a promo bla bla bla......"

Just a few steps I walked out, Okta held me back. He held my hand so I wouldn't leave.

"You what?" I asked calmly.

"OKAY. It's okay if you won't forgive me. But you have to go back to Janu. You should be happy again. He loves you so much, April. Don't be like this, huh? Importance of your happiness."

"I don't know. I'm confused by how I feel, Okta. I'm rattled. Who should I treat, I don't know! Enough's enough! I seem to be destined to be alone!"

"No! You should be happy and come back with your baby..."

"Huh.. I don't know.." I took a deep breath and rushed home.

***

When I was about to enter the house, there was someone sitting in the front seat of my house. Gosh... Why did he come back here? Wh-wh-what for? To make me more broken? God, is all this pain not enough? Please stop it immediately.

Huhhhhh.... If I go into the house, I have to get through it first. Very lazy. I walked towards the door without caring. While on the doorstep, my hand was pulled and I was made to face it.

"April.." call her while holding both my cheeks and look at me with a soft swipe. She wanted to hug me, but realized that I was angry with her.

"I don't want to meet you. Go!"

"Please listen to me...."

"Go home! I don't want to see you again. Enough with everything! I'm sick!" I pushed his chest hard.

"I'm sorry? Where have you been all this time, Janu?! Where were you when I tried to explain everything? You didn't listen to him, did you? When you left everything was already in a mess! Nothing can fix it including your apology!!" I can't hold back my anger anymore. I quickly entered the house and closed the door hard.

"April.please forgive me for all this time I misunderstood..."

"You just realized it now? Where were you when I was seriously injured?"

"Yes sorry, I just found out when Okta explained it. April.. please.. I'm coming back here just for you..."

The octa? So Okta told him? Why is Okta doing all this? He knew that everything could not be repaired. Why is he forcing?

"That's your fault. No one told you to come here!!" I sat down weakly against the door. Letting my tears come down with sobs that won't stop.

He has been quiet for a long time. Maybe he's gone...

"OKAY. I'm sorry for the last time. But I only asked for one...."

"I want you to have a new relationship with Okta. Because I'm sure only he can make you happy. I'm sure he can take care of you. You want to huh? Be happy with him. Then I'll be happy to see it too..."

I'm getting confused. Okta asked me to be with Janu, while Janu asked me to be with Okta. What am I supposed to do? Chose? Or let them both be confused by my choice? Why does it have to be like this? Wh why?

Listen music. That's all that can amuse me right now. At that time the song that I played was the song Love You and Him from The Rock which is very much in accordance with my current taste.

Again forgive me...

Because I. love you and him....

I'm sorry I won't leave him...

I don't know who he is. I was confused who I wanted to be with. Who do I want, who do I need, who am I best confused. Very confused.

***

Sleep is never wrong to be an option to suppress the mind. As I slept, I woke up in the afternoon. It was also because my mother woke me up. If I don't wake up, maybe I'll just sleep on. Haha.

"Well, mom, wake up? I just slept a little too. It's still afternoon, right?"

"Sleep for a second? The afternoon? It's morning! Looky!" Tukas mother while opening the curtains.

"Huh? By morning? Is this really morning?" I was overwhelmed by wonder.

"Yes. It's morning. Look clock!"

Oh, my God, it's morning. I slept from noon yesterday. That long? Very quickly time passed. But, as soon as time passes, trouble never passes. There still is.

"Already! Don't think too much! Let's breakfast!"

"I. yeah, I wash my face first."

***

"Mom, if you were told to choose two people who are expecting you, you would choose which one to hurt you unintentionally but it hurts a lot, or hurt your mother by lying to make her own? Which one would you choose to start a new story with your mom?"

"Hmmmmm. My mom's smile, anyway. If you are comfortable with her, even if she has hurt you, you will forgive. Look, love someone who fights you well, not who has hurt you in a bad way."

Instantly I fell silent. I who was busy chewing suddenly stopped. Now I'm starting to think again who I'm going to choose. Or do I not have to choose? No. gabe. I have to choose. Just yesterday when I decided to be alone, they kept terrorizing me. Gee whiz....

***

"Mr April on broadcast..."

"Yes.the heart of the heart...."