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86. Everything is out of my control

...There was a time when everything was out of your control...

...circumstances that never existed in the prediction...

...or even a dream...

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I looked out the window, Sunlight breaking through from the vertical blind gap. Refracts the golden light on the carpet. Our positions are still the same, facing each other. Silence in each other's minds.

"I'm afraid to see this ring in your day, can you get rid of it?" I saw my hand in Bian's. The second time he asked for the same thing.

Immediately I pulled a hand from Bian's grasp but he held it.

"It's not you who's making a difference but this ring. Reminds me that there's another one,"

"Yes, that's what happened,"

"You say it like it's without a burden,"

"I'm telling you the truth is happening, Brother Bian. Isn't the truth like that, you came all of a sudden, Brother. Give me time to think and digest everything first,"

"Don't tell me you're thinking of accepting Kenzo's proposal. From the first time I met him, I saw something else in Kenzo's self,"

"When did you meet Kenzo?"

"When he came to the airport and said you were different than you were in the past. He praised you in front of me,"

"Maybe it's just a spontaneous reaction, brother,"

I just realized something, behind Kenzo's calmness and order. He has a spontaneous nature that I just realized. Something that is inversely proportional to the calmness of self displayed.

"What are you thinking?"

"It's nothing, Brother Bian. I'll go home first, yeah,"

"Don't!"

I was a little surprised to hear Bian's response. Not usually the tone of his voice is high.

"You don't miss me, Nggrek? after all this time we did not meet. I missed you, baby. Stay here with me."

I honestly want to be with Bian for a little longer. This love is still there for him. This meeting further strengthens the existing sense.

"Sorry Bian, Kenzo chose me and I have accepted it. We're still committed, I'm not going to betray that commitment that's still there,"

"Commitment?! after all I've done this is all I've received from you? you're gonna pick him? you deliberately tortured me, Maharani Orchid!" I can see Bian's jaw hardening. It shows the emotions he is holding back.

I gently held Bian's face, dampening the emotions that came up.

"I was betrayed it was so painful. Why did I back off when your engagement to Tasya was determined, against any desire to have you. That's because I don't want to be the third person,"

Bian clenched his mouth, his expression hardened again.

"Have you forgotten what I said before? I'd be devastated if I wasn't with you, my dear."

"Yes I still remember it but you came all of a sudden. I have to get everything done, Brother Bian."

"You're gonna get rid of Kenzo, aren't you?"

"I appreciate Kenzo now. It's a principle I hold, give me a chance to finish it. I'm not gonna cheat on Kenzo or cheat on him. Whatever the reason I won't betray the people who put their trust in me,"

Bian grabbed my hand from his face then clasped tightly. Calmness began to envelop him. I slowly pulled my hand from Bian's.

I looked at Bian, He looked hurt. The fact that I still belong to Kenzo, makes me strengthen myself not to calm Bian down. Kenzo treated me well and so did his family and friends. I appreciate the commitment with Kenzo.

"Grand, may I ask but you promise to answer honestly huh?"

"Yes... I promise, Brother,"

"Do you still love me, I beg you to answer honestly," Bian said softly making my face flushed to hear Bian's question. I couldn't lie because Bian looked me in the eye.

"Yes, Brother Bian you are right. I still love you."

"Is that really what you said? can I trust him?'

"I say what I feel in this heart, Brother Bian."

Bian advanced his body, approaching the face towards me. Both hands holding the hand of the chair, the wheel on the chair rotates. Get me closer to Bian. His voice turned firm and strong, He looked at me fixedly.

"I will never go wrong choosing a Maharani Orchid. I fight for you, send people to guard while I'm not next to you. If you don't vote for me then I'll finish with Kenzo."

I pull my body back to the back of the chair. This time Bian appeared as a true descendant of Setya Prasetya. Bian showed blood flowing in his body. He will do anything to achieve what should be his.

Even the way she talks right now is exactly what Aunt Lusy did, when I first met Mama Bian. Playing intonation to provoke the response of the interlocutor .

"I love you and you, all the obstacles in our relationship have been removed. There's only one obstacle I haven't gotten rid of, I need your help this time. Get rid of him, Kenzo Arta Saputra in your life,"

My net was rounded when Bian recited Kenzo's full name. He's been figuring out who Kenzo is. I turned my face to the table, looking for a cup of coffee before my consciousness disappeared with this state.

"Your coffee is already barren from earlier, I'll make you another cup."

Bian stood in front of me. I'm not kidding this time if I say I'm out of breath. As much as I could, I took a breath and blew many times. Control is not in my hands.

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Bian's footsteps stopped me from pulling and breathing. I'm trying to seem normal, trying to relax the tense body from earlier.

"Ah, No," Bian put the still steaming coffee emitting the aroma of coffee that managed to make me calm down. I don't know I'm addicted to coffee like it is, every thought is not calm. A glass of coffee was restored.

"Sorry, Orchid. I was carried away by emotion,"

"It's okay,"

"I've already started renovating the property you're renting. I promise it won't take long so you can use it as soon as possible,"

Bian sat back behind the table. Switching conversations.

"Yes, thank you, Brother Bian for your help. The rental price of this property is far below the market price and you also want to fix it,"

"You know that's a special price, Orchid."

"Yes, Brother Bian. Again, thanks."

Trrtt.. Trrtttt

The ringing of the cell phone stopped our conversation. I grabbed the bag and picked up the phone, Kenzo's name on the screen.

I'm not comfortable talking to Bian. At first I put it back in the bag but Kenzo called again. I picked up the phone and headed to the couch.

"Hello, Ken"

"Hello... Baby,"

"Yes,"

"Where are you, which is,"

"I'm out with Dewo, Ken,"

"In Black and White, right?"

"Eh, Yes... Do you know where I'm from?"

"Don't see your car on purpose so I'm coming here,"

"Yes, where are you now? I was in the back. Not far from the toilet later I samperin same Dewo yes,"

"I'm at the front entrance, I'm waiting."

I immediately picked up the bag in Bian's front seat. The heart beats fast when it sees Bian sitting relaxed while paying attention to the tablet at the table. The tablet was slightly pointing towards me. Display CCTV capture display in cafe.

"I helped Brother Danar keep an eye on the state of the cafe, It just so happened that he gave the password of the CCTV application connected to my tablet. It just so happens, Orchid,"

Bian explained without me asking. He was listening to me and Ken. Beyond my expectations, Bian is watching Kenzo from CCTV.

"You did it on purpose, brother?"

"Yes your guess is right. I did see Ken-zo on purpose. Your coffee is spent. I specially made it for you. He's not going anywhere, still at the entrance,"

"You shouldn't have done this, brother,"

"Hm... You protect him, I'm getting interested."

Bian raised his eyebrows, his lips forming a thin smile. He looked back at the tablet. Makes me immediately stick to Bian's coffee. Oh, my God, the coffee's still hot.

"Save half for me, baby. Go while I can still let you go right now."

You told me to spend it, now ask for half. What the hell do you want? a scolding that only comes out of my heart.

"Alright, I'll excuse you."

"Snack, Wait,"

"Yes, what's wrong with Brother Bian?"

"Don't forget to open everything you've blocked from me,"

"Okay, Brother Bian."

A calm sea will not produce a tough sailor,

Yesterday I was still reviewing a sentence I often read in motivational articles.

Now I understand, the conflict in the Bian family that had occurred before we became acquainted. Plus our relationship that went down and then ended up running aground yesterday.

Bian has booked into becoming more resilient and strong-minded. He was no longer Bian who ran away from trouble. Bian's different now, he'll solve all the problems soon.

Ah, I forgot that I'm a year old. Bian is like that too. A lot happened in our farewell yesterday.

My life has always been tested by choice, I have to strengthen myself. There is no choice but to face.

Regardless of that all this time Dewo and Danar will not get away because they both made me here.

I snorted in annoyance, The men around me are indeed troublesome..

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